" R n B Addiction. "

was not in tha sunniest side of mood when i reached skewl tdae. it was like repeatin over and over in my head. sumthing was not ryte. but till now, i have not yet figured it out. n its killin me. my mind was like ' here we go again, same class, same people, same teachers, same smells, same evrythin. this is the life.' gee. thn what? it will continue on evn after we're out of east view, dont it? work ur ass out a lil after 0s, get results, apply for courses, back to tha study room. thn study3, get diploma, futher study or continue workin ur asses off, take care of folks, TRY to enjoy life, loosin people along the way, friends - family, who noes. get hitched, have wedding, have kids, n tha list goes onn. you see, its like all PLANNED. blahs. why am i even rytin that?

skewl was normal. boring. etc. nuthin intrestin lah. geogw as a total waste of time. not fergettin ss and phy too. and suddenly,maths and amaths lessons are beginnin to sound intrestin. but some people are just forever buggers. a pain in my ass. just dunnoe howe to keep their hand to themsleves.

yest ate pizza hut wit tha gurls. gee sayin that reminds me of zu n odz n me n phat. heh. yesterdays. never will forget. =) thn had humans ec. shawn was crappin. like, evryday second.

i can still remember early mornin, i asked mai, jaz, radha and phat bout somthin. its about somethin tht suddenly popped up while talkin wit twiggs at nights. i asked them - what comes to your mind when guys play wit their toy soldiers. dont get it? try this - ...when A guy plays wit HIS toy soldier. ehem. welll, for those who has a wide mindset, mayb they will get what i mean. if not thn, too bad. =D

so nuthin much i guess other thn tht thing. except fo rthat earthquake thingy. freakin my ass out. world is endin. so why must we still continue lyfe? why cant we just sit down n try to clear all tha sins we have insyde? well, that side of tha world dont seem to work. cause definately, no mom and dad would agree and tell you to quit skewl n stay at home n just do good deeds till judgement day. heh.

and also somthin or rather someone is bein a pain in my ass. dunnoe why lah. once in a while this is gonna come. geeee.

and too, rnb's great. evrything is just nice. fits ever so perfectly, to me. Love it loadss.

lyfes a borre. missin him isnt fun. me? tryna live wit it. but somehow, i'll loose it.

" I'll be someone new, but only to me. "

k must update in a hurry. my bloody bro wanna use this bloody comm. soo my granndies just got back from my house. they came here just to sit ard. =D

so yest, had tuiition, my replaced tutor was like givin only brief dtails of tha topic on sexual reproduction of animals. it feels awkward though. heee. thn after tht, met up cass. bought my graph paper n returned tha library books. n followed ma folks to ganndies place. my dad titip'ed my unc 2 pairs of adidas shoes. one for me n the other for bro. but in the end i got em. but trust me, i dint ask for it. n it cost like 80 bucks. haha. i want a black converse sneakers lahh. haha.

thn after tht got home. did most of my hws. then todae, skewl was per normal. nuthin intrestin lah. had double periods of lamost evrythin. geee. b-o-r-i-n-g. like, totally.

so phat came over to do her bloggish. i did some of my physics. n just noe did most of my ussr. wit answers in front of mie lah. haiyaaa. haha. left tha practice papers i think. moro wanna do up ss. got loads loads. haha. thn if thers time thn i study lah. i think nxyt week is dt. is it? haha. i dunnoe lah. dint keep track of timme. muahaha.

and thers a kitty from 6 floor also, ehem, runnin2 in tha corridorr. its soo fluffy. its soo cute. its soo daymm fatt. wit tha bells tingling ting-a-ling-aling. miss staceyy! bohoots! =(

so thts it. later desperate housewives! woohooots! soo toodles people. and i miss tha guy in all black, which is ten units befo, four storeys below. bahaaaa~ like you guys dont noe. but do U noe? hehe. byess~

" That thing that makes your heart grow fonder. "

uhmm. so just got back frm batam. tht place kinda boring lahh. nutin much to seee. nuthin much too doo. not evn a whole lot to shop abt. wonder why i tagged alongg. hmmm. nvm nvm.

so left off at ten pluuss n headed to wtc. n guessed whatt. twiggs was in tha 10 oclock boatss. and when i got ther, thers a shop call 'The TWIGGS.' howe can not miss him more? u tell mie. stupid stupid stupid. if only my folks were to agree to get on tht 10 oclock tyme. then, i'll get to meet himmm. n hes headin to some other parts to indo wit his folkss. if only. if only. if only. i miss him loads. get that? I MISS YOU! A WHOLE DAYM LOTT! . =D . evn after evry conversation we hadd im just gonna miss n miss n miss. hpmmh. n hes gonna have 2 mnths of term break or sumthin. not fair not fair. hmpph. i assume most of tha poly ppl are gonna have it too? yeah. maybe. heee.

k back to tha thing. well, was ther early. kinda packed. was sort of sea sick. evn if its 'comfy' or anythin. n an irritatin couple in front. sheesh. tha gurl mcm tak betol uhh. n dido's cd blastin from evry tv sett? howe much worse can my trip get? and its only tha begginin.

thn got ther. tha driver was waitin ther. driver, receptionist all speaking speaking. chcked in holiday inn. got tha suite. but nuthin much like posh posh kind. but tha food was kinda okayy lah. i meant for breakfast. now, im gonna cram tha 2 day thing altogether yeah?

went ard the batam area. malls scattered almost evrywher. n loads of free spacee or land. illegal housing. its a developing country okayy! haha. chcked out tha bridge linkin thier 7 islands. its was freakin cool. scenery = magnifiq. shoppd ard. overall got maself 2 tops, 1 bottom, 4 cds, a haircut, some perfumess. thts all. all of those stuffs not reachin 50 bucks. cool huh? n also my haircut is only 5 bux. cheap cheap. hee. andd, saw a billabong top which is soo daym hott but cost 4o sg dollars. mum says to use my own moneyy. geeee. i want tht top! and i dont care.

so thn went back. on way waitin for tha boat to reach. befo we chcked in. watchd a live snatch thief. its totally scary. in front of my eyes okayy. i was bummed for almost 15 minutes. it was daym ryte scaryy. wit that person shoutin n shoutin for help.n people crowdin ard the area. i felt unsafe. really did. i just wanted to get away from tht place a.s.a.p. =(

so thn got back. blablabla. like that lahh. what else shud i ryte? bro was persuadin mum n dad to stay anuther nyte ther cause he dint wanna have tuition. i dint wanna have tuition but i dun wanna sty ther. but if i did, i soo gonna die of boredom but on the otherhand, i have a 50% chnce of bumpin wit twiggs at wtc. f he were to arrive at tha same arrival time. and that will be soo cool. n i can share a cab wit him. since we're goin back to tha same area. haha. soon nisa, real soon.

