"I wanna stop cryin. I need you. Oh crap."

kays. befo i strt on my new years resolutions, apolo-gees, dissin, thankies n etc, id like to take bout ma past days ferst. haha. i'll ryte tht all in anuther entry aytes? haha.

so yest. uhm. . . suppose to do ma hw. we're suppose to do our hw, but laziness took over n so, nuthin was done. taddaaa~ i still dclare maself as a goodie gurl though. haha. ader niat nk buat per. haha.

wad did we do yest. . . hmm. o yar, ferstly wenta skewl. fun fun. missed skewl. waited fer impx n mai at skewlie bustop. thought i was late, but ther were even later! hah! there were tha ncc peeps doin their cca fair thingy. saw many many peeps. haha. so happie. wenta skewl cause impx wanted to get her books. but most of it outta stock. cwap cwap. but good reason ta not study. =X

thn we headed ta lib. borrowed books. dunoe why. they seem to catch my eye. haha. but i noe i'll nvr read them, unless im dead bored la. n dun wanna waste ma tyme on com. haha. but that will like nvr happen.

back to tha story. so then each of us wanted to go get stiffs to tm. so we did. blablabla. thn me n mai go sent our entries. haha. like sendin application fer jobs liddat. thn we played wit tha stamp thingy. haha. fun tau. .

thn sat at mac. ate foods. dunnoe fer lunch or dinner la. mayb both. thn zu n raudhas n nisha came. i dunnoe wads up wit tha skirts. i mean not ta u guys only. isit tdaes trend settins? nvm. n put our bags wit em thn we go walk ard again. very fun. specially wit mai n impx goin ga-ga over taufik on manja. hah! so thn mai went off. left mie n impx. wenta polar go get ma mummy a cake. yummms. got her a chocolate mousse. reason cause i noe she wont eat tht much, so in the mie n bro wud eat it. thts y i took choco. like duh~

so tdae, mornin go catch kung fu hustle wit aizat. very violent, funnie, no sense i think kinda story. haha. n grusome also la. thn afta movie sat at small mac. waited fer huds mass n shai. while he waited fer tul i think. haha.

thn they came, wenta tm. they go get their skewl shoeys. afta tht walked ard fer awhile thn wenta bugis. weather was ever so cold. `brrr. haha. walked ard bugis. blablabla. thn wenta bugis village. gee. DC bags galore! cannot tahan! all so daym nyce man! i want thm all! haha. thn walk walk walk. thn saw azri! haha. he so tann. sheesh. nyce tann. mass was like so scared. haha. no worries. its over. haha.

thn went backs ta bugis int. undecided wher ta go. in the end went orchard. dunnoe why la. he was werkin. finish til late late night. sheesh. thn we walked ard. n its rainin. blahs. thn got home. tht was fast. all legs were tired already. so thn got on train n got backs to tamps. o yar, on wae to orchard saw farhan r also.

thn readched tamp, wenta cs's foodcourt. sat awhile thn headed homes. reachd home only get scoldin ba folks. crap crap. nvm. so thts it la. nuthin muchie. n still, no hw was done. haha. no worries la. i dun mind. i think. haha. till ma nxyt entry aytes. tatas.

"I want a blogger in my head!"

i noe. thts crap. n its not gonna happen. at least not nowe. mayb in a few years times. and i'll be tha one inventin it. haha. im dreamin big. kakaka.

aniwae, yest was an oh-so-so-okay day. yeah. was outs around tha house ard 4? wentta meet tha peeps n thn went fer a bowl. blablabla. we played n all. n i found out i spent 13 bucks yest. 1 day raftly ard 15. if evrydae i go out, tht wud be. . . i dunnoe. a whole lot? haha.

there were tha normal ppl. wit sofia too. haha. she stayed n played n game and had dinner wit us thn she was off. so in the end it was mie masse n huds. n tht woodlands guy dint come. aww, so sad. haha. thn we walked ard tm. got stuffs. thn headed fer home. by then it was already 2100 hrs? which is also 9 pm, if u guys lazy to do tha countins. haha.

thn got home, washed up. played com. normal stuffs. found out he was home early. freakin guy. n ma com is seriously crashin a whole lot. i am sure theres some virus. haha.

so, later gonna meet up phat n mai, do hw. *feel like a goodie gurl* haha. we're suppose to go ice skatin, but due to tha lack of response from ppl, we hadta cancel. gees, crap. aniwae i hope tmr we getta go. huda please? haha. thn we can also test out parents patience. haha. we'll go fer countdown also la k? haha. but must b in tyme to catch that tb's i dream. haha. set set. or we jus get some cheap hotels n overnight la. haha. thts wad my fren did last year. can can? share money. haha.

so till next tyme. tatas. n happie bdae to ma mummy! haha.

ps. is any music playin from ma blog?

"Suddenly, they all appeared. Why now?"

guess nowe im finally in a more better moods? i guess so. aniwae, i jus wanna sae im really sorry to fir. i dunnoe if ur readin this. but i really am. forgive mie? hope so.

aniwae, tdae was an extremely slow dae. i dunnoe why. i woke up in noon. followed my bibik to go get my bros books. went home. had tuition. finally i noe howe to do tht freakin graphs. *yeays. haha.

so afta tht followed my dad to send my cousins home. n i think tht theyre much more fun. only tht sometimes they tend to go overboard. n wenta pasir ris fer a while. my cous wanted to get nintendo. i tagged. n i saw aaron aziz. haha. hes a classified hottie. i think. haha. i noe i noe, im slow. but nvm. kinda crap. my cousins bein from malaysia was like 'eh aah ah. asal dier kat sini plak? dier naik bus kot. ataupon taxi. tu dier tu dier, yg drive taxi tu. haha.' theyre jus kids. heh. full of crap. as usual.

n o yeah. gunbound seemed fun. again, i noe, im sloww.

so afta that. cute hotties strt streamin in. gees. why must they come at such bad timin?! one afta the otha. hotties. im melting. haha.

so tdae, not touchin any hw. haha. lazy. moro, i dunnoe if im gonna do hw or get out of house early, or mayb alone. im used to these stuffs nowadays. im growin. heh. so moro gonna bowl wit p.skewl peeps. thn thurs gonna go ice skate. anione wanna tag? just contact mie aytes. at tha 9105916[-] no. thnx. =)

so thts it. nuthin much. im bored. n i feel so sorry fer tha ppl hu lost their lives in tha tsunami. send my condolances. however u spell it. almost 50000? lives are lost at one go. scary.

`` miss ya. a whole lots.

"Like what tinkerbell says, Fuck You."

im seriously feelin vulgar. dun ask mie why. i think its jus evrythin? sumtimes i think that ppl are fuckinly crap. they tend to go back on their werds. like i said `fuck.

too many stuffs in ma head. i hate it. jus cant wait fer wed. i dun noe if im gonna b in happy2 moods. cause im definately gonna b pissed somehowe. i dunnoe.

im not answerin calls tdae, not by anyone im pissed at or close wit. u see, sometimes u people just dunnoe ur limitations. crap. o shweet. im havin mood swings way befo im havin ma tht tyme of tha mnth.

well, what more can i sae. this werld is jus fuckinly sucky. *pukes.

i hate you.

