"Cause nowe, Its only YOU that matters to me."

dint noe ppl do take my entries into consideration. heh. i feel like tearin. heh. on one syde. im wantin somethin like wat states from tha song 'everlastin love' but im also listenin to jamelia 'stop'. wow. o my god!

i feel like walkin awae. walkin awae from you. im jus not doin any good bein here. i feel like it. y must i wait long hours, long days, months. jus to get a feelin which would only last less thn an hour? heh. why am i puttin maself thru this? i think its better if you'd concentrate on one rather thn 2. n id gladly leave if tht eases ur burden. n make her a much happier person as there aint gonna b any competition or watsoever. n makes mie a more free n live in singleton hood. n for you. to only concentrate on one? o yea. i fell like it.

im missin out on so much. im hangin on too much. too much on memories. i noe its mie who is tryin hard. n you. ur not even makin of an effort. to take notice. or anythin. yea. if u do have so much tyme fer ur cliques. n not spare some tyme to b wit your gurl wads tha whole point ryte?

mayb guys shud get this in their thick thick head of thiers. Gurls are emotional. no matter howe strong they seem to be on the outside. seriously. they will break down. n im not sayin its mie. n im not sayin its not only mie. heh.

givin up? yea. guess so. watever happens happens la! i dun care ryte nowe. its like im really friggin wastin my tyme. heh. i haf jus so much to sae insyde. but cant seem to let it out anywher. i want someone simple, cares, boy-next-door. to noe hes alwaes needin mie. n he noes im needin him. tyme will come. tha tyme will come. *screams!* im really hatin this feelin ryte nowe. so many heartbreaks. in such lil tyme. so many tears fall. for someone who is merely even there. o craps. i need someone! please!

Check out tha makeup. tha darkness. urgh. someone teach mie howe. puhlease? 

"When ppl dig up tha past, sayin its perfect. There must b somethin wrong wit their present."

whut should i ryte tdae. ummm. dunnoe. lolx. i jus feel high? or happy tdae. haha. n dont ask mie why. but on the other hand. i fell unknown. haha. is there sucha thin? lolx. its great seein my frens tdae. theres massys sis weddin n also zus sis weddin. which i spent almost tha whole afternoon there. heh. fun la. hanged out. for once. yep. *smiles*

yea. so i guess sittin my ass in this chair did do mie some good. heh. hello nisa! wake up. hahaha. im bored. u bored? im bored. dead bored. heh.

n i think i got ma whole week planned outs. haha. mondae, which is tmr, i gotta folloe ma bro to acs. hes most probby goin to tht skewl, n takin up rugby. so not fair ryte?! if i dont followe, thn i wont getta get a mp3 player? haha. my dad wanna get mie a small player. lolx. cool. thn tuesdae i got tuition. sobsob. but nvm. jus one n half hours. no harm. haha. wednesdae. im so sittin my butt at homies if i dun get tha tix! hahakx! im so watchin Singapore Idol! Taufik! kakaka.if sly win. im so like gonna diss evrythin bout him n his friggin fan-fare so-ever-huge- ahbengys n ahlianies of supporters. heh. trust mie. thn thurs. watchin movie! haha. thn pri. uhm. dunnoe. chill at home? hahakx. thn sat n sun, shais bro gettin mariied. so gotta help outs n stuffs. kakaka.

bleahs. i feel like meetin him. wads tha point in bein somthin wen u dont evn meet up? hang outs? heh. i myself dunnoe. jus miss him. *awwww* lolx. why m i gettin mushy? shits! haha. o nvm. will elaborate more moro or somthin la. k k? tatas. =)

"Its not reality, but merely an illusion of dreams."

hmmm. howe do i describe what im feelin nowe. uhm. cant sae its totally great. cant sae im totally down. heh. but im sumwhat so-so? i dunnoe if im missin alot on lyfe. cus ive been sittin my ass at homiies, doin basically nuthin. yep nuthin. watchin tha sayme movies over n over. n insomnia is stricking mie again. n again. evrynyte. bleahs. but nvm. funny thing is. i dun feel tired wen i haf late nytes. n i mean, really late.