so tuitions gonna come at 1330 hrs. still got hw to doo. both tuition n skewl. n not forgettin revision. geee.

so thts it. nuthin much lah. tha rest are all same ol same ol stuffs.
the end -

" A knot of emotions. A jolt through me. "

life has been pretty hectic. and i've been doin most of my homeworks. i guess thats cool. i think. hmmm. dint update yesterday ryte? was rather in a messed up mood. due to some reasons. and its between life or deathh! ahhhh!

sooo, yesterdae skewl was pretty okayy. had mt ec. which was okay lah. thn got home. blablabla. nuthin intrestin lah. trust me. seriously nuthin. thn at home. mom used com. was on tha phone wit maii. thn played comm. twiggs dint call. =( i assume he was busyy studdyinn? heh. mayb? whu knows.

tdae was okayy lah. wenta library. got some books. mai lent me a book call CRANK. its a story book but written in a poetic kinda way. soo im hooked on it like howe im hooked on youu. heee. chck it outs aye? its by ellen hopkins.

thn got home. was in tha same bus as helmi. he's still tha same. and thts good? i think lahh. n fo sure ah-kong passed away. thers tha funeral thingy goin onn below. already in a month thers 2 funeral held ard my area. blahhs.

moro mayb headin to batam? dunnoe lah, my parents wanna go ther. geee. but im lazzyy. i just feel like sitin at home and rot to death. n catch up on some sleep.

so thts it. feelin kinda moody. too many things in my head. hate it. urghhh.

'You'

Something

holding me

backwards,

reversed.

Confusion,

fills my head.

Partnered with

a new infatuation.

Writing,

every line for you,

every time,

because in the end,

you were,

the only one,

That ever mattered.

" I'll let go of you todae and be someone new with no regrets. "

yawwwn. im sleeepyy. tdae is sleeepy. tuesdayss are crap crap crap. urghhh. had pe just now. hadta run 5 round ard field. and i puked after tht. very tha acidic. i think. hate tht feelin. thn just caught my breath in tha loo. thn talk talk wit tha nenek in chrge of tht place. reminds me of ma granny. hmmm. shes nyce. =)

thn lessons were sleepy. very sleepy lah. amths. malay. maths. science. eeessshh! what more we had an hour break at one n hadta come back to class at 2 for bio. already tha class is stuffy. eeerrghh! tak boleh tahan sehh!

thn when walkin home like tak larat. very tired. n sleepy. n i felt as though my leggs are gonna snap snap snap tht instant n if i drop to tha floor. i wont get injured but i'll be in lala land. meanin sleepin oh-so peacefuly. zZzZz.

got home. for ferst tyme. com dint create probbs. yeays. thn slept from 5 plus 6 liddat till sun setts. hee. mom n dad thought i was sick. evrytime if i sleep in tha noon. they would think i fell sick or sumthin. so just did some bloody ss. kinda sickenin. essh. hate this.

well, bibik said tha akong next door passed away. hmm. dunnoe true or not. haizz. too many ppl goin off too soon. but its already their tyme. soon it will be mine. when tha tyme comes. gee.

thts it. im off to dreamlandd i guess. i need tha sleep mann.

" I want something new. I NEED somethin new. And something morre. "

i wasted 45 whole minutes just re-strting this blooodie computer. n im expected to stop playiin at 2200 hrs. that is totally I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E.

So tdae is backs at skewl again. after a whole week of "rest". as usual, we had a whole new time-table. n i daym well hatin it. double periods almost evrydae, p.e is not on fridae, bio last 2 periods on tuesdaes n tha list goes onn. imagine, bio last two periods. n way befo tht we gonna have p.e. godd. help mie. puhleasse!

already tha ferst day mr ee is askin ask to repeat tha national anthem level by level. anuther bloody ass. really a pain man. and later we had like a couple of free periods. ther wasnt eng n maths. both double periods. n nowe mrs lye is not in skewl nimore. sekhar is gonna take her place. geee. so nowe i gotta strt doin my journal n ussr n newspaper articless. fyi, i havent evn touch a single thing in ussr n tha newspaper articles. tha only thin i did was update tha dates. tht too was left undone till end of january of mid feb. haha.

soo afta skewl tdae, phat n mai came over. at ferst phat wanna tag along to tha ss.sp movie. but then tha place was kinda full alreadyy. chcked it online. blahhs. n bloody hell i left ma report book in skewl n dint bring it home todae fer ma folks to sign sign. n again, i dint bring home ma chem holidae hw. i thought i dint get any. evn told audrey tan. thn afta lesson, found it at tha table at tha backs. geeee.

thn wenta gv. watched ss.sp. trust me, those whu are plannin to watch. please dont waste ur money. go find someone whu has tha vcd or dvd or watever if you are soo eager to watch it but dun wanna waste ur money. tha shows pretty lame lah. n not fergettin tha crowd too. heh. but hey, my dads tha one hus payin for it. so heck care ryte.

thn on way back sae aizat his band mates n cassy. shes back in skewl ppl! yeay! hee. miss her miss her. n my other gurlfrens sumhow lah.

nowe desperate housewives is onn! lovve tht show. but ultimate fave is stiilll OC! ahhh. adam brooody. hunky hotnessss. and and it strts on 31 st march okay ppl. 2230 hrs. its a MUST WATCH! hahaha.

thts it. im wantin to chnge for the better. hopefully. mayb for this year onlyy. hehe.

to phat - uhmmm, u okay? u sounddd saddn bothered. pls dont say nuthins wrongg. n thnks again for tht teddy chain. =D

to skunk - thnx a bunch for tht top n the other stuffs. n thnx soo muchie for burnin tht cd for mee. really aprreciate it. owe u big tyme. =)

" I want something new. I NEED somethin new. And something morre. "

i wasted 45 whole minutes just re-strting this blooodie computer. n im expected to stop playiin at 2200 hrs. that is totally I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E.