[n im not referin to MY dude]

" You're just runnin ur mouth."

n o yea. yest found the exact replica of aizat. evn only by speech. sheesh. cannot la. one skunk in my life is enuff already. heh. n im talkin bout u, *fir. evn we only met once or somthin. i hope u dint think somethin else or wat. i just found out that ur exactly tha same. though u might not noe him. but i cannot have anuther person whus tha same in personalities n character. it'll bring mie back memories. which some i wish to keep n some others not. but not to replace it or overlap it wit mayb u think is gonna b wit urs. its jus not mie to have that. im so sorry. mayb frens is jus fine. it jus scares mie lar.

niwae, i hope thats cleard.my mind wasnt at rest yest all nyte thinkin bout tht. hope u will get it. so sorry again. i'll jus keep quiet till u read this.

lyfes kinda borin nowadaes. n jealousy tend to take control sometimes. *my specific reasons* gonna have a blast i hope on wednesdae. n that tidal thingy is really freakin mie out. not gonna go to beaches again. hah. its scary. lucky most of my phams are back already. but my grandies are at indo. hope theyre okay. *concerned* =)

``i dunn wanna cry myself to sleep at nights no more. i jus want you by mie.

"It would take mie forever to get over you. I want it badd."

yea yea. i noe thats crap. n extremely tha mushy. but im outta lines. [thats sucha bad bad excuse] blahs. its crap la.

my pham is like so fuckinly irritatin tdae. from books to gameboy missin. n also shoutin ryte at ma ears. im not deaf u see. sheesh. shout like shits. kinda craps. n searchin fer stuffs which is not evn of ma reach. which i dint evn touch or see n also not mine. crap crap. totally crap.

so tdae. had tuition. okay la. did maths as usual. so did bro. n it was longer thn 2 hours fer mie. about ta fall asleep. zZzZz. however intrestin one tcher can be, i'll alwaes feel bored n will most likely be sleepy. n finally tdae, i did some hw. mostly copied werk. hah!

i think mayb later tht `emdyude gonna ring mie up. i dunnoe. betta to have somethin to talk about than basically nothin. blahs. i dunnoe la.

moro gotta finish up hw. must. tuesday tuition. wed head outs. thurs n fri, no plans yets. this week, last week of hols. sheesh. thats fast. not soon later i'll b takin ma 0s. o craps. n just nowe taufik snag tha an`jin song. howe evr u spell it. it was betta thn slys. haha. crap crap.

thts it la. nuthin much. blahs. bored. totally. life is tottaly bull`shit. yea. it definately is. bbyes people.

"A stroll by tha beach. Hand in hand we went."

thats what i want. yess. thts it. but ferst thin, i gotta b permitted to b outs at nytes, the otha thing, he must b free and just let tha nyte be about us. `yess. thats it again. haha. i dun mind walkin down wit ma bestie or mayb even better ma dude. im jus wishin fer that. i noe, tha time will come along. soon enuff i hope. =) as long as its 2 ppl. no more. it'll be jus mie, him, tha wind, n tha nyte skye.

so i rang him up. he was tired n was needin some rest i guess. why waste tyme talkin on tha phone wit ur gurl wen u need those rest ryte? nvm nvm. be optimistic nisa. be that! hmrph.

n i think that emo dude is just thinkin too far, which i dun even noe why. its hard to explain la. i just dont like bein pushed. ur thinkin wae ahead. n by tha wae i read ur blog, it kinda scares mie u see. u seem to have all these gurls, evn if they played ur heart, but it seemed u got a whole line of em linin up fer you. so why mie? i dunnoe. answers will come soon.

so just nowe wenta sent ma grandies to airport, they headin to indo fer some hols. haha. cool. kinda like rombongan. but actualli its not. haha.

thn wenta chngi. went ther fer a sort of dinner la. but all kinda full. so jus grabbed some light bites. met asnu ther. but i dint tegur him. haha. n also met loadsa cats. all cyute ones. miss ma cat loads. wonder wher she is. or if shes still breathin. haha. ``meows. =^_^= ``purrr.

thn got home n here i am. bloggin. yeays. kinda sleepy n borin la. moro got tuition. kakaka. nvm. im gonna study hard hard nxyt year. yeay. thn afta that, go holies wit budds, thn take up wake bordin wit tht dude n mayb mai also. yeayness. but i gotta study study study. haha

nytes people. mish ya loads la. as alwaes. may will go visit ya somtime wen i head ther. go chck u outs n no one else. hehe. tumtidum. blablablues. haha. nytes ppl! sweetest dweams. takie cares!

"Merry X`Mas People!"

what should i update tdae.. i dunnoe. urr. did nothin much tdae. still havnt touch my homewerk. lolx. lazy lar. so whole dae i slacked in front of com. eh, wait, i did get out. i met up wit zhuzhu. haha. dunnoe why also la. haha.

so tdae. i saw that sixth floor dude! yeay! haha. he is like so daym fuckin kewl. n hot. n cute. n so tha.. [lost fer werds] *melts* he was unda ma blockies. wit a fren of his. thn i wenta bustop. i was ever so prayin thn id bump into him. lolx. gee. but i dint. i guess he walked ta central. cause i met him ther again. nowe wit his bunch of frens. i so cannot take it la. hes daym bloody hell cute. i tend to lose myself evrytime i see him. i noe i noe. im crazy. n its only mie. haha. my frens will get wad i mean. *smiles*

so i wasnt tht eager to head outs but, seein tha atmosphere was dead at home i headed outs. which is so werth my time? i think la. thn met zu, walked ard. blablablues. haha. i wanna watch oceans twelve, asked tht dude along, but, he says his mommy wont let him go to countdown tonight if he was out early. hmrph. nvm. thers alwaes nxt tyme, which i hope is befo skewl reopens. *smiles* n please, i'll grow slimmer once skewl reopens. i noe im gainin weight. hah!

so thts about it lar. thn went home. blablablues. [i like that werds. haha] -blablablues- haha. n tdae. phat got her ferst tuition. yeay at ferst. but then found out it was wit cik liza. sheesh. i was like thinkin 'cik liza? serious? u gotta b jokin.' hah. n told ya already that shes definatly gonna ask bout mie. lucky fer mie , i told ya wat ta sae to her already. yesh yesh. n cant believe she called mie 'selenge' man. tha reason i usually smile n jus sae 'okae okay uh' is bcus im darn lazy to haf a chat. thts why mie n my cussies usually sae 'okay okay' each time.

guess thats it lar.. nuthin muchie. haha. i added taufiks belainana jiwa into ma bloggish. just feel like it. tha songs beautiful larh. not him ah. tha song. =) niwae, hope to see u guys ard. miss him so much. n not fergettin u guys too la. cant wait fer skewl [only frens part]. yeays!

