" Familiarity created a distance -

half an inch, an inch, a foot, a chasm. "

hello blog!

so, i wanted to update a few days back but the lazinesssss inside me took control. heh.

on friday friday, i got my sausage mcmuffin! yeasss. yumyumyum. and boyfriend had his big breakfast. we sat around outside mac cpf waiting for chinka and dan. later zul, his girl-friend, asnim and aritzuan came.

later all of us went off and chnged our place to the one outside new york pizza cause along was working there and jap and haliem and syaheed was there. so we sat there till around 5. some went off earlier.

so on the way home, i bought the milkshake. heee. i was nice lahh. but it makes me wanna puke after drinking too many sips. thn me bf jap n haliem walked home. we seperated once after we've reached the church bustop.

yesterday, yesterday, did nothin much. met the boyfriend, slacked around. sent him off to yamaha thn met umairah during her break. thn i went homee.

i like sending people offf to places. heeee. i have no work and i have all the time in the world. lol. sooo, i gotta enjoy it while the freedom it still of existance, before i get bombarded by piles and piles of schoolwork. heh.

soooo, gonna meet umairah and the bf later. the family is going to weddings and more weddings. o0o briyanis. i hope they bring home some. heee. gonna have lunch with the belos at chaicheee thn go to mandarin class thn i dunnoe what. lol.

okay, i wanna go mandi now and eatttt.

bye!

" My life is yours, just open up the door. "

such a boring day, i must say.

okay, so here`s what i've been doin for the later half of the day. i finally found my jc chasez cd. and i took it out to listen. like duh.

and, i love his songs. heh. they are great. and the lyrics are magnificent. really really. one would be a para from Build My World. heh.

It's amazing how we fear the weary
It's from ourselves we so often run
Abandon fear and consequence of heartbreak
Expose the truth and give yourself to love
We've all been set up to be disappointed
We have to crawl before we learn to fly
It's the blur that moves right into focus
Removes the doubt aligns your heart with mine

i love it i love it. its truue okayy.

im bored bored.
empty entry. heh.

ahh,

bye.

" I dont wanna be invisible, i just wanna be compatible. "

im hunting for new songs. any suggestions, anyone?

anyway, im gonna be changing the font size starting from the end of the weekends or sumthing like that lah.

and yes, the boyfriend is back! after that " the flight has been canceled due to some aerospace . . . and i'll be back only tmr night " prank. hee.

so ysterday, we had a chnge of teacher for the class. heh. mr wong couldnt come so this other tcher came. heh. and he was very much full of expressions and actions. heh.

thers this point in time he was translating for the the words come in and go out in mandarin. and he really did open the door and took a step out before audrey starts to laugh and said, " can somebody tell him, he dint zip up his pants. " and the four of us were laughing like crazy.

after much laughing, audrey told the teacher in mandarin that his coffeeshop was open. and he turned around and said " ahh sorry sorry." haha! and he translated words in english saying he was sorry and that he was very malu and should we stop laughing and just forget about it. haha.

we had a good laugh. on many many occasions. =D

later me and umairah walked around central. ate and thn went our seperate ways. heh.

so, what other thing can i do today but meet the boyfriend! yesss. met him at pavillion thn i collected the pictures. thn wenta miz 29. he wanted to pass souvenirs to khai. and we sat around for awhile.

thn wenta tm, i bought mom this sudoku book. heh heh. see, i am goooood. and i got a 12 digit sudoku and not 10! more challenging perr. and it was 16 bucks! worth the money baybeh.

and theres other versions of sudoku. shitdoku, wordoku and something like kurodoku. shall try it one day. after im done doing the ones in the book secretly! haha.

thn the we met tul who was extra cheeky today for idunnoewhat reason. i think he misses the boyfriend tooo much. heh. and i went home after that.

the 6th floor sombong cat finally gave in and i get to stroke it and play with it! haha! i was just thinking bout cats on the way back and im going nuts not having a feline companion at home. i cant tolerate animal cruelty and i love every other living creatures on this earth.

and i really badly wanna have a cat at home again. dont get me wrong, but pampering such creatures, there are just no words that can describe better still, replace the feeling.

thats why i always pitied cats on the streets. they've been put to sleep. sterilized. eaten by some inhuman people. roaming around alone, scavaging for food just to stop theire daily hunger.

its sad okay.

ahh, enough enough. so, can anyone please get me a cat for my birthday. theres no way in hell my parents are gonna say the two letter word [no] in any way. at least, i think so.

grrr.
so thats it lahh.
much love people.
muah muah.

bye!