so what im thinkin ryte nowe is what i have n am puttin myself thru fer tha past months, or days, or hours. i dunnoe what im doin. seriously. whyd in tha ferst place did i try to think tht somethin, mayb sparks could happen. heh. im gonna really try to be frank n open in this blog. thats y classify this as a public blog. its my blog. n my problem if i wanna diss some bitch or some ass i see on tha streets or mayb tha person opposite tha computer screen. but one thing im jus gonna ask fer those readers of ma blog to keep it to oneself n not spread ard. cause then, i'll be really shuttin my self away from you.

so back to tha sparks. uhm. again, what was i thinkin?! definately there was somthin back then. but nowe? heh. mayb. i still haf. still haf tha feelins of makin maself jus fall. but not fer eternity. but only at tht moment. guess i was caught in tha moment. im just, just tryin to accept what is laid down fer mie to do. n if it was nvr meant to, thn its not. seriously. im not that sorta gurl whod cry overnytes fer weeks over a breakup. mayb i used to. but hey! theres alwaes sumone else out there. hopefuly someone better. we're always asked to experience new grounds. new people. new evrythin. i think, theres gonna be somthin. n mayb, things will b as its suppose to be. n happyness n love will b at there wit mie. but on the other hand. it couldnt, if fate is bein mean. like again.

mayb im too 'nice'. too nice to people whom im not close wit. n jus help thm wit evrythin. seriously. n to let mie b played by two fer two tymes? two tymes? if u get wht i mean. if u dont thn its not ma bad. i shouldve known but this tyme it seems different. it jus seemed to be. n it felt so. heh. watever it is. i noe fer this one. im not gonna b tha ferst one to be askin fer tha 'breakup' heh. jus dun wanna do tht. i feel tht watever goes ard, will come ard n haunt me back soon enuff. yea. thts ma belief. went thru it a couple of tymes already.

jus tht. i dunnoe wat im goin thru ryte nowe. i need reassurance from you. where im standin if u get what i mean. dun think u're gonna read this but hey! what tha heck ryte. time will heal all wounds i guess. n i hope tht absence wont make my heart grow fonder till tha ryte tyme comes around fer mie. heh.

"Just the sight of you throws my heart ashore and the joy you bring opens up my door."

heh. funny pic ryte? i noe. bad choice. shouldve chosen a more 'glamorous' pic. lolx. too bad i aint a photogenic gurl in front of tha camm. =X. aniwae. thts ma lil cuzzy wuzzy. cute aint she. lolx. n i look so huge. kakaka.

uploaded this song. tha one playin is tha one sang ba taufik batisah. heh. but i got tha original one uploaded one too. jus click tha boxes lar. lolx. im so lovin tha song. especially tha lyrics. i can like totally relate to it. specially this part ::

My love, needs to bloom

Like a flower a process unencumbered

That want, should i feel

When that trail i've truly discovered

lolx. yup tht one. wonder whu'll be there. be tha one to see ma love bloom for that one special person. *smiles*. im still lookin n waitin fer love. Cant sae im in love even if im attached. im still YET to fall. fall in love with tha very ryte person. m i gettin mushy? o gosh. haha. jus that this song makes mie do so. cant blame mie can u? aniwae, its ma blog. so its ma problemo. =P

im still lookin fer tix to tha finals. umm NJ, please contact mie if ur gettin tha tix! pls pls pls! cus phat, i tink got it ready. i wannt it! so badly! so contact mie a.s.a.p! heh.

Tha graduatin peeps are havin their g.p nowe. so fun. lolx. hope he has fun. n also otha peeps i noe. im so gonna miss you guys! tha atmosphere is so gonna be different nxyt year. blahs. n fina is there! not fair! haha. i cant wait fer my gp. haha!

guess thts just out it. nuthin muchies. lolc. i jus feel, light - hearted. dunnoe why. n like mai said i prefer to keep my lyfe to myself. my ownself. if anyone found out. its not my prob. its jus tht in my road of life, at this point of tyme, people get to noe, people found out, people diss bout you, n all tht stuffs. blablabla. i can do nuthin to chnge it. its mie. n im tryin to accept tht fact. tht its jus part n parcel of lyfe. good things gonna come ard soon. *smiles* n i broke ma record tdae. i woke up at three! lolx. n fer tht i got a scoldin from ma dad. heh. lyfe.