"Ghosts freaks mie out!"

haha. okay, thats kinda crap. tha thing is, i used to have all this lines in ma head few mins or hours ago, but then `kappooosh! its gone. just like that. haha. nvm. nowe ma parents watchin reality thingy on tv. its an indonesian show wher they medle wit ghosts n spirits n all la. its creeepay okay.

niwae, tdae had tuition. uhm.. i learnt about.. uhmm. wad its called.. wait uh..factors of polymonial! yesh thats it! hah! actually i wenta chck tha title outs. haha. i thought weve learnt it already, so i told ma tutor i did, but i was kinda bluurr. wen actually i havnt learnt a single thing form that! even if i did, i wouldnt have remembered! hah! n i still havnt got strted on ma skewl assignments! help!

wad more shud i update about tdae, hmm. nuthin much larh. still no contacts though. i wonder waddsup. hmm. and.. im gettin more `un- or expected calls from ppl. haha. cool cool cool. yeayness. i dunnoe la.

thats it fer tdae. moro parents half dae. sob. saturdae christmas, yeay! hhaha. nytes ppl.. =)

"I'm just not ready yet."

im not ready yet. uh.. to let go of what i haf wit you now. seriously i dont. i noe u wont b readin this, but i think that mayb one of ur frens will, n most probby will tell this to gossip or talk bout ma entries in ma blog to you. i noe.

aniwae, that dudes a great guy, but, it jus made me open ma eyes that sumtymes i dint treasure what i really have. hes so sweet n understnds, but i cant jus let him wait. i dunnoe. is this a form of rejection? i dun think so. but, we've jus met u see. n im definately taken by ur boy-nxyt-door kinda charms. but im not that sort, not animore, whu jus let go of ma current rlationship wit ma guy jus bcus u came along. id barely evn noe you. i dun evn noe wens ur birthdate you see. gee. i just hope wed still b in contct. but i dun think its most likely fer you to wait ard. id tell you, its not gona b werth it. cause, its gonna make it hard fer mie. n also fer you. n id be goin thru all this emotions all over again, which i dun want n dun need ryte nowe, n id be sufferin from major mood swings, be really emo-shit [i noe u noe wad it means], n b totally dpressed. tht i dun need ryte nowe n i dun think not ever fer tha tyme bein im still wit ma dude. id just aprreciate u will n can n willin to offer mie your frenship. thats it. for nowe, we can still hang out. no sweat. we cud b best of frens. whu noes ryte. well. im jus trustin watever that says in mie. again, im so sorry.

i dun wanna let you go. no no no. no wae. thers stil so much i hafta noe. hafta find out. hafta explore. your charms, your ways, your habits, your evrythin. but if u hafta let mie go, thn ive got nuthin to sae to chnge ur mind. but theres just to much im goin thru, though it seemed kinda lil. mayb jus a lil piece of ur tyme will do. im not askin much. jus that. heh. hope he noes. bleahs. things are jus c-r-a-p. `i hate mie sometimes, do you?

*snap snap* thts us again! 

"Its not a phase, I just want you to stay wit mie."

I totally blew it tdae. I missed out on so much by not talkin really face2face wit him. Suddenly evry worries i had jus dissapeared n i was like fer once fallin all over again. though we wernt near at all. quite far. sobs. n all we get was hies. sheesh. i blew it. i blew it. i blew it. o fuck. gawd damnit. why must i be like this. can i turn back tyme? please?? i hate this man. aniwae he looked as cute as ever. hah! to mie larh. haha. wonder if he grew anie taller. hmm

i was at skewl tdae. like finally. was really happy n excited. yeay. saw like quite a no. of peeps! *smiles* all those that i wanted to see n meet i saw n met! im so happy. went ther wit impx n zu, cause did chem project, which miss tan i think has totally forgotten. n she told us tht therd b ard 10 more ppl joinin us. thats so fuckin craps. no more 5s. sheesh.thn met up wit rashmi n mei yan. we reunites. hah. niwae, there were ncc goin on n also band. n some othas. at ferst walked twards tha board thingy. its like mie n phat tak sabar nk chat2 ngok org yg namer ader pat board tu. haha. th while walkin saw raf medee n gang tu smua larh. y m i talkin in malay! gees.. at ferst he dint see mie, but then this farhan razak i think wenta shout out ma name. dunnoe fer wad reason. o craps. thn thn thn wenta sit outside bookshopy fer a while. cus zu wanted to get cme book thn saw ivor n fina. haha. so many people. so lil tyme! haha. i miss skewls atmospher. but nxt year so gonna b diff, no seniors. sobs. were gonna b tha seniors. so much fer 2005.

thn went out japs. go get tha vnguard sheets n glue n stuffs. he calld mie. blablabla. saw more peeps. i think. still i cant totally get over myself fer lettin it go. bleahs. so thn met up wit adil go get books fer radha, dunnoe la. he seemed so bored at home. haha. so got ma books thn wenta radhas place. passed tha project n books to her. n thats wen we lauffed alot alot. hah.

thn met raudhah in tha bus thn headed ta tm. went ther wenta popular. thn took neoprints, again. haha. later ill put it up. thn umairah came. haha. she wanted to pre - ordered taufiks cd. thn wenta mj, they said tmr. hah. thn dcided to haf luch cum dinner. zu n odz wenta ljs mie impx n mai wenta some food court at cs.

n tdae, met up wit that dude. he looks awfully different from tha pictures. n he is awfully sweet. he is daym tall. tha wae he walks is like aizat. hah. but he is officially tha boy-nxyt-door. not really cutesy kind. neither is he tha those extremely good lookin kinda hunks. jus a simple guy. yeayness. so at ferst he wanted to take mie outs fer swensens which i dunnoe why.. but i was runnin outta tyme. thought at ferst i got tuition at 6.. so i told him im in no mood to eat. lolx. thn he wanted to send mie home. as usual, tha fear of bumpin into parents took its toll. so i declined. heh. thn i met him, he tagged along wen i wenta made taufiks pre ordered cd at sembawang. [its jus a spurr of tha moment thang, lucky i got cash wit mie] he evn offered to pae fer it. aww. thats so sweet. yeay! haha. got hes calender also. which he, as in taufik, is so ever cute. haha. u guys should go n get it!

n he took tha sayme bus s mie since hes headin twards simei. hah. thn talked talkd. blablablues. but dropped at phats stop i think. all in all. hes da ryte kinda dude. though im not gonna treat him like a backup. no wae. not animore. im all wae out of tht kinda stuffs. heh.

so got home, found out i dint have anie tuition. anuther `FUCK. yeah. im so full of that kinda werds nowadays. dun evn ask mie why.

so nowe im home. thinkin of tdae all over. n im totally still am missin my guy. sobsob. i do. i really am. please, can we hang ard soon? please. . .

"The way i see it, you are blockin your life outta mine. And i wouldn't have mind if you'd tell mie earlier."

tdae one werd - outspoken. heh. tdae im soo like outspoken. n i guess to straightfoward. haha. im considerin bein tha straightfowardy person. i am really tryin ta be. hah. sheesh. it seemed fun u noe. espcially turnin ppl outs. hah.

.aniwaes, tdae went outs wit impx n zu. took neoprints. kinda in a mess. but it was fun. blablabla. wenta tm thn bugis thn orchrd thn had dinner at sakura thn bax at tm thn home. yeay. n reachd home ard 8. uhm. usually im not allowed to get home ard tht hour. but i think nowadays im allowed ta. cool. n on wae met saipul, mr zinky, huds fren, adil hafiz n dunnoe la

well. im feelin kinda FUCKISH. if there is ever such meanin. `o yesh. craps. i jus hate this feelin. and and and. i dunnoe la. he or it or both, kinda, i mean really suck. which i practically dunoe why. please ppl. tell mie wen ta stop it. k k? i mean this 'thing' we have here. or is it even a `thing. i wonder.. [dots]

niwae, moro gotta do chem. n o fuck. i havnt done ma hw yets. n moro i got tht daym bloody tuition. talk about preparation fer 0s. im so hatin it. bleahs. i hate it larh. i hate evrythin nowe. like i said. `FUCKISH.