So tdae is backs at skewl again. after a whole week of "rest". as usual, we had a whole new time-table. n i daym well hatin it. double periods almost evrydae, p.e is not on fridae, bio last 2 periods on tuesdaes n tha list goes onn. imagine, bio last two periods. n way befo tht we gonna have p.e. godd. help mie. puhleasse!

already tha ferst day mr ee is askin ask to repeat tha national anthem level by level. anuther bloody ass. really a pain man. and later we had like a couple of free periods. ther wasnt eng n maths. both double periods. n nowe mrs lye is not in skewl nimore. sekhar is gonna take her place. geee. so nowe i gotta strt doin my journal n ussr n newspaper articless. fyi, i havent evn touch a single thing in ussr n tha newspaper articles. tha only thin i did was update tha dates. tht too was left undone till end of january of mid feb. haha.

soo afta skewl tdae, phat n mai came over. at ferst phat wanna tag along to tha ss.sp movie. but then tha place was kinda full alreadyy. chcked it online. blahhs. n bloody hell i left ma report book in skewl n dint bring it home todae fer ma folks to sign sign. n again, i dint bring home ma chem holidae hw. i thought i dint get any. evn told audrey tan. thn afta lesson, found it at tha table at tha backs. geeee.

thn wenta gv. watched ss.sp. trust me, those whu are plannin to watch. please dont waste ur money. go find someone whu has tha vcd or dvd or watever if you are soo eager to watch it but dun wanna waste ur money. tha shows pretty lame lah. n not fergettin tha crowd too. heh. but hey, my dads tha one hus payin for it. so heck care ryte.

thn on way back sae aizat his band mates n cassy. shes back in skewl ppl! yeay! hee. miss her miss her. n my other gurlfrens sumhow lah.

nowe desperate housewives is onn! lovve tht show. but ultimate fave is stiilll OC! ahhh. adam brooody. hunky hotnessss. and and it strts on 31 st march okay ppl. 2230 hrs. its a MUST WATCH! hahaha.

thts it. im wantin to chnge for the better. hopefully. mayb for this year onlyy. hehe.

to phat - uhmmm, u okay? u sounddd saddn bothered. pls dont say nuthins wrongg. n thnks again for tht teddy chain. =D

to skunk - thnx a bunch for tht top n the other stuffs. n thnx soo muchie for burnin tht cd for mee. really aprreciate it. owe u big tyme. =)

" If this aint love, what am i doing wrong? "

hmmm. hmmm. hmm. bloggin is kinda boring already. geeeeee. but what tha heck. i'll blog while im still breathin.

fridae had classs pit. not say class lah. not many people came so its like our lil own get togetherness. walked ard tha beach. it was windy. playe dtha playgrd wit main aminah too. n sume other lil kiddies we made frens with. n etc etc. nuthin much to elaborate.

thn yest. stayed at home. dinnoe thers term test yesterday. n i dinnoe any qs in it. i noe i will fail. but whu cares. tha paper was crap okay. hmmm n thers some family get together pit at east coast. huda said it was boring. so i think i dint missed out on much, other thn tha food. hmmm.

so tdae, my tutor couldnt make it, so she asked her fren to take her place for tha tyme bein. its a guy. n hes a 4th year medical student. cool cool. tha way he teaches also very clear lah. can understand. but still amths drive me nutts. haha. n he said mayb next week hes gonna b teachin again. i hope this wont be permanant. i want my old tutor not a new one. sheesh!

i feel like snippin ma hair. hmm. its one of those day wher i feel like its growin longer n longer. hmm. moros skewl gonna open. its so fast. hate hate it. specially with evryone u knoe sayin 'study hard. 0s this year' blablabla. totally crap. n tmr, im gonna catch spungebob wit bro! n phat comin along too! mai u wanna come along? straight afta triple sss. can cna can? spunge bob! haha.

thts it. toodles! see u peeps moro! =D

" One of those days that goes on forever. "

got a whole lecture from mom n dad yest. they were blabberin crap. n they already noe i would shut myself out from listtenin. they even say it. but stil, they went on and on and on. not stoppin. like some train. booo! had enough already lah. like i dunnoe im goint hru 0s this year. kept on comparin me wit other ppl. n said i dont deserve to go to class pit tdae. like wtf. n they still carried on and on. n mum said somthin bout my guy or the other guys im sorta "involved" in. which in other words i consider em as frens but bein the mom evry mom is, they will alwaes think tht i have some relationship wit evry one of em. heh. like watever.

soo yesterday went ta chck out feminisma at expo. me n mai was ther at ard 4. we were early. daym daym early. thn saw them. mai was happy n hyper. haha. n she was labelled as tha make-up artist by pard. and bein a kiasu singaporean, we went ard tastin stuffs. haha. only those free ones lah. thn tha gurls wenta chnge. we sat down n talk2 craps. thn later some other ppl came.

i was like some other ppl in his contact list. it was just hie. what was tht? i dint bother much. walked away n just waited for feminisma to perform. alot of old old ppl lah. i was standin wit pard syam n some other ppl. thn he came over. showed me tha 'guys' photos. blahss. quite a bunch was there. n i noe tul was bored. haha. n tha host was caught up in his own werld. wat a lyfe for him.

gotta rush home. parents blabeerin crap. i dunnoe why i feel so cornered n contrlled this few days. i like home when noones ard. i hate it when thers ppl. mayb i shd get my own place? heh. dream dreams.

thts kinda it lah. hmm boys 2 men are nyce. been listennin to em these days. hee. sown on bended knees? hee. nyce nyce. byyess ppl.

" Say it straight to my face, can you? "

read a few bloggs. seems tht most of em are full of anger, vulgarities, distrust. etcetcetc lah. i dunnoe. feelin kinda sucked up ryte now. read from one blog, it revealed sumthin. read from the other, it revealed evnn more. to imagine, i dont hafta go up to you and ask. all i hafta do is click. and all those missing pieces in tha puzzle, finally it fits together. some are fine liars. i meant tha people not ppl blogging ah. only tht they dont noe. why cant people just say it straight. i noe its gonna hurt me. i noe its gonna break me. but just say it straight can you? say what u mean and mean what u say. please lah. kinda sickk of it already. i just dont. n i wont understnd these ppl.

hmmm. nvm. will just try to put it bhind.

so tdae headed to jb. was sleepy at ferst. actually was sleepy tha whole trip. what to doo. been havin late night calls. everyday. tha only thing i am always lookin foward to. tha only thing that lets me let goo. let me be mie. thnx thnx. you noe hu you are lahh. no need to ryte ryte namess.
got ma wallet. hee. i just love ta shop at crossover. haha. not say its cheap lah. but i dunnoe, just like tht shopp. hee. thn wenta giant. got dvds n all. mum said i bought alot. thinkin over, what actually did i buy? all i can remember is tht wallet. haha. nvm. n saw abg isa. he had tht huge grinn plastered on his face. i wonder whyy? haha. is ur bro alwaes like that? and hes not mumbling. o yeay? okay tht is crap. thn got backs to sg. thts all lah. blablabla. lazy to update lahh.

so its like tht lah. moros gonna have amaths remedial. fridae class bbq. haa. lazy lazy lah. thn mondae, skewl reopens. evrywher i go, almost evryone would be sayin, study hard.. 0s this year. like i dunnoe. geee.

aniwae, in car learnt a new werd from mum n dad. FO. what do you think tht means. at ferst i thought its those short terms for FOR lah. but thn wen i dad terlepas ckp. i got it. thn in tha car i like shout. 'OHHHH! FUCK OFF! HAHAHAHA. FUCK OFFF! FO FO! HAHA. " they just laughedd. haha.