so thts it peeps. miss you guys. seriously i do. nytes. =)

"Where do all tha wishes n dreams go to if they dont come true?"

azris cute. yep. he is. dinnoe he used to b from gps. totally unknown fella to mie. nvr seen him before either. lolx. but hey. cute-ness. should've tagged yest. haha. o nvm. were hangin out again this wednesdae. i hope its on. n i hope he comes. haha. =X im so like dead sayin this out loud. haha.

so tdae. lets talk bout todae. supposedly to go outs jalanin rayer wit umairah n gang. but i was too tired. n sleepy. so called impx up n we decided not to heads out. at ferst i felt like chillin at homies. but then tha p. skewl peeps wanted to come to ma house n fetched mie. haha. so i decided to tag wit em la. there was ard 12 peeps liddat. but as tyme flies by. it got smaller. there were mie, mass, huda, shairah, fajriena, syazana, asnurizan, khairul, anas, hazwan, fazly, ryan, n azri! haha. yep thts all. but wen we wenta punggol to ryans n faz's house there were only mie huda shairah masse asnu azri anas ryan faz hazwan. thts all. lol.so i jus tagged along wit em. n hamzah is totally scarin mie. even tho it was nuthin. its jus, scary. lolx. walked ard till like 11 plus. reached home at 12. opps. blahs.

i just found out somethin bout mie. i think alot alot. alot bout stuffs. i spaced in a daze bout so many tymes jus nowe. thinkin. thinkin bout stuffs tht happened, n mayb gonna happen n people. n loads more. i jus think to myself. about life, love, him, frens n more. heh.

n i dun get it. my parents went thru my bag. gawd noes where else they searched. in search of my report book. jus bcus my bro got his results back n im not at home. does tht mean they get tha permission to go thru ma stuffs! gawd damnit man! like wtf?! n ever since my bro scored like 234 fer his psle, n ma otha cussins 22+ n 25+ fer their psle results. my mum was like hoggin on com lookin fer psle results? i was like. 'helo! its over. aint tha results satisfyin eenuff fer you?!' but i dint sae tht la. i was syin tht to maself. urgh! theyre jus craps uh. im so hatin this place ryte nowe! n to imagine i have alot of scattered diaries evrywhere in ma room. but hidden. freak la oi! FREAKAZOIDS!!!! i hate this i hate this i hate this!!

aniwae, tryin to cool down here. uhm. thts it i guess. nuthin much uh. feel like watchin movie wit anyone. preferrebly shutter? hah. n i cant wait fer nxt week wit ma frens. mayb if tht guy comes. it'll b betta. haha. howe i wish! lolx. im so like sayin this in open. hah. uhm aniwae, to him, if ur readin his. dont worry. its jus mie drownin myself in dreams n wishes thts nvr ever gonna come true. its jus ma dreamwerld. *smiles* tatas peeps.

"You make me go speechless.[in a good way] Dots"

ola people! kakaka. reached home ard 1115 pm liddat. lol. tdae was such an UnPlanned dae haha. but it was kinda okay lar. lolx. met so many many peeps at interchge. fer eg, saw nj n gang. my pri skewl cliques. n more la. haha. so among tha gurls, i was tha ferst to arrive. reached there saw aizat, kamil, tul, dan, suf (which i dint expect he wud b comin along), n fir [da cacing2 hairsytle one]. haha. ferst house uma rai thn all undecided wher to head nxyt. cus of tht we wasted a whole bunch of tyme. haha. but okay2 la. thn wenta aizats house. gawd dammit. his house is like so spacious man! haha. like fun to slack liddat. haha. thn walk2 la. thn tha guys went their own ways n it was left only tha gurls. *smiles* thn wenta fyns place, thn mine, thn impx, thn aisha. thought of headin to joes place but he dint answer. dun wanna elaborate on whut happened at impx place. n guys, ive had enuff of "As Told By Fyna" haha. they'll get waht i mean. haha.

