" Those Sweet Little Things Are The Greatest. "

hellooo! hahas. im happy. dont ask me why but you will know.. sooonnn. hahas.

so had orals shitts just now. one word - screwed. alahh but nevermind lahh. its kinda hard but funnily, no english words came outta my mouth. wicked huh? yeayyyy.

so i got home straight. supposedly to meet up rafie but dint after all. he said he'll make it up next week for my birthday. haas. i likkee. i like as in for birthdayys, get treated and all. not as i like meetin him. bahaaas. so grandma was home. she was lookin out for bro. hope he gets well. scaryy. bloody arse Shingles.

thn since not meetin up rafie, i wenta meet my babes. phat n bell. hhaas. sweet lah them. my bestest most bestest budds ever. =) heee. thn bumped into zu oda n cass. my lovabunches. hahas. and then met up my dude.

anyhooottss thers talentime today, like i said. and his band was the first to performm. hee. helena - my chemical romance. so they're up and zai said , " my drummer, aizat, would like to dedicate this song to nisa, 406. " i was like "whoee.. whoee that my namme" evyone like turned behind and looked at me. so maluuuuu.so i guess evryone in the upper sec level that heard that would already knoow or mayb just assume. so no harm tellin ppl who reads this blog right. heee. but still, it was sweet. what he did, to me that is. thats why, those sweet lil things are the greatest. and i was touched. like extremely. heee. *smilless*

all the way i was like critisizing and shitts lahh. biaselahh. you cannot and is not allowed to put nisa in this sorta situations. she will talk and talk and make funn and go bonkerss. wheeee.

k lahh. thats it. just feel like updatin. heeee. torrrasss.

" You got me speechless. "

soooo, took my height and weight. guess what. i did grow taller. 2 cm taller. hahaha. and i did loose weight. lost by o.4kg. haha. cool huh?

anyhooos, me and phat totally feel like some adults are like totally against us. but who cares right. actually its not only adults, some people too lahh. that is how i see it.

and sooo, somethin new begins today. =) i'll be good. i promise. heee.

tmr is talentime shitts. bahaas. no comments lahh. anyhoots, hes gonna be up. =)

went to kembangan just now, met mirza. lucky him his oral is next tuesday and he has no freakin classes tmr, in other words no school! how can his school be like that. so unfair. bloodyy.

soyada yada yada lahh. tmr mt O's orals. hahas. wish me loadsa luckks. tooorasss.

" Herr Worldd. My World. "

phat said i looked pale. miss see said its either i grew taller [which i dont think i have] or i have lost weight [which i doubt so cause ive been eating more since like forever.] u think? do i look that different? sigghh..

had a rather long day todayy. bio 4 periods was like shit. maths and amaths in total 4 periods was too like shitt. tuesdays are such fuckasses. urghhh. hate it.

im tired. i need to get to that place. pronto. and that one too. whatever shitts lahh. urgghh. too much angst and negativity bottled up.

JoJo - Secret Love

(Boy, you're so hard to believe)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Uh, no, no, no, no
(Boy, you're so hard to believe)
[sigh]

Just a friend
That's all I've ever been to you
Oh, just a girl
Who wants to be the center of your world
But I aint got much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess thats not enough
For you to notice me
Im just a girl
And I guess thats all I'll ever be to you
To you, to you, you

[chorus]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is okay
But, oh
You dont know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesnt even know
My secret love

In my dreams
I see us both together, constantly
Why cant you see
This love thats here for you, inside of me (oh yeah)
What do I have to do
For you to notice this
You look at her with love
With me its just friendship
Im just your girl
And I guess thats all I'll ever be to you
To you, whoa

[chorus]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is okay
But, oh
You dont know how it feels to be so in love
With someone who doesnt even know
My secret love (my secret love)

What do you see in her
You don’t see in me (don’t see in me)
Boy, you're so hard to believe (boy, you're so hard to believe)
Why do you show her love
But theres none for me
Boy, you dont make sense to me
Is it cause I dont have much to offer
But my heart and soul
And I guess thats not enough
For you to notice me
Im just your girl
And I guess thats all I'll ever be to you
To you, to you, you, you

[chorus]
I try to smile when I see other girls with you
Acting like everything is okay (everything ain’t okay)
But, oh
You dont know how it feels to be so in love (so in love with you baby)
With someone who doesnt even know (oh yeah)
My secret love (oh, yeah)
(Oh no)
Boy, you're so hard to believe
[to fade]

see the lyrics. especially the one in yellow. sighhh.who to? i myself dont really know. =(

" Enjoyed the last last weekend. "

saw that freakin azri at beach road. bahaaas. huda i saw him! that freakin cute ass guyy. hes so daym cute lahh. haha. butt he seem to be fatter and chubbier and more tanned. ahhh. hahas. weelll, that may be my highlight for today lah.

hahas. tmr school reopens. and i dint continue any more holiday assignments. im lazy lahh. and i love this jojo song. u heaar that?! i LOvE IT! muahahha.

i just updated for the fun of it. not in the mood to give any further dtail. bahaas. tottasss.

