i should stop having this midnight paranoia outbreaks. its not doing any good to me. i wish i had the courage to just stand up and walk away, but sadly i dont. i know the situation has come to a point where it is in my face, but i refuse to see. i wish to be blinded by everything but it is bringing me down, it is tearing me apart like fuck.

fuck her, i hate her and you know it. you handle it your way, and this is how i handle mine. this is the aftermath of everything, she caused this, she caused me to turn into how i used to be. and i fucking hell hate it.

i dont think you have to think that far or that much. i think you'd already know what i want for my birthday, for her to fucking hell go away.

stop contradicting yourself, practice what you have preached to me ages ago.

fuck shit nisa, you're better than this, i am better than this.