and and and. i got this from this book. check it out. ----
" Its part of goth mathology that one is not truly goth until theya re not-goth. You've heard the jokes: I'm so goth until i'm dead. Im so goth I died and didnt notice. Im so goth I'm not-goth? Well, im so not goth, and so are you. But lyfestyling isnt reality. reality is money and pain. and pleasure. "

dont ask me why i wrote tht. just found it intrestin. thts all.
haha. toodles people. =D

" I want a stroll, by the beach, at night, only you and me. . . "

tdae tdae was fun fun. mostly im tha one who was loosin it. yeah. its me. =)

had oral early early morn. n cikgu azizah was already makin fusses. heh. im kinda goin against her these days. mum says shes bitchy. heh. if mum can say dat, so can i. and im like 110% totally agreein to it. whatever u guys think, i dont care lah. shes like totally starin at me for no reason just now. n aisya, which is one of tha time keeper is totally gettin on ma nerves n makin a whole lot ot noise talkin to tha ppl whu is waitin to take tha oral. sick sick sickenin asses. heh. yada yada whatever...

thn afta tht wenta central wit mai n jaz. i miss phatt. alahh. boring lahh. haha. they wanna get old chang kee. so followed2. slacked2 at mac. thn looked for tha poloroid camms. but dint find anyy. sheesh. thn walked back to interchnge. saw mai n co lahh. wats up wit tha sheesh? i wonderr. nvm nvm. forget bout it.

thn got home. got chnged. went outs again. wenta met mai. passed her tha swimming top. gave her tha adidas one. cause tha billabong one was tight tight. heee. howe was it ah? n i noe i missed somethin wen i went out! im soo sorry i dint bring tha sleepover cd! sorry tau! thn huda n mas came. caught `in good company wit em at ps. show kinda nycee. but endin was crap lahh.

thn went back to tamps. walked ard at int n tm. was dead borin. thn had dinner at bk wit huda only. heh. we talked about skewl n relationshhip craps n lizas n some others which i cant really remember. but it was fun fun. n i still feel like pukinn. urgghhh.been long since ive puked. heh.

thn got home. funnily mom or dad was not angry. funny. thn played com. finished ferst book. heh. was nyce. bro doin some dnt work. n i totally m missing paintin stuffs. i soo wanna paint. sobbs. but im sooo not helpin broo. nooo. haha.

so nowe here i am updatin. moro headin to jb wit pham. im soo gonna get vcds, dvds, n not fergettin cds. n pitza n new wallet, flip flops, tops. etc. hopefully mum is headin to angsana. heh. can check out ppl. but like huda says, no matter howe cute or good lookin they are, they still are malaysians. heh. no offence yah?

so thts it. yawnns. i miss you. a whole lotts. please dont make me miss more of you by makin yourself disappear. sobbs.

" Back Lash. "

You can build your life around someone with the assumption they're doing the same for you, but you never get your happy ending if you're setting yourself up to be the person he wants you to be. It's easy to get lost, to feel wanted and they tell yourself "I have to be the one he wants". If you're changing your identity just to please one person, then you're certainly wasting your life - and hurting yourself. What's good about being in a relationship if you can't be "you"? Everything else around you will become fake! Everything has been fake!

heh. find tht kind of true. i am definately stickin to tht line. =P

lookin fer some nyce fonts to go perfectly in front of tha tee. but cant seem to find any. haizz.

n im soo gonna strt revision. i dont care. i need to get all tht amaths stuffs over n master evrythin! heh. such dreams. i will be goin out. i will be havin fun, but i wll study. no more failin any more subss. no no no. urghh. finish all my hws n clean ma room till its pick n span. haha. anuther wild dream.

sat n rot at home the whole day tdae. was dead borin. but had tuition. somehowe, i wanted to learn more. but fell asleep while my bro is havin his tuition. heee.

its borin aint it. i wanna go catch a movie moro. tmr tmr tmr. 14. mom n dads anniversary. 20 years. wow. dad asked me to foolow him get a pressie for mum. like heelll i would. wheee.

k lahh. borin kann this entry? what to do. lifes a bore whn hols are ard. but i can sure do catch up on some beauty sleep. yawnnns.

" Sweet Blood "

Blood is my friend. Without it my cells shrivel. Without it I die.

At night, alone with myself, I hear it rushing through arteries and veins, platelets tumbling in a soup of plasma and glucose through slick, twisty tubes, lining up to enter narrow capillaries, delivering oxygen and fuel, seeking idle insulin. It is a low-pitched sound: wind passing through woodlands.

I hear a higher pitched sound too: A demon dentist drilling, rising and fallin but never stopping. It is the sound of my thoughts.

Alone, at night, wit myself, the low sound and the high sound become music. If i lie perfectly still and quiet the concert seperates me from my body. Eyes closed, I float above myself, supported on a cloud of song.

and tha thing goes on. good stuff kann. heee. i like i like.

so yesterday was kinda fun. had flag dae. met up mai n phat. we were 30 mins late. but whu cares. thn ferst we had breakfast at banquet. after tht headed ta raffles. did a while. played quiet a whole lott. we love headin to raffles cause its like workin ppl n tha bout quay is lik sooo near n also tht hotel lahh. so fun fun.

afta collection n all, walk2 along bout quay. thn walk3 all tha way to esplanade. thn to suntec. thn backs at simei. suntec was jammed packed. n lyana came ta join us. thn we go jalan2. at ferst wanted to eat swensens, thn it cost like a bomb. thn headed to pizza hut. thought there were some offers or sumthn. but tough luck. thn lastly dcided to munch munch at banquet, [again!]

thn it was like tooo early. n i din wanna head to module classes. rang twigg up, he dint answer. rang rafie ups. he was like tooo happy yesterday. i wonder whyy. haaa. too happy. geee. nvm. hope hes not workin on mondae. =D

thn returned tht bag thingy. thn me mai n lyana wenta library. slacked ther till ard 1730. thn headed to popular. met aizat n tul. thn mai went offf. took tha train wit em. they accompany me till 292 came. thnks alot yea. but still, i dont get tha jokes made. o nvm.

thn wenta grannys. etcetcetc. talk3. blablabla. thn went off. got tha caching caching. hee.thn home sweet home.

was pretty tired lahh. com is creatin loads n loads of probs. sheeash. sick of it already. i want a neww com! pleaasse! haha

tht its lah. till ma nxyt entry! toodles!

