"Its not a phase, I just want you to stay wit mie."

I totally blew it tdae. I missed out on so much by not talkin really face2face wit him. Suddenly evry worries i had jus dissapeared n i was like fer once fallin all over again. though we wernt near at all. quite far. sobs. n all we get was hies. sheesh. i blew it. i blew it. i blew it. o fuck. gawd damnit. why must i be like this. can i turn back tyme? please?? i hate this man. aniwae he looked as cute as ever. hah! to mie larh. haha. wonder if he grew anie taller. hmm

i was at skewl tdae. like finally. was really happy n excited. yeay. saw like quite a no. of peeps! *smiles* all those that i wanted to see n meet i saw n met! im so happy. went ther wit impx n zu, cause did chem project, which miss tan i think has totally forgotten. n she told us tht therd b ard 10 more ppl joinin us. thats so fuckin craps. no more 5s. sheesh.thn met up wit rashmi n mei yan. we reunites. hah. niwae, there were ncc goin on n also band. n some othas. at ferst walked twards tha board thingy. its like mie n phat tak sabar nk chat2 ngok org yg namer ader pat board tu. haha. th while walkin saw raf medee n gang tu smua larh. y m i talkin in malay! gees.. at ferst he dint see mie, but then this farhan razak i think wenta shout out ma name. dunnoe fer wad reason. o craps. thn thn thn wenta sit outside bookshopy fer a while. cus zu wanted to get cme book thn saw ivor n fina. haha. so many people. so lil tyme! haha. i miss skewls atmospher. but nxt year so gonna b diff, no seniors. sobs. were gonna b tha seniors. so much fer 2005.

thn went out japs. go get tha vnguard sheets n glue n stuffs. he calld mie. blablabla. saw more peeps. i think. still i cant totally get over myself fer lettin it go. bleahs. so thn met up wit adil go get books fer radha, dunnoe la. he seemed so bored at home. haha. so got ma books thn wenta radhas place. passed tha project n books to her. n thats wen we lauffed alot alot. hah.

thn met raudhah in tha bus thn headed ta tm. went ther wenta popular. thn took neoprints, again. haha. later ill put it up. thn umairah came. haha. she wanted to pre - ordered taufiks cd. thn wenta mj, they said tmr. hah. thn dcided to haf luch cum dinner. zu n odz wenta ljs mie impx n mai wenta some food court at cs.

n tdae, met up wit that dude. he looks awfully different from tha pictures. n he is awfully sweet. he is daym tall. tha wae he walks is like aizat. hah. but he is officially tha boy-nxyt-door. not really cutesy kind. neither is he tha those extremely good lookin kinda hunks. jus a simple guy. yeayness. so at ferst he wanted to take mie outs fer swensens which i dunnoe why.. but i was runnin outta tyme. thought at ferst i got tuition at 6.. so i told him im in no mood to eat. lolx. thn he wanted to send mie home. as usual, tha fear of bumpin into parents took its toll. so i declined. heh. thn i met him, he tagged along wen i wenta made taufiks pre ordered cd at sembawang. [its jus a spurr of tha moment thang, lucky i got cash wit mie] he evn offered to pae fer it. aww. thats so sweet. yeay! haha. got hes calender also. which he, as in taufik, is so ever cute. haha. u guys should go n get it!

n he took tha sayme bus s mie since hes headin twards simei. hah. thn talked talkd. blablablues. but dropped at phats stop i think. all in all. hes da ryte kinda dude. though im not gonna treat him like a backup. no wae. not animore. im all wae out of tht kinda stuffs. heh.

so got home, found out i dint have anie tuition. anuther `FUCK. yeah. im so full of that kinda werds nowadays. dun evn ask mie why.

so nowe im home. thinkin of tdae all over. n im totally still am missin my guy. sobsob. i do. i really am. please, can we hang ard soon? please. . .