" This date, that tyme, But next year - 2006. "

chcked out tha atmosphere in tha hall just now. it was nerve reckin alright. me phat mai n radha were like gabra already. even if we're not tha ones who were takin tht slip which says ur upcoming future. heh. radha was already goin bonkers. n people were like cryin n smilin. i dinnoe which one to heed. to see. tha ones who cried showed tht i MUST study n do well. for those who did well, well, it showed tht ur gonna feel contented n relief once its over n u noe its all worth tha hard work. n i wanna feel tht. hmmmm. gotta motivate maself. sheesh. niwae, i think my cousin did good? hmm. hope he gets to poly and dint put tha standards up tooo tooo high for us. haaah. =P

and and and i want youu to be by me when i get my results next yearr. heeee. to be my comfort zone. lolx. =D

soo tdae skewl was kinda okayy. s u can tell ad 4 periods offf. cool. thn afta skewl chcked out tha 0 results. tha seniors and also sume close close people. =) he dint make it. n im not gonna talk bout it. cause its not good. hmph. thn had ec. which was T-O-T-A-L-L-Y crap. hah!

hmm. thn me n phat wenta cs to have our lunch cum dinner. while eatin we talked about, people, life, tha results, os, family, expectations n evrythin.

its kinda expected fo this one "friend" to like talk against us like again. sick of her OLD antiques already. actually hate evry one of em. in that clique. all of em dont stick to their words. all are PLASTICS. all are NOT REAL. all are puttin up a front just to digg up dirty secrets thn later turn their backs against us. we're not stupid lahh. common. be more mature. be more real. ur tooo fake. ur not gonna survive in this world like this. n u call urself our friend. wen actually u backstabbed us like shitts. we noe tha world is turnin its back on us these days. n mayb its gonna carry on till like wenever. whu noes. but i noe theres gonna b a good outcome once its all done. once its all over. tha rainbow after each downfall. isit? haha. n we'll be tha one surviving n smiliing. n u guys cryin like shitts. i dunnoe if im gonna be tha shoulder u would be leanin on. hmm. aniwae, this is dedicated to whuever. siape yg mkn cili akan terase pedas ryte? hmmm. n to tht someone whom i know will nvr go online cause shes not tha type to go online n chat. shes too busy wit beautyfyin herself n diggin more treasures. ~typicalls.

i tried to slit just now. wanna noe howe it feels again. butt tried a couple of tymes. nothin came out. mayb tryin em later. missed how it feels like. but not gonna do alotts. just tryin. heee. crazy? mayb i am. =D

thts it lahh. n my mum knows about yest. she noe i went out at night to meet up wit him. haha. good work mum! haha. byes ppl!

" What a life for you aint it? Hate me till ur hearts content. Heh. "

yest was kind of a boring day. nuthin muchies to doo. hmm. just feel like updatin. in skewl niwae. had like 4 free periods. no maths n chem. good for me. heh.

had tuition at ard 2. did some bio. all like must memorize. so kinda craps lah. thn stayed at home. played com. etc etc. normal stuffs.

thn at night, told mum was meetin an old fren. she had problems or sumthin. n mum thought it was ard our area, when actually it was at central. n actually i wasnt meetin an old fren. rafie wanted to meet me ups. so i did. sucha liar i am. but hu cares.

so met him up at ard 8 pluss. walked ard. he passed me tha stuffs he bought and etc etc. heee. =D hes like so daym freakin rich? spendin money like runnin water. like nuthin. but its okayy. its his caching caching. and mayb if hes good enuff...[dots]*wonderin. heee. thn we walked ard tha fair there. kinda cool. thn walked backs home. sat at bustop. ma turn to accompany i guess. waited till his bus came n then i went off. he took, i meant borrowed ma mp3. hopefully i will get em today. if he dint forget to bring it tht is. thnks again for tha stuff aye? evn if u think its ugly or bigg. hee. appreciate it loads. =P

so thn got home. talked to twiggy on phone thn knock out. hmmm.

so thts it. yup yup. later 0 results. i pray tht evryone will passs. heee. i pray tht he will pass. n also my cussie, our dearest tallest adam. haha. toodles! =)

" Yeah ryte. Its coming. "

hmm. had tha most scary dream yest. it brought me to tears n shock n evrythin. i dream about judgement day. scary kan. i mean really really scary. somehowe i can also like feel it. it got me speechless wen i realised it was not happenin. at least, not yet. uhh. im scared. really scared. i have still not recovered from the shock. from what dreams can tell. -speechless-

cant expect me to stay -speechless- whole tyme rytte. if not u guys wont get updated. muahaha. k tht is crap.

sooo, hmmm. sorry bout yest's fume. was really fucked up. actually m still am. but okay already lah. u wanna noe thnks to whoo? uhhmm. tu later later lah k. haha.

