it is true, it is emotionally tiring and draining having to go through this.
it is not easy, having to fake up a smile everyday just so you wont think of everything. even though i look or sound happy every time, its not easy trying to fake it every day, every minute, every second of my day.

It is so tiring to have to set myself to a one track frame of mind, stay on that set and not tilt sideways. I have to constantly tell myself i have to be happy and smile but inside i am not.

i guess, work is taking up most of my energy and draining me out at the end of the day so i'll get to sleep it off (at times) but i guess, work doesn't cut it to help me forget anything.

don't get me wrong,
i am trying.