A shoutout to the dearest Girlfriend,
(a lil motivation, perhaps)



this is what im suppose to say to you,



haha. but maybe i should,



which is you, cause,



haha. =)

And an early HAPPY HAPPY 15th 29 TO

ME & THE BOYFRIEND! :)
Oh, we`ve made it this far.
And you know how much much much

oh yes, i miss you too much too soon too.

and its only 5 days, and in counting!
Yeay to us. =D

chiao.

I cant help but appreciate the irony.

i was sitting around with the boyfriend and zai at kc when i saw raihanah. hmmm. =) i miss her! and all the other 206 girls - fina ; zu ; odhah ; phat ; raihanah ; sharul and cass! though we had our lil mini conflicts last time, and how we all would laugh it off if ever we were to get reunited back on how silly our conflicts was all about, its kinda hard to forget your first few friends in secondary school.

even though all of us went our seperate ways and its really hard to see us all together again. i cant help but think that each and everyone of them, whether close or not, somehow contribute to the person i am today.

its funny how things tend to fall into place only when everyone is living in their seperate lives. when all of us got promoted to sec 3, as the terms and semesters pass by, all of us sort of became the hi-bye friends usually during recess or during the triple s or after school. and we only hung out with the only cliques we felt comfortable in, and with, to let our feelings show and known by them.

they have became my friends to bestfriends to my, sometimes sad to say, enemy. but all of us manage to pull through that phase of being enemies or should i say, hated by the other, and mend all wrongs and start off again as friends. a brand new start like the very first time when you entered a whole new world and usually the very first known line that you would say would be, 'Hi, im nisa. You are?'

sometimes, its true when people say its hard to let go. like, you`ve known that person for almost your four years in secondary school. you know that person inside and out. you know their family friends boyfriends etc. and the worse part is that you`ve been through thick and thin with them. and sometimes, you care tooo much about them but theres nothing you can do cause of the chasm you`ve created due to the certain conflict/misunderstandin/fight you had or simply the everyday not catching up and suddenly you`re fading away kinda thing.

and to me, sometimes when you havent seen these long seen friends for ages, a hug is so much well deserved and it just explains the feeling of iwishyouwerehere to see where i am today without the feeling of any awkwardness.

i mean, bottomline, i miss all of them. and i cant help it but think of all the fun times we had. god, they are my first, FIRST friends in secondary school sia! the part or phase where you start to mature and all and they're the ones there to help you pull through that very eeekyverysusah to handleandunderstand secondary school life!

as the boyfriend would say, " reminisce.. " hah.

but im still greatful to the girlfriend for being there for me all this while. =) and also the boyfriend for going through all the deepshits with me. ahh.

brr. i miss all of them. =/
i hope everyone is doing fine.
hope to see them all soon.

much love,
nisa.
=)

Christina Aguilera - Save Me From Myself
It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting with
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Well, some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well, tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying
'Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you
It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from my..
Myself

Most guys have shown me aces,

but you got that royal flush.

shopping for the hari raya bajus was =/. the designs are all bluerrgghh. maybe because stocks are not in yet but still, it was all yuck. thought of getting kebayas but kurongs are always a classic la. hah. walked around gazzilion rounds around angsana still theres nothin. and i gave up and just told my mom to get me what shes getting, only in smaller sizes. =) haha.

and theres cats at the top floor! the arcade area the tempat makan! haha. cute cute cats in a shopping mall. awww! maybe theyre goin shoppin too!

oh and, i guess this is the very first time im gonna say i miss school. yes i do! afiqah, i miss school! i miss going to lts, going to lunch at itas, goin for tutorials and and and just slackin around with you people!

oh and i need a restock in the closet. =/

okay, bye.
=)

Dance with me under the moonlight.

theres nothin much to blog about these days. its still the same ol same old everydays. hmm.

i passed my exams, so yeay. =/

i`ll come back to blog more.
im bored stiff.
chiao.