sooo. sooo. sooo. yesterdae, phat came over used ma comm. haha. her com was "locked" by her dad. tsk tsk tsk. parents these days. thn asked her to tagg along wit mie to bugis. i wanna get stuffs. n she was still in 106 class tee, [ahhh~memories.] n skewl bag n skirt n all. me was in some polo tee jeans n slippers. tottaly slack. haha. sooo, we made our way to bugis at ard 3? jalan2. burned 25 bucks on a tee. but waddaheck. da suker nyer pasal. thn jalan2 jalan summore. ard 4 plus gitu, we dunnoe wher to go we headed to esplanade. imagine tht? reachd esplanade thn wanna sit at normal place saw firz n her guy. haha. so we very tha malu for sum reasons. we just sat some seats before thm. haha. behind some bushes. haha. thn we went of from tht place ard 10 minutes before six. thn got home. now i noe how it feels like not to have an ezlink card. very leceh mann. n thats my fridae!

n o yahh! i passed bio! i got like b3. cool ryte? and i got an a1 fer ss. haha. u wanna noe my trick? dont get too stressed up studyin. better yet, dont study! hahaha. it will come naturally. haha. for me tht is. i'll study at the elevnth hour. tryin to get evrthin insyde ma head while talkin to sumone on tha phone. haha. n i will study wit lights out my only light source is tha lampu at tha corridor outside. i feel wierd. but tht seemed to be workin. haaa. n my malay is droppin droppin. i passed ma recent one. just passed. tht too cant help me to pass overall. nvm. i dont care bout tht subject lah. very tha craps. n if u noticed, malay songs are up. tht are my ways of tryin to improve. readin is crap wokaay. specially wit almost 90% of words i dun understanfd. haha.

thn todae, woke up early2. met phat up. wenta skewl. had tha cheerobics thingy. kinda okay2 lah. fun fun. thn blablabla. lazy to wryte in dtail. haha.

thn wenta have dinner at cs. wit tha gurls n 2 guys. haaa. thn dad asked mie to go to my grannys. thn followed phat go buy food. thn took 31 to marine parade lahh.

thn half way at bedok, he called. he was at tamp! n i was at bedok! irritatin rytte. urghh. nvmm. and again later wen reachin mp he ranged up again. he thought i was headin home. hmmm. nvm. soo thn i reached my grannys place. place was filled wit boxes cause my uncs movin outs. so helped him do his cabinets full of bajus. actually just helped to take out tha hangers. heee. thn talk2 to my grandad. very comical lah. but coool. haha. thn afta tht my uncs sent mie n mum to geylang. cause wanna get tha nikah stuffs lah. its nyxt weeekk!! haha.

thn go visit ma grandma dads side. sit awhile thn off we go! headin backs home. dad asked mie wher i go. bfo i can answer, my mum said 'she went to sum rock concert.' n i was like 'huh?!' as if they would ever lemmi go to rock concerts. or shud i just say concerts.

soo thts it. i think thts long enuff. byes ppl.

" FUCK OFF. GET IT? "

mayb u wont. until u get the answers ryte? until u finish ur reseach. ur thorough inspection in askin people like evrythin. eh, dont u have sumthin better to do? trust me, i dont need anuther reporter in my life. urgh. im not askin for any wars here. im not askin for anythin. i just want u to get things clear. n get it into ur think daym thick skinned head.

wads ur problem? u tell mie. mayb face to face. tht woud be better. no point in havin blogg wars. its no fun. ive been there, n done that. y must u intervene insyde my life? nothin else good to do ah? go find sumthin lah. im sure ppl out there need ur help, somehow! did sumone even pay u to do their dirty laudry?? i wonder. hmmm. ur sucha pain mann.

im tryin not to let this get in my way. He told me to forget bout this crap cause those people are just a pain. im tryin! get it? tryin my best not to get heated up. thers too much anger insyde. fuckin assses .

dunnoe tht hypocritters are so that bad. this case is bad bad. extremely bad. tha worst case ever. eh hello, hypocritters just suck okayy. u guys have nuthin better to do huh? get ur own lyfe. get ur own state of mind. n use it to THINK. not to talk shitts bout people evn if theyre in front or at tha backs. u guys must fuckinly get a life of ur own mann. urghhhh!!!

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck! if i could strangle u to death i would! mayb this world wud b a better place man!

i dont understnd people these days. they just dont know howe to mind their own business. hmmm. why in tha werld is she makin such pathetic fuses wen tha person involved is not even makin it such a big issue. mayb shes too frustrated n cannot take all of her frens rantings n its makin her sick. so thts why she wants me to think thts im tottaly in tha wrong. i wonder. its as though i got no mind of my own when i go tmaself in this situation. sheesh. i really got nuthin to say mann. all i noe is tht its btw us. thats all.

i hate hypocriters.

" Like finally. I'm missin u, u dummy! "

sooo. hmmmm. wat shud i ryte ryte about? tdae is thursdae ryte? hmm yea yea. tdae i had the option of comin to skewl or not. haha. parents thought tht i was really really extremely sick. i wonder whyy. haha. but i did go to skewl lah. which is most definately tha most stupidest dcision i'd ever made. eh, thts not tha stupidest. hmmm.

well skewl was okay okay. like normall. like this and that lah. normal. my voice is still shicky shaky though. hmm. afta skewl, phat and mai came over. wanted to use my net. but its okayy lahh. kawan nyer pasal. haha. thn thought of droppin by tha heats at tp. butt, was kinda lazy. m not runnin in any single heats niwae. just tha relay one. haha. soo we headed to central at ard four. followed mai go get her chocolates. thn he went home. hmm.