" In Love, In Love. "

gawd, im hooked on playing sudoku. online sudoku. buying the book would only use up money so hey, the online one is freee. heee.

and im getting better! i can finish one in less thn 8 minutes. thats good, right? haha. for me it is. my goal, finish it in less thn 5 minutes. heee.

ahh, i dunnoe what to update about.

i love love. heeeeeeee.
yeay! tmr the boyfriends coming home!
cant wait cant wait to see him and the snaps he toook!
whooots!

wait he just smsed saying he'll be home at noooon!!!!
common people, noooon!!
yipeeee!

bye!

" They told her to 'Step It Up.' "

so today was amazing a great day, like seriously. its 0311am, and i still cant sleep. i just feel like updating and this, i think is gonna be a long long entry. so bear with me!

so, this was how my day went. heee.

i met umairah at around 1.45pm. we walked around till it was 2.30 and headed towards swensens to have the promotional ice-creams. it was superb lah. we sat around till i think it was around 3. i saw masselia and phat.

thn we headed to town. went to borders and read a handful of magazines till about five. thn we made a move to head to cineleisure. stopped by topshop to get those little i mints. hee. thn when we're at cine, i got this thingy at the basement lahh. walked around like some zombies and thn went back to tampines at around 6 gituu.

i sent her off till pasir ris platform cause i dint know wher to go and who to meet. i was, you can say, very much alone. but after browsing through a bunch of phone numbers in my phonebook, i smsed ivor and met him up at tampines mall since he was there after a cycle with yq and kl, i think. thought he could stay longer to keep me company but he couldnt so yeah, tough luck.

so i was on the phone with umairah, yet again. until, i bumped into rafie medee and taufiq. and he asked where i was heading to and i said i was meeting mr joe up and he is too! so thats a total relieve and shocker.

i tagged along with them around tampines mall, and he layan-ed me well even though he was with his friends. i wasnt that lonely after that actually. thn along as in amin joined us and we slacked around at the open plaza. some band were playing and they were darn good, i mean extremely okayy. annd they can play all kinds off songs! gawd!

so we sat around the playground there, waiting and waiting and waiting. we were pretty much bored lahh. but with the guys around, they always had something up their sleeves. so on the other hand, it was fun too lahh. fuck/zouk and jap and this other 2 guys were there too.

aisha was still at town or on the way back when i was sitting around with them waiting for joe. gawd, he was slow. but no worries. we get to meet him in the end. and that was around 9 already.

it was like so hard for them to decide a place to eat. from here to there lah. yadayadayada. in the end, we ate at bedok corner, i think. heee. ordered food. as per normal, with the guys and joe around, things get out of hand with the hysterical laughters. and that was the best part of the day. talking bout the past and present. heh.

at one point, i was totally stoning and amin said something like, " kau rindu dier eh?" and i was like, " a`ah." gawd, i miss the boyfriend like hell. and it felt wierd going around when im hanging out with rafie medee and taufiq before aisha came, everyone i knew or bumped into asked wheres my boyfriend. and i had to say, " he`s at bali." its sad okayy.

later at around 11 plus, they sent me home. haha. in the car was me aisha taufiq and rafie. amin haliem and medee were on bikes. lol. by then it was already nearing 12.

and and i bumped into twiggy under the block and he was in white! white i tell you, WHITE! and he had the messiest hair and he said i always took the wrong time to bump into him cause he said he was everytime selekeh, which i very much doubt so. so he sent me up till the tenth floor before going back to the sixth floor. and nothing else happened.

so whn i got home, mom was saying bout my blog piture or sumthing. wasnt paying much attention. thn i called umairah up and we had a nice long long long chat. it was niccee. i like. =)

so, like aisha said, joe PROMISED a trip to the cinemas to watch final destination 3 with the bunch of people mentioned above. if i am allowed to go, i hope the boyfriend can tag along too and also the girlfriend. heee.

today was fun. getting to meet joe with another bunch of friends. me and aisha had fun fun fun. today was nothing but cathing up and laughing back. gawd, aisha, we should hang out more often! haha.

and oh gawd, PROMISE kept on replaying.
you know what that means.

i want my boyfriend!

bye people.
=(

" Untitled. "

im in love with this song. gagagaga. its nice okayy. check out the lyrics. and the singer is kinda cute tooo. lol.