I tried to be optimistic for

the many times you critisized my many flaws.

msn`s a bitch and i cant log on. am i the only one?

and being the stupendous dufus that i am, i accidently deleted ALL my tagboard entries. oh yes i did. i was experimenting with cbox and bye bye entries!

and i cant sit at home all. not only will my mouth feed my stomach with countless of junk food. my finngers will scroll around websites and buying for me new things for my dear closet. oh i just bought 2 skirts and 1 top. =/ all for less thn 20. hah. im a super saver!

oh, i had fun helping my dear boyfriend clean his room. =) though i dint do much but still. hmm. and i love nasi goreng daging!

i hate jade. =/

and i got my simmy sim sims. =) oh happy days. and i got the add on versions tooo. all courtesy of the boyfriend. =)=)

and i have chalets chalets this week. 406 & i604`s. oh, and im getting the foood. lalala.

thats it.
hmm. okay. chiaoo.

Pretty great yet pretty boring and pretty pathetic.

i just realised i have a huge extended list of online friends. most of which 75% i dont know who. or at least i couldnt recognised their names from their emails which doesnt have their real names written to it. if you get what i mean. and dont get me started on friendster. god, friendster friends just deserves to be striked out. like seriously. no offence to the people i know but im talking about people i dont know. =/

oh, my hopes on getting a new season 2 went down the drain yesterday. brr.

and, its funny when you have got your mind set on shopping, that you`re gonna shop till you drop at one place and then suddenly, you got nothin much to buy and you end up buying things you dont really see youself using or wearing but just because you want to make the trip all worth it you get the most oblivious things?

and, you might have guessed, im that kind of you.

hmm. i dont like people wanting me to do things i dont like or ask me to do things, with them, things which i dont have a mood for. im already in no mood to do such things, dont try forcing me over and over to do it! get it?

okay. i`ve made a list for myself of things i need ;

1) playstation in my room
2) long mirror from ikea
3) new bag
4) new tops
5) chocolate truffle from royal
6) speakers to blast music from lappie
7) new seasons of all the other shows in DVD.

i really need to find the ps and put it in my room. and take out all the old games and start playing and mastering every single game there is, without cheat codes! or, will someone lend me or get me the original version of the sims with all the other extendable versions or age of empires or whtever else. hah.

bored i tell you, bored! not entirely lah. but i have my days. =)

i want to have more fun outings with everyone.
i want to go out wih the boyfriend. i want aglio. i want our ice cream. i want that spot at esplande. =)
i want to meet the girlfriend, and try to shop for things i need. i want to have brownies.
i want i want.
i want to meet the rest of the people whom i havnt met for ages. =/

hmmm. laters.

i see many many screw ups with this episode of SI. with the singers, judges and the people workin in the show. hah. and omg, chasing cars is a good but boring song. and jonathan made it worse!

oh yes,

I love my boyfriend.

just a lil somesome i thought you readers would like to know.

haha. but i bet everyone knows already. =)

a date with mr. egg mcmuffin, anyone?
text me!

chiao.

I can forget, but i will never want to.

today was a much needed day for me. i dont really know why but these kinda days is just what i need to get myself back on my two feet. =)

went for a picnic with some of the secondary school people. it was somehow nice in an undescribeable way. even if the people are the same people i see almost most of the time. =)

and bumped into umairah in the bus. so she tagged along. =)=) and i love my phone. haha.

i seriously feel that the kid acting alongside carla is talented and cute. hmm.

i want to go out, lose myself, change myself.

random, bye.

Sorry

i wish i was good in something.
i wish i could be a better person for you.
i wish i am stronger.
i wish i knew how to keep my cool when everything goes wrong.
i wish i could just smile and tell myself that everything will be okay.
i wish i could make you smile at the end of each day.
i wish every moment spent is as though its the very last.
i wish for many things.
i wish for better days.
i wish, i am wishing, i wished,

all things will be as though when we first were out there goin for the second chance we had with this world.

the end.

I miss you,

wish you were here with me right here right now

come home soon, please love.