thn wenta tm. wanted to burn some cash. haha. i meant i wanna get some moree pairs of short/ankle sockss. hee. so got em n on wae down tha escalator saw rafie! n i am defiantely certain it was him. heeeee. haha. n phat was like, 'btol ker kau? takkan cpat nah dier jalan. maner ader.' haha.

rang rang him ups. he was like shocked wen i said i saw him. n it was him! haha. he said he'll ring mie back ups once he meets up wit fau i think. so while waitin me n phat slacked at tm mac. talk2 about anythin n evrythin under tha sunn. haha. soo then he called mie ups n we met up. haaaa. like finally we met up. haha. =D

thn they went off to have dinner. mie n phat went off too. phat met ham fer awhile. ham was wit helmi n fbi. haha. i like to ryte this line. 'phat met ham, ham was wit etc etc'. haha. nyce kann? thn took 292 goo off homee. thts all. i was happy alright.

n i kinda miss playin tht age of empires. haha. i wanna go build build n destroy stuffs. haha.

n also sumone or what more, they. got mie feelin mie in a fucked up mood just now. only phat noes hu. n she even says lets have revenge. eh hello, u dun hafta put up a front wen u r ard mie okayys. n thn go bhind my back talkin shitts all over. ur tha one hus in shitts. heh. get ur own lyfe! like, whatever! hahah. i feel mean. niwae, thts not, i repeat NOT abt my x-gurl-friend. okayys. get that fact ryte in ur thick thick head dumb ass!

hmm. thts it people! tooorasss! =D

n o yar. i forgot about updatin bout this other part. hmmm. just wanna noe why n make evrythin clear. i noe ur not ever gonna read this other thn if ur online. but hey just wanna get it all outts.

to zuhaila. hmmm. i noe we've been all over tha place. and what we USED to have n share is like all gone. gone down tha drain just like that. i dont really mind. but its hard for mie to say i dunt really care. but u noe mie. im tht sorta gurl wher once tht someone wanna step out of my life, id sae go ahead cause its ur choice not mine unless to say i really need a gurlfren like u to be in ma life. but thn i look ard. i dont need tht. i got other people to fall on. but if u're ard, itd be better. i noe what happened btw us. between us four. mie u phat n oda. its about tht piece of paper, which i dun think u'd remember, one which someone found n returned it to you guys. it may mean nuthin to u guys but i struck sumthin insyde me very deep. its not us that STOPPED talkin to u guys. its not us which when we're talkin mcm 'NAK TANAK'. its because of that piece of paper n ur choice of words which came from ur heart n souls tht tore us four apart. so after all that. u dun wanna take the iniative to talk or us or ask wads wrong. or mayb, from tha very beginnin of when we four really 'CLICKED' u never really did care? is tht all just fake CARINGS n SUPPORT n LOVE n FRIENDSHIP or worst still YOU? its hard to believe. u used to sae, 'no secrets btw us' n usually wen sumthings wrong u'd say to mie, 'bilang aku skarg aper yg kau tk puas/ tak suker. aku tak suker org ckp blankg aku.what has happend to usto make us so drifted.' thts wad u wud usually say to mie wen sumthin came up. but nuthin was major cause we'd be all back tgether wen its done. haiz.

nowadays, u'd stare at mie as though i did sumthin wrong. oh please. keep ur eyes to the other set of bitches u had ur eyes on. just tell mie whats ur problem and i'll tell u mine. well to tell u tha truth, i got a wholle list of problems. i put aside urs n locked it safe n threw away tha key long ago. it'll open only tha day wen u'd come n talk things out. im not gonna let this get in tha wae. cause i noe this is full of crap. n it'd only be soo stupid. but i find it even more annoyin wen wed throw it just like that n u tellin people that we're tha ones at fault wen they ask why arnt we four hangin out tgether. well, hello? i got this cooped up insyde mie too long. i need to let it out sumwher dont i? n to imagine u got 2 subs. heh. thts soooo cool of you. such huge social circles u have to replace us. eh hello, we find it hard to rplace tha both of u wit sumone else okayy. evn if we seem happy. its not easyy okayys. mayb ud be lauffin ur heads of sayin 'padan muker. tularh tanak layan lagii' hu noes ryte.

haaa. i wanna ryte more, but then. i noe i got loads of UNKNOWN readers of my blog hu just visit but dont tagg. soo i wont reveal much lahh. just wanna get sum things off my chest. heee.

and o my gosh! mario is soooo hott! haha. i mean mario from american idol! i want youu! hahaha. hotnesss. *melts. hahahaa.

" Unbelievable aint it? Unexpected aint it? Believe or not, only we know. "

hmmm. tdae has beee kinda rough day for mie. in all sorta ways lah. but tha most toughest was tryin to get ma voice back! tha soar throatie was really takin its toll. and its tottaly a bugg. urghh. at one moment i got ma voice back and the other its *kapoosh! haaa. terrible2.

aniwaes. thts crap. i noe but its trueee. tdae had maths paper. it was okay okay. i noe i did loads of careless mistakes. n was not in tha right state of mind to go study or watsoever. even malay. hmmm. i noe id be expectin a red or underlined mark fer ma mt. haha. cool kannn? heee. hopefully i'll fail only malay. tht too is crap and wud be sucha a waste but wad tha hecckies.

afta skewl, headed to central. dunnoe for wat also. temankan phat go makan makan. thn while waitin fer buss saw wan? uhmm tht guy lah. dunnoe tha name. haha. bus came. got on. went home. yada yada yada. haha

so moro he'll be backs. wheeee. wonder wonder what time. n hopefully fridae can meet meet tht dude n also all my lovable seniors! haha. its not we wanna kpo okayy. cikgu azizah say its better for us to stay behind n check it outs! haha.