Us taken just nowe at heerens.. i think.. 

wat u think? isit somethin or isit nuthin? Abstract ppl. Hah. I dunnoe la. Kinda craps ryte.

"Make me smile, maybe we can chill. Keep it real, show me something I can feel."

im so happy. haha. moro meetin ma gurls. yeay!! finally meetin phat. haha. haha. im like smilin ear to ear in front of com. o gosh. mayb moro hangin outs till nytes. hah. jus wanna have a gurl dae outs. lolx. but anione else hu wanna tag, sure can do. jus ring ring mie ups.

niwae, i dunnoe if im suppose to feel dumb or stupid or sumthin, but im feelin kinda excited on meetin someone moro. heh. like its only based on only a few smses. but he seemed so real. so naturin. so sweet. but hey. i hope ferst impressions aint gonna b bad. hah! but i dunnoe! o craps. lolx.

so tdae, headed outs wit aizat go get tha bukus2.. n go jalan2.. met up wit quite a number of ppl la. like fuhrer, hafiz bo, jafarish, haziq, this nt guy etc. well. i think some ppl find it shockin to c mie hangin ard. n make thm think twice i guess. i dunnoe. heh.

well. im jus makin a brief dtailed of stuffs. lazy to update la. n too many stuffs to get zu updated on. sooo. tooras guys. And so much fer our 3rd monthys. heh.

"Death strikes in dreams."

hmm. moro moro moro. n all i got was a msg. - `sorry im busy. gtg. so sorry'. hmph. nvm. i dunnoe. do you? i feel like checkin out skewl. i miss skewl. i miss tha atmosphere. i miss ma frens. sobs. i dunnoe i dunnoe i dunnoe. ahhh! haha. my minds so full! help! haha. i feel like crappin ard. i feel like hangin outs n never comin home. hah! like i ever dare to do that. uhm tdae followed mum to arab street wit ma auntys. kinda fun la. thn went back to their place n chill. thn shairah came. seems like she has loads of stories to tell. cool. heh. cousin bondin. hah. anywae, i dunnoe whether to stae or go. im still fumed up sumwher insyde. blablabla. but got no heart to leave u see. o nvm. short one aint it? no mood to update larhs.

"I gave you my heart. And thats all i can give, to you. If thats not ever enough, then i'll never be enough fer you."

i got that off one tree hill. i mean tha showe. really some words. it meant alot. sheesh. aniwae my teeths hurtin. dunnoe wat crap that dentist did to it. heh. n i totally cant take long journeys in cars. blame on that fcukin driver down back at bali. hmph. n i listened to almost all ma cds. jojos one tha best, so far. can totally relate. =) nuthins up really. so nuthin much to update. so tooras.

[no replies.no answers. wat crap is tht? you tell mie.]

"My mind is full of 'Gee-ness'. I wonder why."

k nowe i think im gonna really really update. uhmm. but wat shud i ryte bout tha trip uh? shud i ryte evry dtailed thin tht happened? i'll try la. as u guys noe. im kinda fergetful. haha. aniwae, heres wat i did.

1st dae .. [saturdae]

got mornin flight. reachd there ard 12. hotel ppl dint come to pick us up. bad service. so got a cab. wenta anuther hotel. chrgin us 60 or 70 US$ per night. heh. ex right. but ma folks says its cheap so okay la. got to hotel room. first thin i did, snoozed. haha. i slept. till ard 5 or 6. thn woke up saw only ma bro. haha. my folks were out walkin ard or lookin fer food. thn wen i woke up bathed n all tht stuffs. lucky tha hotel room wasnt that ulu. i mean, tha rooms wernt filled with those masks n all. ewww. haha.
thn i got up went out walked ard. ferst thing tht shot ma mind was - SURF STUFFS! hah. surf brands. whole stretch. from ROXY to BILLABONG to QUIKSILVER to VOLCOM to RIPCURL. gees. its paradise man. but tha prices are way more splendid. heh. its so daym ex? heh. aniwae, wenta matahari, somewhat like metro kinds. tha cds. one werd - cheap! its only 2 bucks! dvds! cds! gosh! 2 bucks. but it aint original la. copied. but its 2 bucks u see. betta thn downloadin n rippin from otha ppl. sheesh!

2nd dae .. [sundae]

stil. dad was makin a whole lotta noise in tha morn, fer breakfast. i was sleepin ever so soundly. fer tha record, fer tha whole five dae trip, in tha hotel, which has complementary breakfast fer two, i dint even set a tini piece of food from tha pfreakin hotel inta ma mouth. food = horrible. hah. seriously it was horrible. n dogs were evryher. i mean not in tha hotel but elsewher, outside. cats seen - only 4. sobs. aniwae, woke up. mum got mie sum spegetti from kfc. its cheap. considerin spegetti n drinks were only a buck or two. heh. thn i woke up, walked ard. n got more more more more more cds. in total i got 3 dvds n 10cds. but they dont have keane! but i got jet! haha. i wanna buy more more! but dad was already makin that 'thats-already-so-many-n-u-still searchin' kinda look. hah. its 2 bux each man! haha. thn bought food. ate nasi padang. nyce. n paid only like 11 bux fer a pham of fors consumption. wit eggs, chickens, veggys etc. its cheap okayy.
thn ma dad knew i so badly wanna get surf stuffs. so headed fer Surf Factory Outlet. at ferst i was like 'yeay! tyme to spend!' heh. but thn afta browsin thru, nuthin caught ma eye. not evn tha roxy stufss. n its like ex la. in the end, ma dads tha one whu spent alot alot. from tht shop, i got a volcom jeans n 3 ripcurl girl tees. each was less thn 20 sgd dollars. cheap n kinda nyce. n some part of mie says tht i bought it jus fer tha sake of buyin. hah. was kinda disppointed lar. last tyme i went tha board shorts were so cheap. tht was when bali was bombed. heh. bombins! lolx. thn got back n jus slacked in hotel room. which we chnged to a sort-of-wat-they-call-a bungalow. in front of pool. i mean right in front. so most of tha tyme was spent in tha pool. if theres nuthin on telly.

3rd dae .. [mondae]

went out mornin ard 10 or 10.30 or 11 fer sea sports. yeay. it was at nusa dua. which was 1/2 journey from kuta. but wit that phreakin lauffs-fer-no-reason taxi driver, it was longer. tha cab was so not comfy. n he drives so daym slow. n he gets on ma nerves. so sickenin. so reached there ard noon. so. i played para-sailin again. heh. fun fun fun. extreme fun-ness mann. scenery = beautiful. my bro dint take it cus he wass kinda like phoebiatic since tha last one. hah.

thn took tha jet ski wit ma bro. yeay! haha. he drove! i dun wanna drive it la. its jus tht to get on to jet skies was $$ n i wld rather save up on tht n go shoppin. =D
afta tht afta tht. heres tha fun part. i wwnt wake boardin! wheee! it was hard hard. wit water up in ma nose alwaes but it was worth tha money. it was so daym fun. anyone wanna take up wake boardin wit mie? pls pls pls? tha instructor was so kewl n patient since i fell down so many tymes. =X
thn i thought its ova, but ma dad wenta pay up fer snorkellin. haha. i was tired. hand cramps. but its all paid. n its snorkellin man. all tyme fave! cant pass tht out can i? anywae, tha fishes aint tht beautiful as tha ones in tioman. tht one, fuyoo. daym nice. u can jus float n see tha wonders of tha sea. thn afta tht went to sum turtle place. loadsa turtles mann. huge huge huge. n sum smalls ones too. soo cute. i wanna bring home one! pls! haha.
so afta tht it was in tha evnin already. wenta eat dinner at some seafood restaurant by tha sea. exactly by tha sea. it was high tide. n water was almost up. food was scruptious. has 2 lobbysters. haha. thn afta tht jus got bax to hotel. slacked as usual.