so afta that we wenta interchnge. bumped into rafie! wheee. talked awhile. he was gettin gp stuffs. he was wit medee n karim i think. thn we wenta coffeebean. supposedly to slack n gossip uh. but then he joined us. yeays. but fer a while onlu. thn they went off. which shortly afta we went off too. lolx. but i was feelin kinda pukey n an eye sored cus i dint wash ma hands afta playin wit a cat. hah. i thought he was goin home. but i saw him taggin along behind n thn he said he wanted to send me homme. hee. sweeet! he seemed to have made my dae. =D *lotsa love!* haha.

nowe watchin - 30 Hari Mari Bercinta - so many lagu sheila on 7!!!!! im so lovin itt!! haha. it reminds me of him each tyme. haha. umm guess thts it. i dunnoe whut elsa to updatey. lolx. n moro i dunnoe to tag wit pri skewl cliques or sec skewl. both, im not so close with. =X i think last resort, i wont go. lazy! n feelin sick. k lah. nytes! whee!!!

"First cut is really tha deepest"

uhh. got back like ard 1130 p.m. yep thts late aint it. n seriously talkin. im in no mood to b in those cheerful2 mood cus i am really fucked up bout somthin. tell more later. so ard 11 peeps went tdae. it was, mie, 2 hudas, masse, sofia, hafiz, asif, farhan, hamzah, barie n fuad. suppose to b more but last minute cant. so we took like each house raftly ard an hour? yep yep. ferst wenta sofs house. as usual. thn wenta cikgu jus, followed by otha tchers. blablabla. walked ard till like 11 plus so thn all went off their own ways. walked home wit hafiz n hamzah. n as hafiz puts it, " im a gentleman, so i send u home" haha. raftly thts at he said. so thts it la. okay uh. fun dae with primary skewl frens. lotsa laughters shared. n photos taken. *smiles*

so, back ta tha fucked up thingy. i need help. advises mostly. seriously i do. uhh. i dunnoe wadta sae to him. i hope u really do get over her. cus i do. n i want. n that gurl i guess did n left a pretty good dent in your lyfe huh?! gawd damnit! guess quite alot. blahs. i dnnoe la. craps. craps. craps. i jus wish i could turn back tyme. back before i was even in this bloody skewl. heh. o gosh.

so u peeps finished 0s. wow, fun. ultimate fun comin huh? blahblah. nxt year its ma turn. o shits. im sleep deprived. i need sleep. *yawns*

n wait. before i forget. waddya guys think of tha new skin?! haha. nyce? kakaka. comments on taggy yar? tata. tnkies.

i hope tha 'insomnia' dont strike again. im so needin sleep! im deprivin on sleep! haha. howe i wish i could be stayin up late, revisin fer exams. haha. but wen exams come ard. i jus cant seem to. latest 10 oclock. later thn that. nuthin will absorb. kakaka. i want to sleep. but cant. why o why. haha. guess tha excitement fer moros n tues n wed dae out is takin its toll on mie. haha. o cwaps. wonder what his doin now.... =)

"But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. I'll be with you as long as u want mie to."

im full. uhh. so full. daym full. hope i dun gain any more extra pounds. haha. okay okay. so tdae was a very very sleepy dae. trust mie. haha. i wasnt awake till like 2. yep. 2. cool. =P

haha. so afta tht hogged on com. saw sum nyce template. whee~ gonna edit tht n take only tha pics. lolx. and afta tht sent ma cussys to tha airport. shes so cute. evrytime she sees mie. she'll go runnin towards my way. thn hug mie ever so tite. thn takes ma hand n kisses it. haha. cute ryte? =)

thn got back home got chnged. waited fer ma aunty to come to my house, thn headed outs again. to ma uncles from ma fathers syde. went to 2 houses. thn afta tht wenta hudas house. lolx. at talked. blablabla. haha. n saw this tabby cat. so fat so chubby so huggable! argh! tak le angkat ah! cute-ness mann! i want a fat lazy cat puhlease! kakaka.

uhh. he asked bout ma nick. which is tha phrase above. uhh. its bout him. so should one feel inferior wen the otha says like tht? umm. i dunnoe. o nvm. guess thts it la. moro headin outs! whipee! haha. tatas peeps. c u guys ard!