And to HASLI, HAPPY 17th BURFDAE!! All tha best in ur lyfe! See u n ur gal ard sometime. =D

" We are tha princesses of the world. Haha. "

tdae tdae is fridae! yeay! and tha last day of the term. but still, next week, i till hafta return to skewl. boohooo. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it! but nisa, tell urself, its for ur owwwnn goood! bear wit it! its only a year! actually less thn a year!!

tdae was fun fun. supa dupa luupa funn. haha. got some skewl matters lah. more specific. fren matters lah. btw phat n this otha gurl lahh in class. im sick of catfights already lah. like really really sick. even if its verbally or mentally or staringly or watever ly lahh. but still i'll be ther for any of my budds thru thick or thin. through sunshine or in rainnn. heee. come to think of it ryte, gurls n gurls just dont click lah. better to click wit dudes thn babes. too many conflicts. sheesssh. tha werld is endinn. /stares blankly/ haha.

k k. afta skewl, met up wit phat mai n jaz to head to orchrd. went ther fer tha best fren contest. all of us were like hyperactive in tha trainn. jaz was makin this pig gruntings n mai was tryin her best to imitate it. but she cant. haha. so we were lauffin like some crazy idiots in tha train. n me n jaz nowe are like comparin tha colors n unders when we meet. [if u dont get it, its okayy] n we strted like im wearin this color. you you? haha. n we ended up pullin a lil bit of tinge to showw. haha. /in train/ i still cannot believe it. haha. but fun fun.

thn reached tha place. went for tha besties contest. hee. had free make up n manicures. n a photoshooooot. whooot! i hate makeups! theyre soo ewww. for nowe that it. but mascars n eye-lines are hott. totally! wheee. at ferst it was mie n phat. unsatisfyed by tha pics tha lady told us we can retake but wit a diffrent person. so i did. took wit mai n jaz. fun fun fun lahh. skali 3 entrys masok! amek kao! haha. randall tannw as there. hah. cute lah. wheee.

thn we rush2. thought of catchin tha spungebob dude. ahhh. hottness. phat, my spungebob dude. haha. but runnin n runnin outta tyme. so we rush lah. all runnin like we're in some amazin race. blaahhsss. thn da run2 skali saw old chng keee. bein tha person tht i amm, stopped ther to gett foood. muahaha. thn tha gurls ran off witout me. theyre mean. soosoo mean. hrmph. thn headed to cathy. took took neoprints. nyce nyce. n fun fun. haha. later i put it ups lah. thn its already 4 plus. n we're still at orchard! haha. soo mum came over. we got chnged. imagine us four, all in one cubicle. will not elaborate moreee. heee.

thn all rush rush. reached tamp. my dad came n sent us n mum to skewl. when we came, tht thing havnt strt yets. so mum sat by mdm roziana. n i told her tht shes ma uncs fren. n they talk2 talk. funny thing is ryte, shes tha only tcher hu dint say i wasnt payin attention in class n all. she says im improvin n is attentiove or sumthin mn chose tha ryte cliques of frens. which is kinda shockin since its alwaeys maths n amtahs lessons tht i'll wonder off to dreamy land. not sleep but day dream. hehe.

thn mum met chem tcher, she says i talk alot. haha. kinda distracted at tymes too. n mum wanna meet cikgu. whoa i was there, listenin. so was phat. mum wants me to not sit wit her nimoree. soobs. hope i wont get anione i dun get along wit. urghhh. thn they talk2 kinda long lahh. but nvm. its for my own good.

thn got home. on way backs, in my daddys car saw TWIGGY! alahhaii. i miss you so much laah. seeein you, without evn u noticin, from tha window of tha car is so not fun okayss. urgghh! ur makin me frustrated!! i soo wanna hang out wit you man! geram geram. n ur starin into space not evn noticin tha werld is passin u byy. geeee. takper takper. i can alwaes just go down 2 floors. haha. or youu, go up two. heee. either ways will doo. n mum n dad was like,

dad - nisa, tu kawan nisa. sorang aje duduk. termenung nampak.
mie - ehhh! aah! bdak tuu. [ me loookkin at me hopin he'll seee. ]
mum - huh? saper? ohh tu bdak yg tinggal bawah eh? huh?! die kawan nisa? camner nisa knal dier?
dad - alah online online nie sumer. bdak2 skarg. die blang bapak harie tuu. [oppps. i go terlepas ckp. hee]
mum- wahh. saper knal saper nie? muker hensem tapi mcm blurr blurr gituu.
[mommy momyy, tsk tsk. thts not good. soo not good.]
mie - hey! at least he gets insyde poly okayy! temasek poly! n somehowe motivates mie to studdy! for malay! n hes tha nearest person i have to vent out evry crap i have insyde tau!
mom - ohh, thts why u wanna go tpp ryte. [howed u noe? haha]
mie - no lahh. tp is near. almost like evryone in tha pham goes to sp. thts borin. n tha journey there lagi borin. leh mati. better go dkat2 nyerr. mom dad cousins anutys uncs all sp. borin lah. my turn to break th aphamily trend. haha.

n she ask mie what course hes takin. thn dad parked car. n up we went homme. heee.
mum told dad about ma results. funnily he aint angry. n he was happy tht i improved all subs. except fer malay. haha. sooo gotta buck up lahh.

thn at night. wenta banquet. got dinner for pham. on wae backs saw seumas, shawn, cheng n jialun. they goin ridin. bahhs. so thn got home. ate. etcetcetc.

so thts it. had a happenin day tdae. n moro gonna have flag day. hopin dad would allow me skip madrasah n also prayin tht i will getta meet him upss. miss you loadss. hee. toodles ppl!

" Its only me and you and a good whatever. "

heee. half way thru tha dsign. yeay yeay yeay. triple triple triple yeays. haha. a combi of black whites n pinks. n a tint of turqoise. heee. cool cool. i will always fill up evrythin but afta evryone agress i gonna hate my own dsiigns. why nisa why? hhahah.

i found out sumthin bout maself tdae. n i feel like im so wierd. evrytime i get back my results, if i fail, i will laugh my heads off. if i pass but get a low marks, thn i'll go sulky sulky. muahaha. funny kann. but nevermind lahh. wheeee.

thers anuther thing. but nvrmnd. ferget it already. will keep u guys updated bout me yea? haha.

so tdae was dead boring. skipped bio ec. whu cares. better for me to study on my own n snore for an hour in skewl. blahhs. mie phat n mai wenta tamp. got sushi. was cravin fer tht. haha. thn got maself this chewy chewy no nut cookie from famos amos. tdae was like my eatin dae. was eatin evn after recess. n phat has to grow thru all tha sufferin of me munchin on fooood. yummys. haha.

thn phat came over to ma place. at 4, went off to pasir ris. finally did my ezlink cards. yeays. haha. thn got tha white pens n green ones. n im soo needin caching caching. =(

thn got home. etcetcetc. normal stuffs. moro is tha c&c best frens contest. afta tht is ptc. haiz. howe are we gonna do speedy gonzalles chnges? any ideas? nvm nvm. we'll figure it outs. sooon i hope.

so thts it ppl. olllasss. and

HAPPY SWEET 16TH [SYXTEEN`TH] BURFDAE TO ZUHAILA & IRFAN. heee. enjoy ur burfdae aytes? loadsa lucks in love n life. toodles!