4th dae .. [tuesdae]

what did i do on this dae. o yea. most memorable one yet. sheesh. went ta kintamani. some mountains wit river in between. usually im into all these scenery stuffs. but thn tha same driver that took us ard tha dae bfo really pissed mie off. he talked so much. his taxi was breakin down. imagine, goin uphill, takin a cab. n not sum s.u.v. or suthin. craps man. tht frakin 7 year old honda cab. sheesh. n worst still, he drove at a speed of 30-50! i already m havin headaches, n had a light breakfast. n he drove tht freakin slow n still can lauff. n overchrges. that still, ma dad likes him. urgh! phfreak man. my mum said i broke down in tha cab. i dun wanna call it a car. its too shameful. cars are nice elegant machines. hmph. im evn scared to drink water. n ma lips were dried as hell. i cried in tha car. n i knew i wasnt maself. my hand n legs were figgitin man. scary eh. thn got there. i wasnt okay. really wasnt. n my mood totally was off. it frightened tha driver! haha. thn sat there fer a while. while ma bro experienced tha hot water. seriously tha scenery was beautiful. bud i was in a foul mood to really get ta experience tha whole thin. blame it on tha driver. lame ass. hah. thn afta that wenta sukawati. i think la. thts tha wholesale place. loadsa stuffs. n ur told to bargain 70% off their sale price. if they dun want. you jus walk awae n find anuther shop. heh. cool rytes. yeah. got tees ard 2 bux. n my mum bought those beach cloths to make into some kurong fer only 10 bux? i think its less thn that uh. thn got sum souveniers n stuffs. blablabla. got back hotel. explored kuta agains.

5th dae .. [wednesdae]

suppose to be home tdae. but last minute extended anuther dae. jus fer relaxation kinds. so in tha morn met ma aunty. she headed there too wit her fren. thn wenta sea sports again. but did not really played much uh. only jet skied wit bro. afta that wenta sum temple on a cliff thingy. scenery again was picture perfect. n tha waves. whoa. extremes. n ppl do go surfin ba tha cliffs there. coolness. i thought of takin up surfin. but i was alone man. sheesh. dey do give lessons. nvm. mayb nxyt time. so afta tha temple cliff thingy its already evenin. so wenta tha sayme seafood place n watched tha sunset. beautiful. i got pix. *smiles* i took. loads of it. heh. thn ate dinner. at tht place. again. bleahs. so at nite wenta hard rock cafe or hotel. which was jus opposite ma hotel. got mahself a hard rock cafe tee n also a teddy. gee. its so cute. how i wish i could buy em all. actually i kinda collect those teddies. heh. some are those beannie ones others are normal teddies. yeay. haha. braided ma hair. hah. shouldve gone fer tha extensions. hmph. thn can get otha colors. mayb brown or pink. heh. n ma bro go do up his hair. it nice uh. n they used glue. supa glue. hah. if u noe those manequins which has colorful spikesy hairstyles, yep, his is like tht. haha. he says it hurts. aniwae both of our hair done costs like 36 bux. ma mum wanna do at some salon n not ba tha streets. heh.

6th dae .. [thursdae]

mornin woke up. tdae was last dae n ma dad wanted to get mie somethin or wat la. so he gave ma mum to hold all tha cash which he n ma bro wenta ma aunts hotel fer a dip. mie n ma mum walked ard. n i got a roxy off shoulder kind. long sleeved! haha. i thought of gettin a wwhole set. evn told ma dad already. but nuthin was nice u c. i wanted to get skirts n pants. but there all were so obit. yep. thought of gettin roxy caps n slippers n wallets n bags. but thn again, they wer ex n not so my kinds. so dint get any. actually i wanted to get him this leather slippers. daym nice n cheap. thought of gettin it mayb fer this comin mondae or sumthin but ma dad was like sayin 'why waste ur money fer sumone else'. but i dint use his name. i used someone else which ma parents knew about. heh. i sorta said tht hed pay back n all. but ma dad was like so irritatin so dint get him tht sandals. i feel so bad. since bfo i went off he said he wanted some sandals or sumthin. sheesh. nvm. get him sumthin else la mayb. see howe things go. so met up ma dad at tha hotel. thn walked ard at tha almost done mall. heh. there i got some half cut long sleeved tee. haha. so got bax to hotel packed n chcked out. flight was at 2000hrs. heh. so b4 that wenta tha wholesale place again. got some las minute suwvenirs. n home stuffs. thn ate at some by tha road stall. which ma dad was so cravin fer. n nowe m sufferin from diarohea [i dunoe howe ta spell!] o craps. so thn said bbyes to ma dads trusted driver. *pukes* n we chcked in ta airport. in there waited fer gate ta open. nuthin intrestin insyde though. thn get in plane. was sufferin from headaches. bleahs. n i felt pukey lar. so wenta tha loo. haha. found sum not used combs toothbrushes n shavers or sumthin. haha. thn touched down bax in ma home country. was i glad. walked ard tha insydes of airport fer a while. thn got a cab n went homies. yeay.

haha. so all in all. i got 7 tees fer maself, 1 jeans, 1 boardshort, suwvenirs or junks. n some hotties, nah~ haha. tha caucasian guys are so daym cute. so are tha chinese indonesian. goshies. cuteness. n those indosian call those white ppl booley. i dunnoe howe u spell it but its pronounced as `boo as in tha song ma boo n `ley/`le haha. try la. n i missed goin online. n not fergetin ma phone which i wasnt allowed to bring. heh. aniwae, ma mum allows mie ta go to wherver place i want wit frens. either this year or next. haha. was thinkin of this year. but was too last minute. so mayb nxt year, afta 0s. get sum guys n gals altogether. get ma budds. all those chinese malay guys n gals. no tchers. no parents. just us. hah! guess thts ma trip all written down. nuthin else much. haha. will update more soon! =D. n i missed you. i really did. haiz. wish u were here by me like those other couples whu were there fer each otha. geee.

geee. i dunnoe. do you? niwaes. im bax! haha. was backs since jus nowe, but, im lazy to update. hee. moro will do. i miss so many ppl so much. heh. dental moro at 8. wonder if i can wake up. hmmm. nvm. byes peeps. funnily, i miss u so much. i dunnoe why.

"Ive finally decided. And made up my mind."

n yes i have. only tha ones i trust noes bout it. n hope u guys will jus keep it shut till tha tyme comes. which i think is ard 20th? yeah. u noe wat. im somewhat feelin happy n kinda lookin foward. but i noe i shud b in a solem moods. awww. haha

so finally. tmr im leavin. n tha nerves of settin ma foot on that plane pretty scares mie. i jus hate tha journey by plane. but i kinda like tha food. yum yums. haha. but its rainin. i jus dun like it wen it rains. =X im scared.

so. uhm. shud i bring along ma phone? i dunnoe. i kinda feel like smsin ppl wen im there. n specially bloggin. heh. but then, id b usin ma prepaid. not bill. uhmm.. i dunnoe la. nvm.. ill b bax soonies.

i will definately miss ma people. hah. i sound like some biggy ppl. but i'll jus miss thm. uhmm. bbyes peeps.