--> i noe its kinda unexpected. n soo unbelievable. but its truuee. cant ask u to believe what u dun wanna believe. its such in a low profile state only that some people know. actually quite alot noe already lah but i think.. uhmm nvm. sooo thats all i gotta say lah. but i aint lyin wit what i have said, when i said it to u. =)

thts it ppl. tooras. peace to evryoneee. heeee.

" Don't like this feelin of one missin the other. "

*sniff sniff* uhhh. i got flu. terrible terrible teriibbllleee flluuu. and not fergettin coughs n soar throatiee. hmm fever? not yets lah. but sooon. geeee. i hate bein sick. but if i get really really sick. i'll get an mc. then i dun hafta waste my tyme in skewl. n i'll just sleep my hearts out till im fully satisfied.

then again, i still got bio n phys paper next weeek. n tmr malay n maths. sobs. i hate lyfe. i hate skewl. i miss my carefree attitude and i noe that wont come till after my 0s. someone help.

n its sucha ferst timer fer me in passin my amaths. cool huh? n i dint really like study btol2 nyer kind. i wonder what i'll get if i really did study btol2. haha. that u will noe wen i get my 0s results. heee. i got 19/30. n i calculate it over hundred %. i got 63. n last year end results was 30 pluss. seee double! wheee. people do look down on me. guess what? i noe. yup yup. i noe.

lost ma ezlink. dunoe if its at home or in sumone elses use. heh. lazy to find it in ma stash of stuffs. soo u can imagine howe messy tha stash in my room iss. =(

thts it lah. lazy to update. too tired to update. byess.

" I'd go crazy if i cant get next to youu. High- 5s! "

i feel like i am happy todae. but on the other hand. after seein her ways, makes ma happy ways fade offf. hmm. nvm, wont let her bring me down. thts tha way to go! haha.

so tdae, had tuition. did phy. kinda craps. thn in tha noon slept my eyes out. and im fallin sick! haha. im havin soar throatie n coughs! n now im like consumin choco n coffeeee ice creamm. yumms yumms yumms.

i waannna go get some mathematical stuffs. but im kinda lazy to get up n gooo. haha. n i still got loadsa hw not done n i got humans dt tmr! *screams* haha. i think i'll fail. hmm, u? haha. mayb, i sae MAYB, im gonna study tonight. but mayb not. haha.

n thers ma uncs weddin on 5th n 6th of march. n i dun getta goo fer dancewerks! o shit n that gurl is so gonna be prowlin ard ther! noooo! i MUST go! hmm huda puhlease?! i wanna cabots from all tha rewang crap lah. i dun wanna work ma butts offfffff. ahhh! why cant they just get kendarats?! crap crap! a total crap! by hook or by crook im goin! haha.i'l find my ways! *evil laughters*

i hate havin coughs. haha. nvm. so thts it, i noe its short. but nuthin to update lah! haiyaaa! n five five five. hahaha. i got five bucks from my bibik. n todays is sooo full of fives! wheeee.

" Everyones goin away. Hmm. Can i come too? "

hmm. everyones goin away. rafies goin away to kl. n will b backs on thursdae! thts long okayy. u'll be out there enjoyin urself while mie at home sufferin. hmmm. n i dint getta sent ya in tha morn. its tooo early! whyd must u take tha mornin mornin train?! geees. n he is soo enjoyin hes life. soo not fair. un-fairism. hmph. n he wenta apm yest. told mie hes goin wit his cous but i assume he went wit sum other to make some "sparks" fly. hah. hmm. hope he remembers mie wen hes there n be sucha sweetheart n get mie sumthin sweet. been deprivin of sweet stuffs lately. haha. lucky mie he called in tha morn. =) i noe u'd b thinkin why in tha werld im writin a whole para bout this dude. lets just put it i wanna piss sumone off. haa. im bad arnt i. well hello gurl if ur readin this. haha. [[hmmm.bones, thisis not bout u okayss.]] =)

aniwae, people are goin awae, too many. too many thts its scary. n im havin terrible2 mood swings at home. all the more i wanna go out n nvr come home. trust mie, this place is crappin. hmmm. this is crap.

so yesterdae headed to town after skewl. walk2 ard. met aisha. thn walk2. bought stuffs. thn ate at sakura thn it rained. heavily. so me n phat just ran. n we were totally wet from head to toe. nvm. thn got home. parents crappin s usual. hmm.

thts it lah. just wrote this entry to piss sumone. thats all. heh. aniwae, anione whuever is back from wherever please doo ring mie upss. especially u twigg. okayys? hmm. byess.