" Im just missin you bad. Anythin to cure it? "

soo todae is an okay day. as usual. nuthin intrestin happened. its just tha same old same old evry other day. blahs.

had maly ec which is extremely boring. i mean daym boring. really reaally. and i hate it. wit a tcher which is forever goin thru p.m.s. u-huh.

afta ec n all. wenta tamp. got sum stuffs at popular. doin up class tee. almost done. dont think its kinda nyce. but they say it is. heee. i got NO idea. will let tha class dcide lahh. reason i did all this was cause im bored lah. prefer to scribble thn study. yep yep. thts me. =D

well, heard somthins from some ppl. n i thiink they're daym stupid? as in not in those study2 kind. those kind of street wise thingy. heard tht they played truant. both of em. already they are always together, what more skipping skewl together. havin a tcher tht kind. whu wouldnt suspect nithin? heh. well, heard they were caught by ppl ard tht area? haiizz. if u wanna cabot also go chnge ur bajus n all lah. i dunnoe what theyre turnin into. just hope they will realise n do tha best out of urselfs. nvm.

sooo, thts it. im missing you. awhole whole whole lot. alot more thn nithing can signify. heee. n take care okayys. dont get tooo stressed up. you noe whu u are. `smiles.

" I'm not sure of whats comin. "

finally tuesday is done. hate hate hate hate tuesdays. urghh. tuesdays are SOOO long. long long long. skewl ends at 3. thn had ss ec. so its veryy long. my mind switched off at 1045 hours. tht is afta recess. fer bio, kinda dozin off already. heh. tcher goin thru bio paper n tha end part of reproductionin plants. its borin. zZzZz.

hmmm. thn afta skewl wenta central. checkd out stuffs for a fren for her comin burfdae. heh. n im so growin fatt. since ive been bringin in those apollo cakes to class. classes are borin okayy. n theres nuthin better to do other thn munch on food. haha.

n i just put up tha chatterbox. u guys can tag at either one lah. up to youu. i dun mind.

hmmm. fridae mums gonna come fer tha ptc [parent tcher confrence]. she asked mie what subs i failed yest when i passed her tha consent form. and i said malay. she went on makin this face. haha. but my other results are kinda okayy. not all are b3. but hey. still m satisfied. hope ma parents are too. all i can remember is that
eng - b3. maths - c6. amaths - b4. comb sci - b4. comb humans - b3. biology - b3. malay - d7! hahaha. im tryin to improve malay. tryin tryin! really! haha. but nvm lahh.

so thts it lah. kinda borin aint it? yep yep. cause thers nuthin much to update. life is borin wen ur not ard. =)

My song of the year. Love it loads. Means a whole lot. =)


You Don't Miss Your Water

As I sail with you across the finest oceans
On our way to find the key to our emotions
Together, we will move the clouds to brighter days
Some people question what I say
Try to break up you and me
But I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up, never
No we'll be together
Forever

[Chorus:]
You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry
But I believe so strongly in you and I
Can't somebody answer me the question why
You don't miss your water til the well runs dry
As I close my eyes
Sit back while reminiscing
Of when we used to fuss and fight, but end up kissing
There may be sad and painful times along the way
But in my heart you'll always be everything and more to me
For I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever

[Chorus:]

For you are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
Girl you know that you
You are always
You are always on my mind
You are always forever

[Chorus:]

If you ever get the feeling
You wanna play around starting cheating, remember
You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry

" .Findin tha Fact Beneath Tha Fiction. "

Its been a hectic-tiredy weekend. thts why u see me here, updatin, todae, mondae, n not in skewl. hahah. hmm. yawnns. im still sleeepyy. wonder why i cant wake up late late nimore. hmmm. i feel like tdaes a sunday. yeay yeay. haha

so saturdae, mornin. what did i do ah? hmm. o nuthin actually. did some malay hw cause i know i can nvr finish em. thn afternoon wenta module classes. okay2 lah. thn afta that dad fetched me, bibik huda n shai to go to tha nikah thingy. at ferst all of us thought we were headin to grannys place so i just wore a tee n jeans lah. thn mum made this face like wrong dressin for such occasions. blahs. haha.

thn headed to gramms place. my unc got like an ipod n xbox n some other not-so-cool stuffs. but my uncs bought this liza, a rolex watch [dunnoe if its real or nots], nokia 7610? [tht square2 hp lahh.] a set of jewellery. a pair of earrings, necklace, ring. a branded handbag. 2 of that. a heart shaped decorated hand made box full of ferreros. some expensive but oh-so-ugly-with-big-rose shoes. and some other lahh. nas u can see, my unc spent a whole lott thn her. sheeesh! nvm, whats urs is mine, whats mine is mine. hahaha.

thn stayed ther. very bored. told mum wanted to go home. some of tha cousins stayed over. blablabla. tht night stayed up till 3. gotta type n print out 10 pages of names. names of ppl whu are attendin tha dinner thingy tht night. ard 300 names hafta be typed out. pity my hands n eyes. haha. reached tha 7th page so i stopped. thought tht mayb moro mornin can finish it.

nxt mornin, mom was already makin noise. askin whers all tht stuffs. i said i havnt finished. n she cariied on nag nag nag. thn computer jammed a whole lots. printer problems. etcetcetc/ lucky thers a laptop n anuther printer. *pheww. but was still daym fucked up.

thn reached ther, thers already some ppl. thn go mkn mkn ferst. thn just jalan2. go up grannys place. bla3. haa/ lazy to elaborate lahh. thn helped out awhile. thn wenta tha brides plce. tha ppl washin2 tha plate is cute. tha one in brown. haha. n i saw an exact replica of twiggy! haha! exactly tha same. only tht ur cuter. heee. evn phat saw tht brown colored guy n twiggy no. 2! haha. thn talked2 at tha playgrd wit huda,aisya,aliyah n shairah. biaselahh. teen love talk session. haaa.

n got back to grooms place. soo many people. and almost all of tha kuehs are wiped out! n to imagin its not 4 yet! haha. n tha prawwnnies are all yummy yummy! haha.

thn follewd dad go get some cakes. by 5. not many ppl were there already. so i went up. go bathe n chnge n got ready fer dinner. dinner was at 7 plus. soo many eurasian ppl. so many colors. haha. thts what my bibik said. since most of em are rugby playas n sports assoicated ppl. from national team etcetcetc. haha. all cravin fer beers. haha.

thn tht lukman isit? tha guy from sps lahh. was tha mc. haha. funny2. it shows how DESPERATE cik liza is in gettin hold of my uncle. tsk tsk. n they just got to noe fer abt a month, i mean not a month lah as in really got serious and got married. fuhhh. haha.

then tha night ended. and tha two couples lived happily ever after. ehhmm. happily ah? mayb for nowe lah. tha squabbles n kidds are not arisin yet. haha. mum asked cik liza to get 6 kidds since ami n wanda has 5 kidds. n she made this look. haha. get busy! whahaha.

so nowe here updatin lahh. niwaes, i noe that anonymous is evn before u told me. i noe evrything lahh. im not gonna bring tha matter up. but if u do thn i will get back at youu tha way u did get back at mie. so nowe like finnaly u believed. heh. hopefully we can put this thing behind us. n apology accepted on her behalf.

so nowe wanna go meet phat ups. thn dnnnoe lahh. i dun wanna go home! nooo! haha. toodles ppl!

oky oky. nows tha entry.