"Isnt she lovely in this game of love."

my eyes itchin. lolx. itchy twitchy. o craps. nuthin on tv. jus got back from ma cousins house. ther seemed to be sum phamily feud. but hey. i jus listen. to get ma mums heart feelin contented. lolx. so i managed to get ta punggol safely. muahaha. thers this uncle in tha bus who sat bside n he fell asleep! gosh! i hate tht sorta ppl man! lolx. im bored. u bored? im bored. haha. n i wanna go out with him. i wanna have tha late nyte convos again. actually hes only a phonecall awae but. but. its 12. haha. o cwaps. im so gonna get scoldin like again tmr. fer wakin up at 1. is tht late? uhh. fer mie its not. haha. n guess wat! im a 50 kilo gurl nowe! yikes! *screams* i guess i gained like 3 kg?! o gosh. im so gotta slim down. 50 i way too muchie fer mie. haha. gotta stae below tht. haha. am i paranoid?! hahaha. im so, so, weight consious. haha. guess i'll stop blabberin nowe. haha. tatas. nytes. mish ya!

"One more time for old time sake."

im so like, dead? haha. im so gonna die man. what shud i sae to ma mum. 'errr, movies canceled.' or shud i sae, ' movies strts at 18. finished 1930' haha. i dunnoe la. o craps. when will b tha nxt tyme ur free dude? 2 mnths down alredy. lolx. i noe im part of tha blame. hahaks. n howe do i get to punggol? errr. anyone noe? haha. dead dead. spooksville. im so feelin high. mayb cause he remembered?! whee~ o nvm. ill stop nowe. haha. c u guys ard. whee!! i miss ma frens! cant wait fer tha jalanin rayer. evn though i noe its gonna b pretty lame. wit only a few peeps. (-_-") hahakx. but hey! mondae goin wit pri skewl budds, tuesdae current buds, wednesdae.. im torn btw pri skewl n sec skewl. ur. which one? haha. k lah c u guys ard!

"You'll jus never know. To find it all until tomorrow. Todae make it last forever. Forever and alwaes."

im havin stomach achy nowe. uhhh. serves mie right fer consumin spicy food at nyte. k. its betta nowe. lolx. listenin to 702 - You'll Just Never Know. makes mie think of him. it kinda scares mie. howe he takes such a whole lot of space in ma mynd nowadays wen i got anuther person to think bout. yep. shit ryte. im jus.. jus.. i dunnoe! im so gonna die if he reads this! tha song! im sinkin into n ocean full of nuthin. im so emo this few daes. urgh. n howe much more perfect can tha picture be? wit this rainy kinda season. ouh gosh! someone get mie out of this!! urgh! i guess i'll put this song up soon.

heya ppl! lol. jus came back from jalanin/roundin ard tm with impx. haha. ppl go ard jalan rayer we go ard visitin shops from tm. haha. o craps. lol. she got her top-up card n i wenta get ma hairband n sum otha stuffys. dint bump in to anie one much. sobsob. haha. jus read n.j 's blog. i guess, wat shes goin thru i somewhat like mie. yep. we're in tha same boat! yep yep.

so i really dunnoe wadta do nowe. heh. i miss ya. sobsob. =) wher shud i go? what to do? any recommendations? boreds. n i wanna watch movies. anyone wanna tag? haha. i sound so like, desperate? haha. o nvm. catch u guys up sum other tymes. tatas.

Note to sumone:: you dont have to gimme qs marks wen i said hie. jus a chat wont die. even if ur busy, u can jus sae so. things got back ta normal wit u n ur gurl i guess. so nowe ur ignorin mie? heh. gosh. people. ur daym wierd man. back up, as alwaes.

im in those low, sillish kinda syndrome again. cant sae much though. n im so outta breath. asthma? umm. hope not. im really disappointed. though i noe this is comin ard. but dint like expect it to happen. again and again. dont u ever learn? i think not. aniwae, taufiks so daym hot jus nowe. o0o. sizzlin! hah. but he looks dead beat. u huh.