If you were mine
I’d be your everything
And you’d be the only thing
That I would ever need
If you were mine
I would tell everyone
That you are the only one
That I could ever want, Ohhhh yeah

Everything I dream about
Everything I talk about
One thing I can't live without
I wanna get closer to you
Can't stand being far away
Knowing that you don’t feel the same way
Watching him bring tears to your eyes

(Chorus)
If you were mine
I'd be your everything
And you'd be the only thing
That I would ever need (ever need)
If you were mine
I would tell everyone
That you are the only one
That I could ever want, Ohhhh yeah

All the words I sing about
All the letters I write about
The only thing I want to hear about
So can I get closer to you
I know there’s someone else
But he is only thinking of himself
Doesn’t make any sense
For you to be lonely

Let me be the one you share your hopes and dreams with (hopes and dreams with)
You’ll never be alone again cause I will hold you endlessly
Please don’t be afraid to let your broken heart guide you (broken guide you)
Into these open arms that long to surround you, baby...

okkayy, minus the "If you were mine" part. cause the boyfriend is alreadyy mine. i just love the not chorus parts. lol. am i emo-shitting?

bye people.
in love in love.
come home come home.

" Misery needs company. "

the boyfriend is offf to bali already and will only be back on sunday, at night.

lonely lonely lonely. actually not really lahh. i think i got the weekends lined up already.

today, sit at home clean my secondary school junks. heee. tmr, follow umairah to town. and i dont know if i cant tag along tmr night. aisha, how how? mayb can mayb not lahh. grr. saturday, sit at home or go out with family and sunday mandarin class. soo yeah, things im gonna do to get my mind off the long wait for the boyfriend.

long long wait. =(

the danceworks the other day was a bore. was there with the boyfriend. thn we met up with dan, yana, bir, his gf, zul, asnim & that turquised shirt girl. lol.

boring boring boring.

and mom asked if i really really want the 7360. muahaha. i want i want! but im already loving my v3. alahh. can i have both? thn i can chnge often. hee.my 6610 has already gone cuckooo.

and my retainers are daym irritating. 2 years of braces and another year and a half with the retainers. i wanna get em off. doc, my teeths are nice already. lucky its gonna be till june only. pheww. heeee. and i wanna go for whitening nexxt. mommy, money please? LoL!

i shall stop eating i shall stop eating. i turning into a puffer fishh.

okayy. this entry is long and empatyy.

bye peoplee. =D

" Happy Emo-Shit Day! "

ahh, im in luck cause my computer is working for just a tini wini bit. gotta make the most of it, gotta make the most of it.

so, today went out with the boyfriend. no, we didnt celebrate this emoshit day. lol. we had lunch at pizza hut thn later made way to bugis cause i decided to pamper myself. heh. i need to splurge on things to make me happy. my bibik already warned me not to but any more clothes. heee.

walked around, nothing much. tried another brand of icecream. the ferrero was nice. thn we headed back to tampines.

printed a couple of pictures to put in the folio. heee, thn wenta miz29 sat there with the bf for awhile thn we made a move. i wanted my nonut cookie but the were still cooolinng. darn!

so i headed home first and the bf went ahead playing cs. and hes gonna be away for the weekend. grrr. gonna miss that dude like hellll.

today was fun fun lahh. and i saw rafie and medee too! haha.

okayy. thats it.

bye emo-shit celebrators!

=D

" The Ever New Beginning. "

so, not gonna update a short one cause m not at home.

talking bout results, i got 15 for L1R4 and 20 for R5. so that utterly great for mee. =D and a THREE for amaths. sweeeets! like totallyy.

so yadayadayada, a cruise trip, anyone?

byee! =)

" Bye Bye World. "

ahh. tmr results. tmr results. tmr results.

okay, bye!

Your stare swallows me
And I can hardly breathe
I feel it's dangerous,
Could be deadly
Somehow I'm willing to do the things you want
Take me in your arms
Spoon-feed my heart.


Drip by drip
I'll take it all
Sip by sip
I guess that it's
Make or break
Boy here and now.


We're caught in a moment
And I won't let it go
I am falling deeper, losing my control
Involved in a feeling
Like the blink of a eye
And the silence it belongs to you and I.


Broke through barriers
And passed a state of mind
I'm not scared no more
It feels divine
So take me in
And catch me when I fall
I'm waiting on the edge
Uncut my soul.


Snip by snip
I'm oozing it
Bit by bit
I'm taking it
Step by step
Boy here and now.


Secretly I let it slip
Emotional I fall through it
All I know I'm losing my control
Im drowning way too far
And there's no turning back
And now I'm shedding all my fears
I know, I know.

Caught In The Moment - Sugababes.