" Sleep Like A Child. "

i feel like a junkie. im not spendin my time studyin. to be exact i've been out. yesterday i was out to snow city and science centre and the omnimax thingy and today im out to the zoo. hahas. family day shitts. but kinda fun lahh.

saw a hottie who looks like the mixed version of shan hottie and john hensley fom nip tuck. ohh he's sucha cutiee. i can conclude that he lives ard the east area. hahs.

and the zoo was great. i wanna take a part time job ther. or mayb if i caouldnt get a job, i'd volunteer and be a friend of the zoo. i just love amimals. hahs. amimals. =)

so thats it tootass.

" I had a bad day. "

i love this song. its just nice, peaceful and evrythinn. k fine this all shitts lah kann. why'd u wanna knoww. blahhs.

finally, i think, after this past few days, im leaving that one behind. i dont want to. but i got to. that one did shitts to me. that one smothered me. that one that chnged my perspective, my thinking, my evrythin. that one left me hangin and dint come back. that one was not great, neither is that one the worst. that one used to be just perfect. but that was at that point in time. i know im not making any sense, but thats the whole point. for you to get confused, if you did, that is.

soo when i need one, none came. when i've learnt to live by myself, runnin solo, knowin that i'll survive in ways or another, without the attention of any other mortals helpin me thru [other than frens, that one i LOVE you guys to the tiniest bitts] , they come stroddin byy. annd struck me by the cord when its only in a days adventure. what has the world turn into?? is it always always like this? or does this only happen to me?

should i? or should i not? should i wait till whenever, see if any other mortals would kindly cross paths with mine. should i keep those hangin ones waitin? mean of me to but i dunnoe. im not in shitts to think of anything. i just want to chill relax emplore experience, myself and the mysterys beyond like evry other day. but im not makin any decisions. at least, not yet, not now. sorry. but i'll tell soon. befo my birthday. =)

but i still want that one, you know? that one never left my brain. evn if i did try. soo, those hangin ones just gotta hafta pardon me.

i guess thats enough of my fuckingly irritating dilemma. i dont know if its evn considered a freakin dilemma. shitts. im in my kurang-ajar mood. in other words, my i'll-talk-back-to-you-so-dont-get-into-my-freaking-nerves mood. my freakin heck-care-thats-ur-problem mood. you knoww? one of those fuckinly bloody mood swings that girls go through. dont ask more cause you should bloody assly know. soo, to anyone and evryone, i know for those who im tryin to refer to from the above paras, i apologise for labelling or whatsoever lah okayy.

soo had quite an okayy day today. sort of family day. nice. homeworks still not complete. dont want to continue anymore. sick of E V E R Y T H I N G . E V E R Y T H I N G , i tell you. im lookin for that micheal jackson song. the one on tv. and smallville soundtracks.

and im turnin 16 in exactly 2 weeks and a days time. presents ? hahas.

so yeah, i'll say goodnight - goodbye - and i WILL goo.

" Boundaries. "

walkin by the bay bein just friends who once was not is not fine, i might say. somewhat funny and awkward. dunnoe lahh. and theres fireworks tooo. as in real ones for national dayy. ohh what the heck. what am i suppose to doo mann. but it was nice lahh. =) i had funn. thnks for folloein ard lookin for a none in stock slippers. hah.

and parents had to spoil it all. dad to be exact. mum knows m not out wit babes. im out wit a dude. she knows. shes not angry. maybe one day. one day, like evrybody says. toorass.

the place at melacca. some place in a'famosa lahh. see phat, i can take picturess.



i like the skyy above. loook.



fiery skiess.



niceee.



my huggably hugee brothaa.



whutts with tha face?? hhas.



one-two-threeee. coussinss.



the cutesy indo-made doll.



i took that. i was left in awe when i reched the skyy. the landscape was magnifique.










i walk this lonely street on this boulevard of broken dreams. lalalala.



the 5555 effect. nice huh?







all this pictures were taken by me and only me. hahas. seee phat , i cam take nice snapps. and all those night and day pictures. the landscapes one were from the car while on the mmovee. nice huh? heee.