"You're never there. And im startin to think that you never will be. Sucha 'perfect' thin i have here."

uhm. im feelin preettty fumed up, fucked up by tha inhabitants of ma house. more specific, ma room. yes. my room. its ina gawd damn bloody hell mess. imagin uh. my room is already small. n fitted wit loatsa big stuffys. okay, those foldable beds or watever on tha floor, 2 of em. food scraps all over. their clothins, dirrty ones stacked in one corner. n u might think im unhygenic, please. ive tried. but no use. n no peace at all. none! zilch! n ive got like no right to use anythin. helloee. this is MY room. freaks! i totally lost it. just nowe. but hopefuly, theyre gonna b off. tmr. finally! urgh. cannot take anuther dae no more. no wae. never.

so tdae. id slack my butt out of tha chairs in ma dads room. watchin mtv. i nvr liked goin elsewher other thn ma room u see. it got like evrythin. tv - com - phone - books - toys - ps. definately wit com u can get musyc n radio. heh.

so hey. saturdae im leavin. early2 mornin. ard 7. cool. i must get ma happy moods back. i need it back. cause i noe, if nuthins goin well. heh. i'll b cranky n shuttin up. my life. from tha werld. right here. right nowe. urgh.

i hope i wont hafta go thru tuition tmr. reason - no mood. n i wanna g outs la. im cravin fe tha lemon chickens. from magic wok. yum.

And. hopin fer someone to tell mie that i should leave. n not to stay. someone, talk some sense into mie. please! i need em. so bad. i need em to get up n go. n not stay. pls. =(

uh. nytes ppl. miss ma budds alot alot. specialy phat. hmph. miss ya ghurl. heh. urm see u guys ard i guess. bleahs.

"I need Someone. But not You. Next!"

brrr. im cold. freakin kids turnin tha aircon to its lowest temp. crazy freaks. im like an idiot wearin a freakin jacket at home. not soon later im gonna b down wit flu. n later in tha middle of tha nyte they gonna turn on tha fan full blast. wackos.

aniwae, i was outs tdae. wit pri skewl budds. heh. fun lah. as usual. masse giler. haha. lauff2. thn blame mie. sayin, 'nisa giler uh niari'. m i tha cause? *innocent look* haha.

so i was outs ard 1330. dad was ofta werk so took a lift wit him. wenta zus place fer a while. not her place la. actually under her void. heh. i made frens wit tha flies! *smiles* im goin bonkers. bleahs. met her awhile. thn headed ta tm. wenta play wit tha perfumes stuffs. thn met fina. walked awhile. thn they headed ta orchrd or bugis or wherever la.

heh. i was tha ferst ta reach okay. evn asnus not there at 1430. heh. yeayness. n theres this guy, whos doin some part tyme job of donatin, called mie 'kakak' when actually hes way older thn mie. crazy lar. n was beggiin n beggin. ish!

thn asnu came, so did tha rest.thn made our way ta orchard. which i dont evn noe why. we could have gone to sourmeset (is tht how u spelled it) but noooo! he still wanna go there. *rolls eyes* on wae there saw danial zul n this sec 5 gal. cant really remember her name. lol. saw sofia too! n her fren, uhm atiqah eh? hehe. thn reached orchrd, met up wit azri n his red-colored haired fren. heh. made our way to lido.

out of all tha place, we wenta lido! craps la that place. very tha uncomfy, even if couples were to go, its so not tha place! thought sie azri n red-colored-haired guy watchin also, budden that guy like so much free tyme, n seem like sucha good fren jus went there to meet asnu. haha. n o yarh. before that at orchard got ppl doin part time job fer some modellin agency approached us. haha. i got tha card wit mie. *evil look* kakaka. o craps. futre nxyt top model. *pukes* haha. dream on!

thn watched without a paddle there. its an almost-funny showe. very tha dirty showe i mite sae. lolx. but cannot kinda concentrate cus of rockin chairs n sittin unda aircon. cold. shivers. solid stoners. haha. wad m i talkin? crap crap. thn afta that had dinner at magic wok. all expense paid by nurshairah abdul rahim. kakaka. mayb i'll pay her up. soon. haha. thn wenta heeren, go get her cds. thn headed backs ta tamps. tha bus was freakin long. i got tha bus like ard 10? heh.

i was so turnin emo-shit in tha bus. urgh. evrythin its him. him. him. why? ur not mine nimore. why must it be you?! heh. thn saw sofs fren. talked fer a while. sweet gal. really frenly n cheerful. yups. n i jus remembered! i cant make it fer their performance this sundae! i'll be away! at bali! haha.

n o yar. hes no use. no use at all. jus anuther fling. i think. o nvm. guess thats it lar. n i miss that dude alot alot. pls come home a.s.a.p aytes. tatas peeps. =)

Taken tdae. Mie Zu Rai Fyn. Nyce huh? Lolx. 

"Waitin, waitin, patiently waitin. For you to strt."

i feel tired, sleepy. yawns! was almost outs tha whole dae. uhm. went outties wit fina zu n rai. but rai was wit us till only 3. thn walked ard wit zu n fyna. haha. till ard 6 plus. wenta lib. borrowed a book. i dunnoe why i did so either. haha. so thats it uh. nuthin much kinda borin ryte. it is la. niwaes. moro headin outs wit p.skewl cliques. heh. yeayness. later ill upload tha neoprints we took. its nyce.. smiles. tatas poeple!

"We both noe its wrong, but its much too strong to let it go now. Cause hes got hes own obligations, and so do i."

i miss 'ma' dudey alots. a whole lots. heh. n its only a dae. lolx. nvm. dream more. dream. n i guess tdaes ma lucky dae. heh. i got an mp3 player. yeay? hah. happy2. n then i got his msges. thn i got tuition. but was kinda okay. thn ma bros not at home, parents bein ever so nyce. heh. this is great.

n tha weathers is ever so chilly. someone hug mie? keep mie warm please? lolx. ma dad wanna chnge ta mp3 cus it has scratches. n n n i can use it ba moro. so it means, i getta use it by wed! i dunnoe thurs wanna tag anots. kinda lazy. i wanna fast. heh. im so goodish. o crap.

n o yar. heard taufiks i dream tha recorded one. on 98.7. not kinda nyce. his voice kinda sucky lar. actually he sings betta live thn recorded. actuallie, hes not that great lar. try listenin to his songs i uploaded. some his voice is like thru his nose. blaehs. eh, this are facts. aniwae. his burfdae is this fridae people! heh. catch him on suria i guess.

thts it. nuthin muchie. moro meetin zu, wanna mrayaps n i wanna look fer nice long sleeve tees. anione noes wher? lolx. nytes guys.

ALL OF TAUFIKS PERFORMANCES OF THA SONGS ARE UP AND RUNNIN! ENJOY PEOPLE! N PLEASE DO TAG N COMMENTS.

-courtesy of Sparklette.

"Its not worth it, isnt it? Heh."

