". . .But if the friend hurts you too many times, even after you tell them what theyve done each time, even after they say theyve realised their mistake & apologises profusely & say theyll make it up to you & promises they wont hurt you anymore, I dont see why you should give that friend another chance. You say theyve hurt you & friend apologises. You try & work things out. But then it happens again. Why bother.

I dont see whats wrong in you wanting to be selfish, to be headstrong & say enough is enough. That you need to think of yourself now. That you should stay away. No no, that they should stay away. Fool me once shame on me, fool me twice I must be stupid.

I believe it is possible for some things to be broken beyond repair. I dont see how its possible for friendships to occur when one side is unwilling to be friends with the other. I dont see why anyone would be so desperate to be just friends with someone. I really dont.

I especially dont see why when youre happy, someone must come along & try & rain on your parade & then question you how making them happy would make you unhappy. I dont see why they cant just let it go & let you be happy. If they cared for you at all, wouldnt they rather just see you happy. Maybe they just need something to help them sleep at night. Who knows. I really dont. . ."

quoted from Huda's blog,
guess it explains everything, dont it?

this is annoying the hell out of me.
I am pumped out, and i need my sleep.
Fuck.

to Md Ruhaizan,
I Miss you,
& you know
I Love you!
have fun later! (:

I am trying to refrain myself to shop, Forever 21 online is very tempting now that my mom has showed me how the process of credit card payments while processing our air tickets yesterday.

Trust me, i never want to know how you go about using that thin piece of plastic even if it is just to sign or enter or whatever. Right now, they're just making themselves feel at home in my wallet and i like it that way.

heheh, and that thing, is not a good friend. =/ especially to nisa!

okay, i'll make a promise and only use that thing when im going for holiday! & i want to definately make a trip to Bandung and stay a night there, please please please! we got the whole week to do other things!

& with this kind of weather, bumming has been the all time favourite thing to do. though my laptop has officially crashed and im stuck with my brothers laptop and my E71 (which i think is going to crash soon) and how can i forget my iTouch. i hope he is doing fine in the hands of another. heh, cause i miss my very kental songs and im here with a 65% raggae filled Creative.

i dont think im getting a job too soon cause bumming is very fun and other than that, i'll be working during the sept hols and by then it'd probably would be hari raya so go figure. hah.

alright, im left without my boyfriend for this weekend for he loves his skate more than i do (haha, kidding) and i wont get to see him till next week in which he promises to make up to me so i am not planning ok!

but i do need to run some errands, more like get some things like that Nixon cap (yes, i got influenced into Nixon and this is crazy cause i am starting to find that their watches and bags are lovely), get a haircut, get some Black Volcom tees, dark denim (yes, i need denims), a new bag and and and dresses, yes dresses. oh and send my laptopfor servicing, yes!

and meet up with the poly people and also the primary school gfs!

alritey, im going to continue doing what i do best.
ciao! (:

we have finally bought our flight tickets for our trip at the end of the year and yes, im excited cause we'll be away a week and more. (: time to save & shop till i drop. (:

i think, being in my brothers room most of the time has made me realise, KPop is actually nice & very catchy! haha.
okay ciao!

On repeat, David Cook - Permanent

nisa is officially done with school! (well, until the results come) but yes, she is done done done. Now, the very BIG question, to work or not to work. okay, some money would be good, very good actually, considering i need to save up for my trip in Dec, but but where at? where is good, easy and convenient and only on weekdays? hmmm.

Questions, questions, questions! Job Portals where are you!

anyway, some rather not big news, i am going to cut my hair, back, short, to how it was back then. YES, i am going to, by the end of next week. Period.

oh well, oh well, oh well, fall season is coming, a couple more days till September & yes, it'll be time to keep track of all the shows there is.

i am going to fast tomorrow, yeay! & i need to plan the days & dates for the meetups with the people since i am freee now. (:

& i miss my boyfriend too too too much these days. dont help that he is not working this weekend which pretty much equals to no eyecandy to make my day or smile at me when he pass me by or or or blow me kisses when he's at point. ):

damn.

ok, right now, i am going to,
1) wait for my boyfriend to call
2) watch hells kitchen
3) watch 10 things i hate about you
4) continue my Jon & Kate plus 8 marathon (im at season 3!)
5) sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! (:

ciao!

adv.e will be my bestfriend for the next couple of days, hopefully.
i'll be meeting umairah & radha tomorrow and it has been awhile. (:
& fasting month is in a days time but i cant fast, sad much. ):

anyhoots, i cant wait to meet the girls tomorrow
& i miss that boy very very much.
time to get back to my bestfriend,
sigh.

cause blood is thicker than water,
meetups with the cousins are always fab!

& hey!
we're a month old,
cute kan cute kan cute kan!
hahahaha.

i love you angel,
one of a kind.
(:

so school is technically officially over other then the one last paper i have got on the 25th of August. then it will either be taking a break for abit till Raya OR find another job to fill up my weekdays. hopefully i wont be too lazy to find one. though i still wanna stick around in wild wild wet for the weekends cause i'll get to meet my eyecandy aka my boyfriend and also catch up with zuhaila and play with the kids!

& since i dont think the airline industry is hiring currently (more of like, im not really checking), i am gonna find events company to apply in or or or pray hard that harneis or naffi or or whoever at work has a job lobang or connections for events at Sentosa or other places. =D

& & the career options for the wave house opening soon at Sentosa is pretty interesting, especially the organising events section! the place looks fun as it is. haha.

oh well, nisa will try to not be lazy and will find somewhere nice to work in after the 25th of August! (: hehehe.

okay, wanna watch my hells kitchen, ciao! (:

bibik has been coming over for the past two days. i hope my parents will change their mind and take her back cause cause cause shes like family! (: now i think shes cooking for me foooood! hehehe.

okay, i have got a report to do and a lab test to study for. after that im done. & i wanna go sentosa, again, before the fasting month. the boy just had to mention sentosa again to make me wanna go there.

& i have got the hang of emceeing! have been doing it for 2 weekends of August. just gotta stop stopping and leave my sentences hanging. hah. but im having fun especially with the 'you want you can just take to drink vitagen supply' ! haha.

& i cant wait to go out with the boyfriend on friday, i hope he wont have to OT or something.

okay, wanna go find shows to watch, chiao! (:

where to, where to this National Day weekend?
hmmm.
crowds, nothing of that sort, i hope.

i dont know what time im suppose to meet the boy & i have got a strong feeling he is still sleeping like a log instead of running his errands for today is his off day. cant blame him, the weather just did a 360 and i feel like sleeping myself.

oh well, we shall wait and see.

since my project presentation is today, i think i'll have a nice long sleep tmr before i meet the boyfriend. my weekends are filled, im meeting the boy tmr, work sat and sun and on monday too! its a good thing i have got no school till thursday.

i want to watch reruns of the oc.
& i need to get my hands on the sims 3.
talking about needing to get my hands on things, i wanna get the sephora strawberry lotion and shop till i drop (hopefully) tomorrow cause its the 7th (though i bet my July pay is only $200)

oh well, we'll seeeeeee.
agenda for August, work my ass off the anniversary weekends so i'll get more pay!
see,
August Pay $$ + Raya $$ + allowance $$ = $$$$$$$

haha, okay,
chiao!