" Cry your eyes to sleep is like a thousand rainy nytes. "

for tha ferst tyme in so many nights, i cried yesterday. haaa. it got mie thinkin, actually im always thinkin, tht people say its not worth it to cry for sumone else. but tha way things were put into place when those words came out made mie feel sumthin. struck sumthin in mie to make mie cry. i dunnoe.

i rang phat up. hoping shed noe wad to do. but she cant help mie ith this sorta things. shes not goin thru it. i am. blahs. no one noes tha key to my personal lyfe. no one will. unless i really opened up. but that will nvr happen.

and yesterday i dreamt bout sumbody else. sumone whom i least expected. geee. i got tha blues. im so in no mood to entertain and more shits. please tell mie wad ur intentions are ferst if u are plannin to do anythin. haa. i need help. i need sumone to cheer mie up. this is crap.