Thought of updatin yesterdae, but, i was kinda lazy. N was doin quite alot of stuffs in this one point in tyme. Multi-taskin people. So, i dint bother much. Heh. im sleepy. yawns. woke up ard 10,11? by a call. bleahs. aniwae, to anione of my frens readin this. please dont ring up my house phone. unless its really really extremely important n u cant get thru my hp. i jus hate usin house phones. so, hope u guys dont mind.

I think its rainin. Its so misty outside. heh. cool weather. kinda refreshin. n tha perfect weather to snooze. yea. but i dun think i can. ive got tuition. =X aww. hate that man! 2 full hours. all about amaths. someone save mie. but i dun think shes comin. no replies. heh.

uhmm. so lets get updated bout yest. uhm. mum woke mie up at 11. n evryone was rushin cause theres noone to send tha groom. so got there ard 12. kinda empty la. ate. yummy food. not briyanis but nasi ambeng isit? heh. i myself dunnoe. tha prawns were huge n scrumptious. hee. thn afta eatin, talked awhile. thn ppl strted to come. heh. n while i was takin water fer myself, i saw someone. 'dekni muker familiar aje. eh its fatimah!' haha. its her alryte. she was ever so bubbly that dae. wat ya doin there anywae? hah. n tha ferst thingy afta we saw each other she said 'eh abng, nisa!' btol punyer citot tau. heh. so got backs n sat wit ma bro. he was bored, so we wenta afghan ther, i mean tha shops all. i wenta get ma hp strp. some common cheap2 ones la. n my bro wanted to get waffle. so acc. him la. got back to tha place. kinda packed already. so then my dad n bro wenta ta fetch my grandma n cousins. i stayed there n helped out. so goodie of mie. trust mie, its ma ferst time. heh. waited fer tht huda so long. but luckily aisya was there. haha. at least theres someone.

thn while waitin fer huds, wenta accompany tha twins n tha amie's kidss to shoppe. i haf my reasons to followe. =) i was like lookin afta them haha. mommy. haha. freak la. its an insyde thin.so thn got back n bro reached so did huda i guess. guess cuttin ma hair did do mie some good. heh. thn helped ard. slacked ard. talked. 'cuci mate' even though there no cute guys on air. haha. jus got ta see tha whole pic of malay customs n all. blablabla. thn tha thingy finished ard 6. before tht had dinner. i think. hhaha. evryone was like huntin fer tha prawnies.

so thn got home. bathed prayed n all stuffs la. thn remembered i got tuition hw. urgh. so fer once i did it. afta tht followed ma folks to sent ma aunty to tha railwae station. i hate her one kid. seriously i do. i h-a-t-e. sucha jackass. n only bein in pri 2 or 3. heh. i dunno.

yest, finally had a chat wit him. on phone. but was conferenced. as usual la. but it was fun n full of craps. n full of 'abg hatta' at ferst. wat crap la. talked till ard 2. thn i snoozed. n i had a fantastic dream. whheee. n i'll b off this sat early morn. hope can catch him online befo that. misses people. misses.

i wanna go outs moro. uhm. wit ma sec skewl ppl la. n i wonder wher zu has gone to. n should i keep it to myself n not tell her bout her n him which i thinnk has got somethin goin on , or somethin so it eases her burden of waitin or somethin. i dunnoe heh.

n wednesdae, out fer movie. heh. thn thurs? dunooe, fri? that dude finishes camp. haha. fetch? i'll think bout it. like u said. "its not worth it, isnt it?" yep. its not wen im not her. n sat. im offta tha land of surfs! haha. i wanna take up surfin at bali! hope i can! wheepee! tatas peeps. =)

"I dun expect this story, MY story, to end well. At all."

tha incredibles was great! haha. fun fun showe. itd b betta if we'd got betta seats or mayb he could tag along. heh. aniwae, went there wit ma bro. i know my dad is not intrested in watchin, so i did tha pleasure or goin wif ma bro. heh. all expenses paid. *smiles* mayb i shall have more nyte movies wit bro. provided tha expenses are paid. heh.

So... hmmm. wat more shud i update about? tha movies done. o yar, tdae. so my cussies from m'sia came again. *faint* n Nitemare on Nisa's Street gonna start soon afta their mums go back n dey bunkin in ma crib. *screams* heh. n i heard that my uncs gonna get mie sum ipod. heh. he asked ma bro what i want n my bro showed tha apple ipod! haha. goodies. mayb thats ma christmasie pressie. *prays*

Niwae, i hope moro i can see him. heh. then can stare all tha tyme in tha werld. n drown in tha name of 'love'. FRIENDS kinda love. since im gonna b ard hes area. my cussies gettin married at ngee ann there. i hope i wont hafta do any 'rewang-in' in otha werds help out wit tha weddin. i jus wanna chill. Its a sundae man. n imagine i gotta wake up as early as 9? *faints!!* gosh gosh. but but i wanna jus hang ard. like old tymes. hee. but im gonna b off nxyt week. surely gonna miss tha presence of crappiness since he'll b offta camps n thn im off on hols. *sobsobs*

n o yesh o yesh! i saw a shootin star! whippee! ferst time. its nyce n its a beaut. so i made a wish! hehe. cant tell ya what i wished fer! hope it comes twue! =X heh.
hey! i do believe in this sorta stuffs, sometimes. mayb u could add a lil of horoscopes n stuffs. its jus intrestin.

n i think i got ma new years resolution ready up in ma head. hope i dun ferget any of it. cus i wont ryte it till tha eve of new years. or if im allowed outs on that nytes wit anione, thn im gonna ryte it before that dae! heh!

so guess thats it! incredibles is NOT, i repeat NOT a crap story okay? u jus gotta find ur kiddy side of you if u really wanna enjoy tha showe. yeay! niwae see u guys ard. i hope. n i miss him, you, mie, her, them, they etc. haha. im crappin. nytes! too-raa!

"Cho-ko-la-tey` In-dul-gence"

*screams!* someone stop mie from consumin`indulgin maself in food! mainly chocolates! someone control mie! help! n ive been bloghoppin. that person still got tyme ta walk ard! cant stand it cant stand it! help help help! tha one person i need ryte nowe sure wud haf no mood to chat. blahs! n i found out sum goods. heh. sumthins revealed even witout mie askin. i need help!

"Aint No Sunshine When Hes Gone"

i got taufiks aint no sunshine. whoopeedooo! i'll b uploadin other songs once i got his version of 'i dream' yeay! haha. tha ones at i web music or i web tunes aint nyce. blueks. haha.

n im gettin fatter. no doubt bout that. seriously. really gotta shed some pounds. haha. n i cut cut cut off ma hair. haha. i jus have tha urge to cut it off jus nowe. its layered shoulder lengthys. but not like last time. hehe. yeay!

moro im gonna haf tuition. *faints* im lazy. i want ma sleep. since just nowe i woke up at three. haha. 3pm! 1500hrs! haha. nah. its a one tyme thin. wont do it again. i pwomise. heh. n afta tht gotta haf my cousins nikah or sumthin, sudae wud b tha weddin. lolx.

aniwae, nuthin much tdae. borin dae as usual. im bored. really am. sob sob. n im missin evryone.

gosh. i just need tyme to b wit someone. wit tht someone. but hey, hes gonna be workin i think. nvm. its okay. haha. no worries. thts it ppl. love u guys much much. tatas.