" Sleep is Luxury. "

cant really bear anithin much more in this household. hmmm. its just gettin crappier and crappier. and im fallin sleepy n sleepyier. lazy n lazyier. evryones so like into studyin. i noe its my crucial year butt its kinda crap howe my parents get involved in this thing. i just hate it. hmm. i need somthing to un-stress maself. bleahs.

hmm. had some day just now in skewl. hmm. cant really remember wat its call cause currently, my mind status is at b.l.a.n.k so dont expect much of this entry. hmm. its a waste of tyme but a day wit no studyin involve is a good dae. for me that is. dun wanna give dtails cause its a waste of ma energy.

afta skewl wenta tp. hmm. twiggy was havin classes. =( awww. haha. but luckily saw him walkin walkin home. heee. n i noe tht gurl lah. seeen her around befo. she lives in tha hudc there kann? hmmm. =)

k k back to tha tp thingy, went ther. walked ard. thn saw fyna n co. adil n co. said hie. said bubyes. thn me n phat sat fer awhile causwe tired. n if i new tha goodie bag fer tha 17 mag thingy at tp was better i shount have signed up at cineleisure. hmph. thn phat n me wenta banquet. ate ate. thn headed back to tm. phat met ham. ham was wit fbi. thn all of us walked ard tm fer awhile. not sae i feel left out but just feel like goin home. hmm. planned to meet rafIE butt hes in no mood. hmm just chill okayys? i so wanna meet u up lahs. hmphhh.

so now here i am udatin this crap. blahs. i hate this place called 'home'.n i dun care if u com hanged or whatever wen u came into ma blog. cause ferstly, i dint ask ya to come and snoop ard insyde MY life. secondly dont blame me if ur com hang or whatever crap wit what i put insyde ma blog to make ur comm run sloww. dont make it sound as though it ma fault. cause it aint. ur tha ones hu wanted to get in here. n k-poed in ma life. mayb thats ur retribution. - to whoever thinks this way.

the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them.

Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.
.i like tha pic though.

" Life at home is crap. I need to get out. Help! "

im feelin frustrated! totally frustrated. life at home is a total waste of MY tyme. listenin to parents blabber nonsense and just simply invadin my personal privacy. hellooo. dont u guys have a life of ur own?! geee. this is like totally crapp.

i had like 2 hours of chem tuition just now. n i almost dozed off. heh. my mind was already in dreamland. what can i sae other than lack of sleep. i need sleep. zZzZz. n nowe my dad is like askin mie why i am online, helooo? i studied like from mornin till 7 n u still expect mie to burst my heads out till 10?! u mad ? if evrydaes like this, i'd rather die thn suffer. n u noe im not that sorta gurl hu pushes herself to study. it comes naturally. i noe wen to study. i got ma ownn face to put up in skewl. i dun wanna lose face. i wanna slack, but im studyin. in ma own ways. i dont need you to control my freakin life like what u are doin nowe wit my bro. hes never gonna be independent wen he reaches 16. and thts totally awful okayy. urgh. this is totally a pain in MY ass!

gotta calm down.. gotta calm down. blahs.

so yest tagged along to catch tha hockey match. went wit mr joe. catchedd up on some stuffs. will be goin again this thursdae, hopefully my parents allow. and wanna meet rafie after tht. he wana meet mie ups. heee. thn fri headin to tp. saturdae, mayb headin outs wit p.skewl frens. hopefully can cabot my madrasah. n it was a total shocker wen i got ma results fer tha previous module. i passed and got A? n to imagine tha topic was on marriage and all stufs. cool.

had english dt yesterday. i took a stupid-cant-score topic. i dunt evn noe whys. its totalk crap. i passed phy. tmr bio results. n chem paper. tdae amths was crap. i dint studdy. waddya expect? me to score wit flyin colors? dream onn.

hmm. tha CNY pics are up. but it aint manyy. and and cant take it livin in this household nimore. it gets me into an off mood each tyme. = haa. thts it. byes.

" Screw you! "

i found tht my previous entry is kinda crappy. haha. whu cares. nowe watchin tht makan2 show. they at balii. eatin fooood. haha. yummms. foood. guess wat my weight reached 50 kilos again. wheee. haha. thts why im feelin fat these dayss.

soo lets get updated okayys? hmm yest headed to jb. wanna get shoees. told mum runnin shoess. haha. cause i dont have one. look ard, dint find any nice runnin shoes. but tha other skate shoes are daym hott. haha. and and and this roxy shoee. its only RM 180. befo discount. puhlease get em fer meee. mayb as a valentines dae pressie? heee.

then walked ard. walk walk walk. but not tired lahs. tha guys mendin tha shop kinda cute. hee. k nisa, ur heart has got the hearts for one only. no morree. haha. then i only got maself a skirty. haha. tht too was on tha dummy. but its one of a kind. hahaa.

thn got back. thought can cabot my madrasah cause of the jamm. but tha jamm was kinda fast lah. tak sampai ber jam jam. haha. thn got home, be a good gurl, wenta class, when done, sent my films to b developed. n got em already. heee. full of craps. gonna scan it up soon. heee. thn got home. played comm. watched tv. nyce show at 2230. heee. thn went online. blablabla. was bored. slept ard 2 plus. hopin fer sumone to get online. but he nvr did. sobss.

thn todae, had tuition. haaa. learnt chemm. haha. gotta sae, its crapp. after tht wenta get ma shoeys. hee. got a black adidas onee. nycee. thn wenta grannys place. n so here i am, updatin. weee.

so tmr is valentines dae. awww. will i get anithin? sobbs. haha. nvm. hmm. c u guys around lah k. especially you. haaa. missing those chats. i noe ur busy and have loads of stuffs botherin. heee. nvm. do pop me a sms or ring ring ring mie uppys if ur free okayys? byesss.

a picture wit evryone at camp. cheeriooss!  

