like what aizat used to say to me, all bad things come in threes. so i guess yesterday, things started coming one after the other. maybe its three, maybe its two, i dont know. & i dint mean to make my mom cry, neither did i mean to say the things i said but something about yesterday made me blow and breakdown. i know it bothered me much but i dint know its this much.

i guess, going out with zan in the day made me so happy and not have a care in this world that i expected i was gonna cry at night.

it always happens like this, they say, what goes up must come down.

oh well, at least zan is still around to make me feel better even though he is tired and knowing that we're both the same, he refused to hang up cause thats what i would do. i hope he'll stay around long enough. i know this is unbelivable but we function the same way. he's like the other twin or the male version of me. hmm.

& im meeting syed later after 2 weeks, i think. he owes me my birthday treat and my radit and jani. i hope i wont be too happy later cause i dont wanna crash again tonight.

we'll see.