"A day not like any other. Heh."

im tired. u tired? im dead beat. uh huh. but hey! got a quite okay day tdae. actually its kinda fun. haha. n my mum let mie outs till nyte. more cool. haha. wonder why theres no oc tonyte. hmmm.

so tdae, i woke up extra early. not sae its those early realy early la. ard 7 to 8 liddat? haha. guess my prev entry did sae som stuffs. n i was daym bored n played ard wit those old fashion curlers? haha. did ma whole hair anyhowe n all of it was in a mess! haha. n my bro was like lauffin n sayin. ' kakak! jgn mrepek la! *lauffs continuesly* cepat la! g straight kan balik!' in english it means he wants mie to stop crappin n start straightenin ryte awae. haha. sucha concern-fer-my-looks brudder i have. *awww* im touched.

haha. so aniwae straighten ma hair. not tht straight la. my hair will nvr be. tha only time it'll be 'tame' is when i really do have tha urge to snip it off. kakaka. guess its ma hormones. bleahs. so thn got chnged. watched tv. played com. blasted music. haha. seems to b ma fav stuff to do these few daes.

aniwae. was suppose to meet tha p.skewl peeps at 1300hrs. but i was still at home durin tht hour. huda shai n all were not even outs yet. n was meetin aizat to get his bdae prezzie. =X
haha. so went out of house ard 1315 liddat. took bus ta 201 mac. over ther saw aizat, tul, fir, suf, some unknown guy, aisyahb, zaf n i ferget the other. haha. aizat was like wearin some white singlety stuff. haha. o nvm.

so gotta int. saw tha bunch im suppose to meet. haha. told thm gotta get some stuffs n will b bax shortly afta. haha. so followed aizat ta tm. got him tha shin pads he wanted. lolx. chck out his blog. bleahs. but nvm. not alwaes i get ppl pressies. i made him go thru hell i guess. haha. so jus doin a favor back in return. *smiles*

thn walked back ta interchnge. saw asnu sumer. though huda sumer da sampai. thn he sae blom so asked aizat ta accompany mie while waitin fer the others. haha. thnkies. thn masse came, so did huda n shai. lol. so wenta tm. all were there i guess. there were... mie huda shai masse faj saadah asnu azri ryan hazwan. thts all. i tink. lolx. thn mie n mas was extremely bored. haha. we were restless. so while all of em were eatin or sumthin we walked ard. thn watched movie shutter. before that saw my bro! haha. he was at tm. lolx. n also hasli. was passin him tha cd.

afta tha showe headed ta interchnge. dinnoe wher ta go ta. so waited fer asnu to get stuffs from fajs place n while waitin i saw qs,syaheed, murdani, hanisah, farhanah, rashidah, amalina, saiful n not fergettin ivor! *smiles a biggy smile* haha. i saw him! yeayness. finally. haha. too bad he was wastin hes tyme lookin at tha bloody mag stall n not lookin my way! hmph! wads so intrestin bout tht stall niwae?! haha.

so thn headed ta orchrd n by tht tyme it was already 1930? hah. asnu wanted to meet azri there. so met him there. he n his frens. wenta far east. they were eatin. so dcided to haf dinner ther also la. had dinner. food = no good = pukin business. heh. i dunnoe if its tha food or isit mie. ive been pukin afta meals lately. n leavin my throatie sore cus not use to it.

thn walked ard. by then its nearly 2100 hrs. n i think when we walked tha shop fer surf stuffs are kinda closed already. so thn jus headed home. reached tamp. thought he was still ard. but then too late. awww. fate n luck wasnt wit mie tdae. heh.

so took bus, got home. did loadsa thinkin in tha bus since i was sittin alone at the last seat. loads of thinkin. wish i had a tape recorder in ma head. cause i do talk some sense insyde but nvr did use it or take it ta consideration.

aniwae thats it la. to sume it up. .

i miss my guy, badly.

i miss tha presence of my gurlfriends.

i miss ivor n his crappiness & frantiq antiques. 'live' in person. heh. i noe he noes. *winks*

it was nyce gettin ppl presents [if u really ask mie ta get one].

azris a hunk. as usual. no doubt abt it. heh. no crushes or grudges though. i hope. heh.

asnus crap.

all in all,ive found frens i nvr thought id b close with. jus happy wit wat i have nowe. i think.

i miss huever i wrote above alot alot. *smiles*

"TAUFIK!"

taufik won! whohooo! haha. yipees!! why am i up at this hour? this is so not mie. haha. nowe watchin primetime mornin? haha. taufik n sly are there! haha. n jac, tha malaysian idol, is gonna b there also! haha. she sings so daym well. not fergettin our local talent also. heh. i wonder if anyone recorded tha song yest. i want tha mie n mrs jones song. heh. n also tha one sang by dick lee! haha. i was screamin when taufik won! haha. i bet the others are also. *smiles* hope hes cd will b out soon. he sings daym bloody hell good! *melts* haha. i wish i was there.

okay so, yest did nuthin much. cant sleep tha whole nyte! i was tryin so hard but cant. bleahs. n im so sufferin from mood swings. haha. i like! =) n n n serves those sly fans wrong! waste thier money on no talent! hahaha! n he is like so blur?! blur like sotoong. hahaks. no offence to his fans yar? haha.

tdae headin outs. yeay! haha. gonna get tht dude his pressie n hangin out wit p.skewl budds. my mum dunnoe im gonna b outs till nyte. but wadda heck. i'll jus sae im wit thm n pray tht evrythins gonna b okay. haha. hope he comes. [to huever it is readin this, its not azri ah. lolx.]

tats it people! love u guys so so much! n taufik! our SINGAPORE IDOL!!! kakaka.

"Hearts gone astray deep in hurt when they go. Need you by my side. You to be my pride."

im feelin undecided. undecided cause i dunnoe which way im suppose to tipppp n also undecided whether i can ring him up at this hour. Seriously missin somthin so badly. i need heelllppp! aniwae, people. those of you readin my blog. No worries. im okay. dun hafta spare ur sympathys. seriously. =)

ive been quiet ever since i set out wit my pham. they thought i was sad, real sad cause i dint get ta head ta tha finals. actually im not. im jus too dead beat. too sleepy. i need sleep. i need my blankies. i need my teddies. n i need sweet dreams. of mie. of you. heh.

i dunnoe if tha 'us' before is still there. n mayb lingerin in our minds. is bein mean to each other ways to get us closer n mayb gettin n havin chances of us gettin back? i wish so. but we're so away. n im so afraid of history repeatin itself. again, insecurities & questions. answer them? for mie? pls? *begs*

n my frens said not ta give up. hang in there. ummm. should i? evry day which passes by makes mie feel worse than before. why must it be mie? why cant you? make the effort. take tha inniative? heh. again, im undecided. bleahs. i hate this. i hate mie. i hate you. o definately. just cant wait to get out n b meetin someone new. cant take it anymore. do i sound desperate? heh. what can i do. i dont get tha love im needin. cant blame mie can you? k i'll stop.

so tdae. went outs meet zu, took books, meet impx. looked at photo album. my face? kinda okay. fer once. i hope tha 'as told by fyna' part would b over. thn headed home. went outs again n gained anuther few pounds. n got 20 bucks. hah.

uploaded some new songs. love jamie cullum everlastin love. listen aytes? totaly relatin to one of ma exs. thn theres jamelia stop. totally about mie n him. =X yeah. guess thts it tdae. no lyfe lesson learnt tdae huh? lolx. niwae,
i miss ya bad. huever it is. nytes. =)