poof. im bored. n beat. n sleepy. yawns. hah. woke up like ard 8. can u believe it? 8? very bad man. cause of this flu. argh. craps. so woke up. watched tv. hogged on com. thn waited fer ma bro to get homies. thn headed outs wit mums n bro. wenta central. jus walk ard. haha. nuthin much though. dint see anyone i noe uh. sobs. haha. so i guess hes okay wit her already. i guess. i dunnoe. haha. so mayb moro im headin out wit impx fer a while to get sum stuffys ah. n afta tht folloe ma mum n dad to go play ard wit ma cussys. whee~ haha.

who shud i folloe? ma pri skewl frens or current one? i think if last resort. id go wit ma pri skewl cliques. seriously. dint went fer last years one. n i dun think i did tha prev year also. ahuh. miss em. evn if i saw dem fer quite sumtyme back. but tha atmosphere diff fer hari raye. mayb i'll jus folloe u guys to tchers houses ah. anythin but mondae uh. i chnged fer u guys thn last minute tukar. was feelin daym fuckin up jus nowe. its really fu-kin shit. urgh. like what ever ~ [[feelin of fcukin shittyness came back]]

so guess thts it. nuthin much. urgh. miss ya bad mann.

"Don't fall for a guy's line. He probably wants a different kind of relationship than you do."

I hope i dont n wont. Cus i did. So many many tymes before. when is tha real thing comin? when will tha real intentions of the other be clear to mie? when will i noe that i wont hafta worry bout anythin else, to get all this insecurities go awae? y must one fall so deeply insyde the other yet hes not tha person whus gonna be able to pick mie back up on ma feet in the end? werds will jus be words to thm. they dont really mean what they sae, do they? wen they sae they miss the other, do they really mean what they sae? Or isit jus anuther ticket or free ryde into a gurls heart, winnin them over, thn when a new one comes along, they'll go about makin reasons, thn ditch em. its really a dog eat dog werld out here. hah. seriously. guys go about sayin such sweet words to us gurls. wen all their intentions are so different. n they make us fall for them thinkin dat they like us tha sayme wae as we fall fer them. yea. thats howe i think of it. they smother us wit such sweetness. i will nvr understnd guys. i dun think guys will ever understand gurls. hah. watever it is. Guys can really b a sucker n yet all us gurls cant live witout em. haha. hate em, but cant live witout em. haha. guess i'll jus stop here. i jus feel like updatin this. n that daym freakin tag board is freakily irritatin. urgh!

im feelin pukey. since like yesterday. wats happenin to me? m i sufferin frm eatin disorders? i hope not. even if i do. cool. can lose of some pounds. n im havin flu like evry nyte n headache evry time i feel pukey. *screams* sumone help! listenin to siti nurhaliza. percayalah. touchin. *sobs* =)

so tdae. followed ma mum deposited ma money. lolx. i jus found out i got a hundred bucks stashed insyde one of many wallets. haha. so deposited n withdrew cash from ma account cus ma dad wanna chnge ta anuther bank. so nowe i haf like 2 bank books. haha. cool. afta tht met zu cass oda n fina. lolx. miss them.=) its fun. whee. haha. walked ard. thn went home.

so nxt week gonna go jln rayer with dem n also masse n gang. mayb mondae is wit mass, thn tuesdae wit zu n gang. fun fun. haha. n zus expectin mie to doll up maself. hmm. i'll think bout it. *smiles* haha. guess thts it la. nuthin much. nowe mayb headin to ma grannys house. chck out ma cousin from indo. haha. tatas peeps. =)

urgh. jus got bax from ma auntys place. i feel pukey. i puked straight afta i got home. *ewww* urghh. no comments though. i feel awfully shittish. gues i shud stop bout all this befo u guys strt pukin too. haha.tdae normal kinda dae. woke up ard 1 in tha noon. haha. nyce snooze. n definately a nyce dream i was havin. a dream tht ive been wantin fer soo long. lolx. n my coms is definately gettin cockier each sec. wat more is tag-board! craps. thn went out to ma auntys afta maghrib liddat. otha thn tht jus sat at home, entertain guests, eat, online. etc. yep thts all. tatas. =) *smiles* [[ borin entry aint it? haha. nuthin much lar.]] i miss. . . uhhh. . . i miss. . . .