" You're the one i soo love to HATE. "

hey hey heyyy. finally here to update, which is the last thingg i wanna get doing. but since phat and some peeps want me to update, i shall. its gettin pretty much borin. replyin to the taggys are also a bore. empty me, empty life. but no offence to the people hwo tagged yea? aprreciate it much much. =) thnkies.

so went to melacca just this weekend with almost the whole family of mumsie side. ther were ard 6 phamilies, i think. it was okay2 lahh. nothing much happend. had bbq. swam. played ard with the lil kiddies. slept. etcetcetc. i'll post pictures lahh. but not much cause i used my brotha's phone. i had fun. sort of lahh.

i thought it was a 2 day 1 night trip but mum said it was a 3 day 2 night trip. bahaas. but the pool was nice lah. relaxin for hourrs.

so thats it lahh. i still got loads of hw to get done. and tmr im headin to town. wit aizat? i guess lahh. thn thursday most probby stayin inn.

sheeesh. i need a life.

" When we turn in "

im sooo bloody hell lazy to update. all this because phat asked me tooo. sheeshhh. boriingg. so went fer a short trip to malaysia for the last weekend. wenta auntys place thn the next day went up to KL. walked ard sungai wang. bout nothing much. it was pretty much a bore. and saw this goth dude which was an absolute hottie and classy. sighh.

the next day went up to genting. dint go in and play ard cause i've went there like soo many times and nothing has changed and there were too many people. tooo many mat mat and minah minah malaysia. *pukes.

so sat at the first world area with mom. ther were dangdut performances and soon later mahathir [i guess thats tha spelling lahh] came ard. yadaydayada.

thn went back to auntys crib. waited till 10 pluss pluss thn got home. reached s'pore ard 3 in the morn. blahhsss.

so tuesdae is boringg. just boringg. todaee tooo. nvm. so thats it phatt. haha.i updated. =)

" The One and will be the Only. "

its been quite some time since i really really updated. dont bother bout that short entry. was thinkin too darn much i guess.

anyhoos, todae is the last day of school. holidays are inn! yeays!! but still i wanna studyy. i MUST study. heee. i need to get done wit all the bio maths and amaths facts by school reopens. heeee. and i got 2 whole weeks. at least, i think soo.

and who's this anon person anyway? sighh. i dint say i want either shane or henryk. i just said they'r cute and hott and evrythin. its in a gurl to look at hott stuffs. i assume lahh you're an owner of that female assets. so dont tell me you havent check out guys befo. if not you are soo in the wrong state of mind n place and time. sheeesh. so are you a regular visitor of ma blog or somethin?! geeee.

and im not gonna be updatin that much. its kinda boring and compuuter is kinda in shitts lah. so paham2 kan saje lahh.

and oh yahh. headed outs wit my dearest babes today. had fun. but im too worn out. im soo gonna snooze in car later. zZzZz.

toodles people.

things are NOT okayy with evrything. why are you complainin? yada yada yada. you made my life hell and now you're complainin. i kept quiet dint i? isnt that enough. sheeesh. i fuckingly hate you and your everythin.

im goin swimming

im goin swimming.

wheeetttsss.

hunkie hunkss here we come!! =P

" Teenage Dirtbag "

sooo. its been quite some time since i updated. i was too caught up in the picture editin shitt thingy. dont ask me whyy. it was way more funn thn bloggin.

so i got the invitations to tha 17 thingy this saturday. i wanna go. i wanna swim. i wanna chack out those so called hunks. hahas. =D

and i had fun playin with my bro yesterday. we played dressup. please please dont think dirrty cause its not. n we took snaps. some of it are on ma frenster pics. heee. and hes goin ofta camp todayy. lalala. and he dint bring he's phone. more lalallaas.

classes goin on evryday is not fun. and i miss town. i wanna go town. geee. and IKEA too. haha. we shall go. one dae. and i snipped my hair or trimmed it just for the fun of it. heh.

i cant sit at home. i'll waste my time in front of this screen and will be forever craving for foood. i needta get out. walk walk walk. have fun. hahas.

and mr joe is at bloody NEW YORK with his students. not fair not fair. like, totally mann. and he'll be leavin to perth again with his students. gundu betol. whyd he go pandai2 chnge school. irritating~

so yeah, im off ta skewl now i guess. im bored. im sick of evrydae studyin. i wanna go to the netherowrld. bahaaas.