DEAR ANONYMOUS,

haha. hello, see. im sucha goodie ass to ryte somethin back at ya since i feel like tha tag board wont compensate for tha amount of words im gonna spit at ya. haha.

k ferst things ferst. if u wanna say FUCK or BITCH. just ryte it. u dont hafta go ard puttin, B**** or F******. asal cik akak? takot? please lah. or isit it u dunnoe howe to spell FUCKING n BITCH. want me to help broaden ur vocab list? hmm. why not make ur heart feel better and add on SLUT, WHORE, ASS lah or whatevr whatever crap lah. can ryte. ur vocab limited to only two words ah? hmm. coool. and and i did not turn off tha *beep* thingy at ma tag board. so speak ur mind gurl. speak it. and SPELL it. haha. dont put STARS to replace it.

2nd thing. i dont care if u call me a NERD. at least i got tha brainns. and use it for GOOD purposes. not like you. bein such a freakin cowardy ass n dont put ur name in. n my attitude sucks eh? nobody asked you to like my attitude. u think what, by sayin this ur attitude is good ah? it even potrays u more as an immature person. kater orang je. aper dahh.

last thing, im tryin to get EVRYONES attention aye? so tht ur jealous lah? im tryin to get it n i got it? so ur jealous. arent you? arent you? hahahah. this is sooo fun. i even got YOUR attention babe. tapi mcm succesful gitu, dalah nerd summore can get evryones attention. alalala. usually nerds sit one corner and open book wit thick thick glasses etcetcetc. cool ah. even if i am or im not seekin attention wads ur problem? not happy say so lahh. i dont care u see. im an oopen kidd. or or or u want tha attention to be directed to you. cause mayb ur "prettier" thn me lah. or "older" thn me lah. or whatever crap. i dont care lah gurl. u think i dunnoe who u are ah? oh please. i know more than u think i do okayys. dont be some freakin bitch lah. wow whee. i spelled BITCH ryte! wheee.

and ur askin me to get a life. eh hello, cant u see tht im livin n im healthy. sihat sekali. alhamdullilah. i already got a life n i thank GOD tht he gave me this life. n im gonna live it to tha fullest okayys. ur not happy see me face to face lah. senang kan. tak ya susah2 waste ur energy. nanti tangan pnat. nanti nak complain kat saper? tht *HIM*? alahai.

still not happy wit me ah? i dont mind. hate mie more lah. it makes my tagboard much much happenin since its ALWAYS dead lah. n u say im seekin attention. tsk tsk. ape dah. talk more lah. more more more. i'll welcome it wit OPEN ARMS. note tht aye?

loadsa lucks in ur life lah k gurl? n also kann, try rytin down ur name nyxt time k? tak yah takot2. i wont byte. haha. and get this in your thick thick thick head. This is MY BLOG. so i got evry ryte to diss you till my hearts content. heh.

" You Are Just Another Score. Haha. "

soo, before i dedicate some para for that 'anonymous'. i'd like to update bout tdae lah. this is soo normal. im so excited to start tha dissin mann! hahaha.

tdae tdae, hmmm. was rather fun lah. ss did some debate. which was kecoh wit our dear radha ard. amaths did nuthin. cause i dint understnd nithin. so just sat ard. walked ard. etcetcetc.

after skewl. headed outs. was locked out of tha house ffer like 15 minutes. haha. n twiggy was away at skewl. i thought if he was home then can go down or sumthin. [dot dot dot]. hahaha. im crappin. thn went out of tha house at ard 2 plus. waited for 292 which was freakin lonng. so thn met phat. gotta get a white brassiere. heee. im bein open people. haha. but lazy to look ard n just got maself a white tube. haha. thn wenta tm. got tha hp strap. thn went up to ljs. saw n met n talked to rafie which was wit fiq n med n fuhrer. they were makan-ning. i noe they would be ther! haha. thn went off. go jalan2 for a while n mie n phat wenta far east. walk walk. thn sort of ter srempak ngn ham. ham was wit fbi n aiyoub. so thn we walk2 walk. n they were like kacau-ing ham surfers. kesian. haha. =)

thn jalan2. got backs to tamps. got mum tha stuffs. thn headed to grannies. not many ppl were there but almost evryone lahh. all were helpin outs. n yesterday was aunty yantis bdae! [huda, take note! wish her tau!] she brought along this choco fudgey cake. extreme yummmmmss! haha. its not tht sweet but tha content is heavy. n its yummy! haha. thn talk2 to shai. susah nk ckp, too many fishes in tha sea. special tht one. haha. susah2. thn got home lahh. crap ryte. muahaha. but i like.

so tmrs tha nikah. dunnoe wad to do since all tha kiddies arnt allowed to tag. nemind. dont intend to also.

heee. im so happy, somehowe. =P

" Sebuah Kisah Klasik. "

haa. im gonna fall sick soon i guess. i dunnoe. i feel like so. n im so needin money. im broke. dead broke. no caching2 at all. haa. i need cash to burn for tmr. shud i ask mum? i need to get a new set of headphones. ezlink. necklaces. those bands. urgh. i need money. i need money. i need money! *screams!

i totally goin bonkers. and i am totally hatin you. u noe what, yes you. ur makin me sick sick sick sick each tyme more. u are bein such uhh, whats tht word, bitch? uhh yeshh. thts you. like that term? it suits u n ur personality aint it. like finally~ get a lyfe lah. please. dont waste your tyme hangin in mine. i tell you. u aint gettin anythin lahh. fuckin bitches wit no fuckin life. what a life for them!

im so gonna klua tmr. cannot take it already. i dont care wit hu. im so gonna come home late. im so gonna enjoy myself and release evry shitts insyde me. urgh.

got back all my results. only failed malay. n a c for maths. tha rest are bs. thts okayy i guess. n teachers say im slackin. what tha heck. my life. i noe what my goals are. dont need anuther person doin it up fo me.

