" I had a bad day. "

i love this song. its just nice, peaceful and evrythinn. k fine this all shitts lah kann. why'd u wanna knoww. blahhs.

finally, i think, after this past few days, im leaving that one behind. i dont want to. but i got to. that one did shitts to me. that one smothered me. that one that chnged my perspective, my thinking, my evrythin. that one left me hangin and dint come back. that one was not great, neither is that one the worst. that one used to be just perfect. but that was at that point in time. i know im not making any sense, but thats the whole point. for you to get confused, if you did, that is.

soo when i need one, none came. when i've learnt to live by myself, runnin solo, knowin that i'll survive in ways or another, without the attention of any other mortals helpin me thru [other than frens, that one i LOVE you guys to the tiniest bitts] , they come stroddin byy. annd struck me by the cord when its only in a days adventure. what has the world turn into?? is it always always like this? or does this only happen to me?

should i? or should i not? should i wait till whenever, see if any other mortals would kindly cross paths with mine. should i keep those hangin ones waitin? mean of me to but i dunnoe. im not in shitts to think of anything. i just want to chill relax emplore experience, myself and the mysterys beyond like evry other day. but im not makin any decisions. at least, not yet, not now. sorry. but i'll tell soon. befo my birthday. =)

but i still want that one, you know? that one never left my brain. evn if i did try. soo, those hangin ones just gotta hafta pardon me.

i guess thats enough of my fuckingly irritating dilemma. i dont know if its evn considered a freakin dilemma. shitts. im in my kurang-ajar mood. in other words, my i'll-talk-back-to-you-so-dont-get-into-my-freaking-nerves mood. my freakin heck-care-thats-ur-problem mood. you knoww? one of those fuckinly bloody mood swings that girls go through. dont ask more cause you should bloody assly know. soo, to anyone and evryone, i know for those who im tryin to refer to from the above paras, i apologise for labelling or whatsoever lah okayy.

soo had quite an okayy day today. sort of family day. nice. homeworks still not complete. dont want to continue anymore. sick of E V E R Y T H I N G . E V E R Y T H I N G , i tell you. im lookin for that micheal jackson song. the one on tv. and smallville soundtracks.

and im turnin 16 in exactly 2 weeks and a days time. presents ? hahas.

so yeah, i'll say goodnight - goodbye - and i WILL goo.