"Hearts gone astray deep in hurt when they go. Need you by my side. You to be my pride."

im feelin undecided. undecided cause i dunnoe which way im suppose to tipppp n also undecided whether i can ring him up at this hour. Seriously missin somthin so badly. i need heelllppp! aniwae, people. those of you readin my blog. No worries. im okay. dun hafta spare ur sympathys. seriously. =)

ive been quiet ever since i set out wit my pham. they thought i was sad, real sad cause i dint get ta head ta tha finals. actually im not. im jus too dead beat. too sleepy. i need sleep. i need my blankies. i need my teddies. n i need sweet dreams. of mie. of you. heh.

i dunnoe if tha 'us' before is still there. n mayb lingerin in our minds. is bein mean to each other ways to get us closer n mayb gettin n havin chances of us gettin back? i wish so. but we're so away. n im so afraid of history repeatin itself. again, insecurities & questions. answer them? for mie? pls? *begs*

n my frens said not ta give up. hang in there. ummm. should i? evry day which passes by makes mie feel worse than before. why must it be mie? why cant you? make the effort. take tha inniative? heh. again, im undecided. bleahs. i hate this. i hate mie. i hate you. o definately. just cant wait to get out n b meetin someone new. cant take it anymore. do i sound desperate? heh. what can i do. i dont get tha love im needin. cant blame mie can you? k i'll stop.

so tdae. went outs meet zu, took books, meet impx. looked at photo album. my face? kinda okay. fer once. i hope tha 'as told by fyna' part would b over. thn headed home. went outs again n gained anuther few pounds. n got 20 bucks. hah.

uploaded some new songs. love jamie cullum everlastin love. listen aytes? totaly relatin to one of ma exs. thn theres jamelia stop. totally about mie n him. =X yeah. guess thts it tdae. no lyfe lesson learnt tdae huh? lolx. niwae,
i miss ya bad. huever it is. nytes. =)