"I'm just not ready yet."

im not ready yet. uh.. to let go of what i haf wit you now. seriously i dont. i noe u wont b readin this, but i think that mayb one of ur frens will, n most probby will tell this to gossip or talk bout ma entries in ma blog to you. i noe.

aniwae, that dudes a great guy, but, it jus made me open ma eyes that sumtymes i dint treasure what i really have. hes so sweet n understnds, but i cant jus let him wait. i dunnoe. is this a form of rejection? i dun think so. but, we've jus met u see. n im definately taken by ur boy-nxyt-door kinda charms. but im not that sort, not animore, whu jus let go of ma current rlationship wit ma guy jus bcus u came along. id barely evn noe you. i dun evn noe wens ur birthdate you see. gee. i just hope wed still b in contct. but i dun think its most likely fer you to wait ard. id tell you, its not gona b werth it. cause, its gonna make it hard fer mie. n also fer you. n id be goin thru all this emotions all over again, which i dun want n dun need ryte nowe, n id be sufferin from major mood swings, be really emo-shit [i noe u noe wad it means], n b totally dpressed. tht i dun need ryte nowe n i dun think not ever fer tha tyme bein im still wit ma dude. id just aprreciate u will n can n willin to offer mie your frenship. thats it. for nowe, we can still hang out. no sweat. we cud b best of frens. whu noes ryte. well. im jus trustin watever that says in mie. again, im so sorry.

i dun wanna let you go. no no no. no wae. thers stil so much i hafta noe. hafta find out. hafta explore. your charms, your ways, your habits, your evrythin. but if u hafta let mie go, thn ive got nuthin to sae to chnge ur mind. but theres just to much im goin thru, though it seemed kinda lil. mayb jus a lil piece of ur tyme will do. im not askin much. jus that. heh. hope he noes. bleahs. things are jus c-r-a-p. `i hate mie sometimes, do you?