tdae had amaths ec. i understnd it a bit. but was kinda dozin off in class. i need my sleep. but dunnoe howe m gonna get em wit all this late night calls. again, im NOT blamin youu okayys. i blame me. but i still like em a whole lotts. =)

thts it. just hate those torturing fucking bitches. phat wrote this in her entry. and i love it loadss.

hmm. had been goin home late due to ECs n those crappy excursion. went to science centre yesterday fo a talk on engineering. den afta dat. check out black skirts with nis fo her uncles wedding dinner. then ma bag was dym heavy. so i was "seret-ing" ma bag when i was at metro. n nis seeing mie,she help carry ma popular plastic bag. nyehaha. was tired. n decided to get home. at da interchnge saw rafie n all. nis was with rafie. rafie was with meedee n taufik. Nis! im immitating ur line. heh. hmm they all wanna go ep. so took da same bus as 'em. n to those whu still wanna deny da truth n still dun wanna accept it. look in da mirror n say to urself "i;ve gotta accept da truth. they r together" so stop bein sum *bleep* n break 'em apart even tho u got da looks. cus looks arent all dat matters now. how naive cud a person be. diggin up da truth from other people when they already know da real deal. sheesh. im so sad fo this plastics.

there's 2 kinds of plastics which fall on da same category. those whu smile in front of u n pretend to like u when they r digging fo dark secrets beneath u. the other kinda plastics r just those kind whu beautify themself every single second n backstabs u in da back. they can laff at u one minute n stare at u da other second. plastic oh plastics. dun think we're stupid cus if u think we r. sad to say,u're da one who r stupid. fug plastics.

love u phatt. love u loadss. n not forgettin mai. n radha. n other other people. n to fuck with those plastics. =D

toodles people.

" Get tha cash rollin in mom! Haha. Better still, gimme tha card! "

wheee. im on a shoppin spreee. got nyce stuffs but at a cheap cheap price. coool huh? all fer weddin thingy. fun fun. decided on whatt ta wear for dinner but nott tha lunch thingy. i dun wanna wear kurongss! noooo! mum! get me out of thiss!!! haha. i wanna wearr skirts n topss but not kurongss! i dont care! hahahah. no way im wearin tudongss. nooo nooo! haha. i wanna make evry onees head turn. haha. i wanna be different even if huda shairah aisha aliyah n etc etc are gonna be in tudongs n kurongs! im soo gonna make that lady, liza liza not liz [huda, not tht] , eyes bulge out! muahaha. mum says shes gonna gimme thaa caching2 for tha accesories. i told her to give me her nets. haha. anythin lahh. =P

sooo, tdae was very happy happy kinda dayy. mornin2 phat da sedih2. apehal entahh lahh. kesian dier. haha. by recess, we were laughin. i dunnoe why lahh. haha. but fun. thn afta skewl had some talk at science centre by some guy lahh. www.engineerguy.com . thts his web i think. haha. thn at tht place we were laughin2. cause its kinda borin n all.

thn afta tht phat followed me ard. go tawaf2 ard mall. thn balek lah. called twiggy he was at int too. but at the other side. so tha malas to jalan. haha. thn ter-bump into raf. took 38. teman-kan phat since she was like sick sick tired tired n i soo tha kesian kann her n also raf n medee n taufiq [tht smart ass! haha.] thn dropped at ep there. phat went home. went thru tha pet safari and all tha kittys are goneee!! kitty ! kittttyyyy!! haha. i miss ma stacey, ma cat tht is. hmmm. love it to bittsss! wherr are youu! come back homme! heeee. so than we talk skejaps thn i went home. walk tht bridge daym tirin mann. haha. or isit tht im fat? uhh. i think im fatt. haha. nemind. later we go jogg jogg together k kays? heee.

so at home dad was like in no mood. i think pms lah. haha. coool kann. and and also tht bitch ahh. haiyoo! still lookin for treasures lah sia. u cannot stop ah? really on a treasure hunt mann. i tell u somthin ah, tha more u hate me, tha more i will like you. you wanna noe why? cause u aint succedin in findin what u want. i meant u found what u want but u dont have tha heart to really trust or believe what u hear. tsk tsk. too bad. but gues what? i like you more each tyme u hate me more! haha. im sooo gonna make ur lyfe miserable! muahaha. *kiss`kiss.

haha. tht is it lah. moro got bio paper. thn amaths ec. whee. moros soo gonna be 'fun. hahah. byessss. miss u alot alot okayys!

" Yummy yummy chocolates. More please? "

hmmm. hmmmm. mom got these disnye muffin cakes for this weekends weddin. its yummylicious. its choco. heee. n i think i'd be tha one finishin n munnchin on it rather thn givvin away to tha small small kiddies. haha. i want more!

soo tdae was kinda okayyy. as usual. heee. came to skewl in no mood.

1. cause had not enuff sleeep. [but i dont blame you.]
2. n tuesdays are ALWAYS a bore.
3. too many eye soars in skewl.
4. dint study for physics.
5. i guess more lahh.

thn had lessons. lucky me passed maths. i was hopin to gett more but nvm lahh. for now, a pass is good enuff already. thn had phy test which was crap. i diinoe which formula goes wit which qs. hah. but i dint study. n im prepared to flopp. lolx. dont really mind.

n thought abt it yesterday, im gonna aim b3 for each sub. except for mt lahh. that too if i get a c5 is good enuff. heee. if i get b3 for each sub, i'll get 21 for all 7 subs. if L1R4 would be 15. L1R5 18. seee. its such a nyce number. hee. all below 20. aim aim aiming. n tha bio marks fer like this year is no good? mr goh showed up and ard 20 peeps failed? n sort performed below tha national level? pressure pressure. too much pressure on us this year. sobbs.

evrythin is pressure pressure these days. got soo many stuffs up in ma head n heavy in heart butt its hard to let it all out. all in differents ways. frens.pham.skewl.etcetcetc. kinda find it loadss of crapps. heh. and and i think that tha people whu dint make it would be like stayin back or repeatin in skewl. some of tha peeps already are plannin to do soo.

aniwae, yesterday talked to twiggy. hee. your helpin me alot alot, sumhowe, in all sorta ways. heee. thnx muchies. =D n he told me bout tha slittin thingy. tha one wher sumone slits your throat slowly, lettin u feel all tha pain and wen u try to shoutt, no sound comes out but instead blood. ewwww. but its sumthin i'll keep in mind. =P cool cool. n sorry again if im different okayys. n i wanna seeee u lahh! issh. irritating u know! always miss each other! miss as in tak ter - bump each other or terlepass sumthin. we're livin in tha same place also like hardd. awww. nvm nvm. but if miss the other way is, i might sayy, better? heee. k i dun think tha ppl readin would get me but nvm lahh. cause only I know. hahaha.

so thts it ppl. pray hard for me tht i'll pass phy n tha upcomin bio test. lolx. toodles.