" `Music is my boyfriend. Can anyone beat him up so i can have a reall one? Heee. "

chnged ma skinn. waddya guys think. wait2, u guys must be thinkin this gurl has loads of free tyme doin up new skins ryte ryte? haha. wad can i sae, wasnt in tha mood to like "study" or nithin. skewls a bore okayy. wat more tha crappy stuffs we hafta read and doo. blahs.

thts why, `music is my only real boyfriend. haha. but if any guys hus willin to take up tha challenge and beat mr. music down. ohh please do the honour. for mie? hee. i'd love to see someone take mr. music`s place. ohh please? you wanna know why? cause mr. music aint treatin this lil miss good. all he do is provide her wit music. some good. some bad. some until it made her cry. made her think of things tht she dont usually think of. mr. music nvr really provide her with real love except for givin her, providin her wit her own ways n tyme to reflect and mend her own self. sumtymes it did do her some goood. but then sumtymes, the negativity insyde her lyfe kept on buildin up. pilin and pilin. higher n higher. mr music, why are you bein so mean to me? all i want is to be showered by love, care and concern. ehem, not fergttin tha REAL huggs and kisses. haaaa. im alwaes runnin after tht arent i. heh. what can i say. i thrive for hugss n kisses. haha. soo. *hint hint. haha.

okayy, what crap did i just wrote above. o geees. haha. but its trueee. haa. k nisa, stop tha crapps. hmmm. lets get down to business. cheyy. haha

tdae, i was hyper. like again lah. must be fridaes. hmmm. made ma frens pissed? haha. cool. great. i feel mean mean. early early mornin phat already signin tha 'this is tha moment' musical song. and later mie and mai was influenced. soon, i was singin my heads off. haha. n soon radha was almost singin also. haha. cool rytes. tdae is full of songs. we sang alot alot. many different songs. haha. n had pe tdae. played street bandi again. it was fun lah. tirin too. n hopefully id burn off sum calories. hee. phat brought in her album. and i scanned it up. n it up ppl! its unda 'candid snaps' so chck it outs aytess. its not tht clear lah but wad tha heckkies. n also tha pictures are crappy so i wouldnt get angry if u guys wanna laugh at it or sumthin. haha. cause i did each tyme i see radhas face in one of tha pics. haha. i can laugh by mydelf. heh! its a hidden talent! yeay!

after skewl, headed to central. to chck some stuffs phat wanna get or sumthin. walk walk walk, bumped into liuli. n both of em were like, 'wad u gettin fer him ah?' 'i wanna get this.' 'i wanna get tht. what u think' hell yeah i feel left out. usually i dont give a daym bout any of this things. but then again, somtimes u just wann to feel wat theyre feelin ryte. heh. but hey even if i was in a relationship now, no offence to those couple ah. especially phat, i dont find it like healthy? to get stuffs? i guess im not tht sort to get stuffs n more stuffs to show ur love unless tht person is really really worth it. worth my tyme. worth my love. n hopefully he feels tha sayme. cause most of my so called "good" relationships dont last long. heh. i told them when they were askin each other wat they gettin, i said "give ur heart lah. its romantic wad" i mean seriously, to me, by givin away ur heart, in both ways, love and watever other, is like romantic. n i dont find sayin 'givin your heart' is a stupid present. definately it aint. its like u offered ur love for sumone. for tht special someone. and its for no extra cost. all u gotta do is commit and stay true. its sumwhat like frenship, tha best gift u could ever offer is your frenship. tht goes a long long way. heh. why am i blaberin all this. haha. see lah. k k backs to tha updatin, hee. must bee tha 'love season' haha.

thn phat met ham fer awhile. i met my mp3 fer awhile. haha. k thts crap. uhm. thn walk3 ard. nuthin intrestin. central too packed wit people. thn got home. played com. etcetcetc. haaa.

thts it lah. nuthin funn more to update. gee. nytes ppl.

" He's M.I.A. "

was readin my january archives. and came across my new years resolutions. haha.

1. concentrate n do well fer 0s.
2. have fun n njoy lyfe while studyin hard.
3. gain more frens n not lose any of em.
4. b a better person. no more sarcasm. b more humble. i hope.
5. n to get to noe tht 6th floor dude. hmmm. haha.

no. 1, still havnt get myself together to "study". lyfe has been hectic.
no. 2, im havin fun i think. but still, not studyin. haha.
no. 3, gained frens? sure did. a whole lot. widened my social circle alot
alot. till its unbelievable. but stil, no matter howe many i gained, i
lost 2 of tha dearest ones. haaa. i want them back. yeah if ur
readin this, i want u gurls back. but dont seem to be happenin
cause u are changin. we are chngin. somehowe, in some ways. sad
situation we have here.
no. 4, hmmm. no more sarcasm. tht i dunnoe. haha. im gettin hyper and
seem to have a more laser friendly mouth or tongue this days. who
noes. mayb u guys shud tell mie. =)
no. 5, get to noe tha 6th floor dude. heeeee. done that. hee. but still got
loads morrree to uncover. heee. time will tell soon enough. this is
fun! haha.

