its damn personal,

o0o0o0o0o.

it contradicts itself, doesnt it?

hah.

i wish i could have talked to you a little bit longer,

i wish you wouldnt cut me off that soon.

i miss you, ayang.

everyday.

it was nice to take a break from work and retreat back to the sun sand and sea with mehvish and khai. it was a good and worth it relaxation period and i wish it would never end, period.

big plans, we have.

hah.

monster period officially starts at zero hundred hours.

bye!

if you cant go through it, go around it.

one, two, three.

its too difficult.

anything but okay, fragile.

cover-ups.

amidst everything, i am missing you.

i think i have reached my breaking point,

the only problem is, i dont know when i'll break.

& people dont understand it.

fuck.

okay , i think i have strayed away from my blog for far too long. too many things caught up with me that writing was the last thing on my mind. theres school, home and work problems, EVERYDAY. im more of like, at a lost. cause i am really trying my best to get back on my own two feet. and i feel that sometimes, the most unexpected people are the ones that shines through the darkness and help me pull through. & sometimes, the more unexpected thing would be for me to pick myself up and for me to shine myself through this darkness im in. i'd very much like to update what happened in every detail but sadly, thats entirely impossible. so, i shall leave you guys at this and i will carry on trying to undo the very big messy knot that i have made.

hmmm, ciao.