see, told ya things ard mie are chngin n definately tha resolutions are somewhat happenin. cool. haha. n modae they got hockey matchh. dunnoe if i shud come down n kpo kpo. no lah not kpo kpo. thought mayb if mr joe is comin down thn mayb can do some catchin upp. haha.

im bored sittin here at home. nothin to ddoo lah. tryin to find some niyce furnitures fer my new roomie. i wanna get a platform bedd. and and. i wanna paint it all white. hmm. or all black? tht'll be like cool n different. n can get silver markers to scribble on walls. tht will be be fun fun fun. i wanna get a swing of sum chair tht hangs on tha wall, u noe tha one by ikea? tht sorta. heee. i wanna decorate it. ma ma ma own criiibbb. n later anyone hu feels like slackin or if my mommy permits to bunk in also n its gonna be totally wicked man! haha. yesh yesh. can blast music all loud. get ma own tv set, com, phone, uhhmm if can i persuade my mum to gimme tha small fridey and put it in ma roomies. so can get all tha sweet stuffs like softyies drienkies, chooo`colates, ice-creams. o yumms. haha. im soo gonna b diebatic thn. haha.

k k. i find this entry kinda useless lah. haha. just bored. heee. till next tyme peeps. toodles!

" Cry your eyes to sleep is like a thousand rainy nytes. "

for tha ferst tyme in so many nights, i cried yesterday. haaa. it got mie thinkin, actually im always thinkin, tht people say its not worth it to cry for sumone else. but tha way things were put into place when those words came out made mie feel sumthin. struck sumthin in mie to make mie cry. i dunnoe.

i rang phat up. hoping shed noe wad to do. but she cant help mie ith this sorta things. shes not goin thru it. i am. blahs. no one noes tha key to my personal lyfe. no one will. unless i really opened up. but that will nvr happen.

and yesterday i dreamt bout sumbody else. sumone whom i least expected. geee. i got tha blues. im so in no mood to entertain and more shits. please tell mie wad ur intentions are ferst if u are plannin to do anythin. haa. i need help. i need sumone to cheer mie up. this is crap.

"Snuggles & Smooches. A secret kiss."

geees. im tired. actually im sleeepy. and my eyes get teary as days go by. uhhh. dont ask mie why. urghh. suddenly i got all this 'agnst' insyde mie. tht makes mie wanna punch sumone. i neeeed a punchin bag. and i too wanna scream my heads out. heh, umairah, people suck yeah? haaaa.

n yeah. my phone is gonna be held captive by tha people of my home. reason cause my bill reached to 70 bucks. wonder wadd i did to it. it shot up to 70. bad bad nisa. this is totally crap.

so yesterday in tha evenin, twiggy followed mie to get stuffs. actually get a black bottom. heeee. thnnkies yea? really really appreciate it. =D

thn tdae was fun fun. i mean tha snappin of pictures wit people was funn. tha arrangement of activities was a complete B.O.R.E & C.R.A.P. nuthin was intrestin. evn tha food wasnt nyce. i gotta be thnkful. nisa, be thankful. ahhh. thn took pics wit most of tha ppl tht i noe. i think. i still got 5 more snaps to finish. anyone wanna take pics wit mie? pretty pls? i wanna develop it a.s.a.p. heee.

well, afta tht headed to central. supposedly to catch a movie. but thn, it was kinda like no tyme. sooo, at ferst phat wenta meet up some ppl. thought of goin fer pool. but was lazy lazy.

thn afta tht ate at kfc. belo came to meet us fer a while. walked ard. bumped into lyana, who was walkin aimlessly. thn no wher to go. met up wit asnim fbi n ham at city hall. thought it was only them. wen we reached at lido it was like tha whole gang. i mean not whole but kinda alot lah. n i was like sittin wit phat n ham, aiyoub n nnad. asnim n fbi wenta the other table. cant u seee. both are couples. an im like in tha middle! took out my mp3. n got emo. go hayalans. haha. wad else can i do mann.

thn walk2 ard wit thm. asnim accompanied mie since hes tha one hu "asked" mie out. haha. such a "gentleman" he is. hee. yeah. thnx fer keepin mie company wit your "soulful" voice. haha. so dropped off at simei. n headed homes. thts all. borin aint it. wat can i saee.

toddless.

to nj : haiyo, u go to www.Mp3Raid.com thn u go search for tha song. thn da jumper, u click on it. thn it will open to anuther page. scroll down nanti ader "download watever" u right click tht one, save target as, thn save lah. thn da save wataver song. u go to www.angelfire.com, sign up, upload tha song lah. thts all. tak susah. heeee.

And HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE! =)

" Undecided. "

im backs. like finally. tha camp was kinda okayy lah. i know tht tha aisha's batch is more more funn. but its okayy. u had ur fun tymes. i had mine. =) shoould i sae bout tha happenins of camp. uhh. yeah. i think soo.here goess.

well, ferst dae. uhm. wenta tha place. put our stuffs. got pissed by ppl of tha class. but thts onli tha beginnin. got tha ferst floor. room 105. pasir panjang. hee. so its kinda easy to move around lah. baside our room was clements room. hes our 'man of tha house' hee. thn wenta our room, took tha bedd bside radha. thn start takin out tha junkies. haha. our table were like full of junkies. my junkys mostly. hah. thn chnged thn wenta have tha lecture or talk or watever lah. our class was wit 502. so it was kinda okayy lah. while 408 n 501 had their activities. =)

thn wen its our turn, we hadta get in grps of 10. lucky lucky us we got taufik as our instructor. not tha taufik but anuther taufik. at ferst, he looks kinda very seriousy kinds lah. but wen we actually got him, in which he was of high demands from 2 otha grps also, he was a fun person. so we did this treasure huntin - amazin race thingy. it was fun fun lah. and to imagine ppl live at tht sorta area. its so tha ulu and its so serene. no hustle and bustle. kinda cool. he says tht ppl pay $10 000 a mnth at tht area? heh. u ppl must b filthy rich ah. thn sat down. talk2 ard wit tha instructor n grp members. i just love irritatin boonie. hes like one irritatin freak who wants evrythin hes wae. but hes very tha blurr lah and command of english no good. so if you're like talkin back to him also tha response gonna b so damn sloww. haha. i was disturbin him 3 dae straight. well, thts gonna continue. hee. i feel mean.

thn at night had night walk. i was wit radha. i can diee. haaa. i was in hell. evn tha ppl around mie pitied mie. i pitied mie. whether im blindfolded or not. my life was in a livin hell. haaa. i wanna elaborate but but. its gonna be longg n crapp. haha. afta tha walk, wit mie still bein blindfolded, radha fed mie 4 slices of cakes fer supper. hhaa. i thought it was only one. haha. ferst night cant sleep. wanted to talk to twiggy peacefully but sum ppl wanted to hear. haha. tha room was freakky at night. haaa.

2nd dae, had activities ferst. played this captain game. fun fun. heee. got irrirtated by boonie. hes crap. thn afta tht had tha talk or sumthin. i teared. a whole lot. well, tha part wen they strted talkin bout bestfriends. i am already cryin. tht caught my emotions the most. bout tha parents part not so much. but tha frens did. n to imagine i just a had silent treatment n all. haaa. i was crazy on tha 2nd night. n to lay on tha ground. facin tha sky is justt peaceful. got mie thinkin bout evrythin. life. love. frens. family, etc. kinda like soul searchin. heee.

3rd dae, last dae. had breakfast, pt, thn went fer tha talk talk thingy. evryone was fallin asleep. wen e gave breaks evryone was on tha floor. lyin down.thn blablabla. thn got backs to skewl. saw nashrun! haha. thn got backs home. slept. blablabla.

tdae, wenta sp. told mum had flag dae. haha. sp was borring. very tha crap man. saw mai n alijah n her frens there. haha. fun lah drg. very tha kecoh. haha. thn afta tht headed ta sakura. had dinner wit phat only. tha rest hadta go home. thn we walked ard far east. thn wenta pacific plaza. tha dcs are daym nyce lah. n stussy n roxy. n all other surf brands. ahhh. thn wenta esplanade. hee. just wanna slack ard. gettin bored thn wenta merlion ther. sat awhile. was cravin fer sum starbucks or coffeebean but there wasnt any. sobbs. so just sat ther. thn ham came wit fbi. phat asked mie to move awae, but i refused. haha. i feel so mean. so just sat ther while phat n ham had their tyme together. haha. fbi n mie was like listenin to mp3 n starin at tha sea. hahah. n he puffed 3 sticks in a roww. haiyooo.

so afta tht headed to my grandmas place. mum says my granny fallin sick. or not feelin not well. thn afta seein her, went home so nowe, here i am. updatin. haaa.

thts it ppl. =)

toorasss.

" Miss mie? miss mie? Will youu?"

im gettin frustrated over tha smallest things tdae. i wonder whyy. hmm. mayb its tha lack of sleep. oh nevermindd. dun bother.

had ma retainers on. and its such a bugger. i hate it. i gotta like open it if i wanna eat, brush ma teeths, do any contact kinda sports n etc. very tha troublesome. imagine mie takin it out bfo evry meal. frustratin. but hey, it helps mie get get slimmer slimmerr. hee. i noe i'd be lazy enuff to take it off. n wen its up. id find a very hard tyme to sae 's'. haha. somehowe i am gonna sound like a lil kidd. lucky enuff, phat accompanied mie fer ma dental. she wanna skipp lessons. haha.

thn tdaes tha bio paper. u shud noe. heee. its crap crap. evrythings like totally diff. nisa, prepare to flopp. haa. n physics also. anuther crappy paper. wat to doo.

my parents are anuther bugger. to b more specific evryone in this household is like totally buggin mie. urgh. my mum is forever busy askin wherther ive ppacked, wat tyme tmr, bag big enuf, blablabla. thn my dad askin if i got tha stuffs blbalabla n my freakin bro soo gettin on ma nerves. my bibik talkin2 marah2. crap lah. this household is really in shits ryte now. urggh.

aniwae, i'll be off to camp moro. b bax on fridae.

uhhmm. call mie call mie, or at least sms wenever? puhlease? cause i noe im not gonna catch youu online. im so gonna feel. . i dunnoe. if i dun get anyy. sobsob. okayy? heee. =D

i'll end it here tdae. taaas.