Love. do you believe in love? i do believe in parental love and sisterly or brotherly or sibling love, where i guess they're bonded by blood relations. but other than that, i'm not that sure. have you come across any realtionship that lasts very long? where feelings dont fade? i sure havent. unless they're bound by marriage that is. i guess they have to make it work. or they already are used to it i guess. and even some, those who are married, get divorced. why? some because they don't "love" each other anymore. not happy together. so. no. i guess i dont really believe in love that way.

Life. it's something given to us. though unsure of the reason for it, i guess we have to make the best out of it huh. to live. what does that mean? what does it mean to live? to breathe, to eat, to laugh, to cry. to love? hmm. find happiness? experiences? getting scolded? going to school?

Fate. do you believe in fate? do i? i guess i do. maybe. i heard this once somewhere. that ur life is like a, you know one of those games? you get choices in your life. so. you choose, then you move on, then you choose again. and you move on. and once you choose the wrong or the bad choice, it's hard to turn back or to restart. cause you can't restart life. there's no restart button. you have to undo. which is hard i guess. haha like monopoly? haha you go to jail, then you can restart the game. haha

Absence. i hate absence. it does not make the heart grow fonder. really. it makes the hearts seperate. no matter how far they try to reach out for the other one. that's what i think. maybe it will try not to go far but i guess eventually it will drift. and whether the hearts stay together will prolly be determined by whether they're able to work out their differences, to see through problems and stuff.

Tomorrow. it's a word people take for granted. you never know if tomorrow will ever come. if tomorrow you will still be alive. so. tomorrow, remains to be seen. live for the moment? haha

let me be,nothing i feel.

emptiness inside,nowhere to hide.

i cant forget,always regret.

full of remorse,driven by cause.

morbid art that,grasps for your heart.

wrongful thoughts,Im left to rot.

Living a lie,Try not to cry.J

ust hide behind,Endless disguise.

So look at me,What do you see?

Do you know who I am?

Are you really my friend?

Boy Next Door - Your ideal guy is the brotherly and
huggable boy next door. He's always around,
knows you better than anyone, and loves to
cuddle. He's not neccessarily attractive to
most, but something about him makes him
charming and adorable in your eyes.

ma grandies from ma mums syde jus got home. whowee. had a fun whole dae outs tdae. lolx. wenta all ma grandies sis, bros, in laws etc. lol. fun facts, history. n fun facts of smugglin in chocs from all tha houses we wenta. yep yep. usual routine of tha 'stealin' or 'smugglin' of chocs n junks from tha usual batch of irritants. lolx. mie n ma cussys. haha. n irritants of tha younger genres doin tumble-tots on tha elder cousins. yikes! tha gossips of tha ladies. n tha men smokin off their heads [mainly ma dad] n also ma dad makin fun of lil kiddies, in laws, n cousins. Sarcastic ones. haha. tdae is mainly full of sarcarsm. seriously. even ma old nyanyok grandad was makin fun of ma auntys. haha. evilness runs in tha family. hahahaha. so then afta headin to a few houses they got baks to ma house. n as usual. tha kiddies ransacked ma room. *faints!* urgh. wat more can i do. irri-ness. n they kinda stayed there. so nuthin much though. lolx. moro gonna head ta cik liza's house. n o yar. jus nowe ma new aunty. lol, 'new aunty' told mie bout braces. yikes. she told mie wen i took it off i cant eat it cus tha roots are loose. n imagine tha dae i'll be akin it off is tha dae n cousin is gettin married!!!! ahhh!!! no briyanis! no chickens! no prawns!!! ahhh!! *screams* i can go crazyy!!! no delicasies!!!! chocolates!! ice creams! urghhh!!!! god damit! shits mann. i wonder howe long. urgh. no nyce food. last resort porridge? o gawd! *sobs*
haha. nuthin else though. lolx. c u guys ard! i wonder hu im missin this few daes.... hmmm.. u think?

im feelin empty. emptyness of sumthin which i dun even noe what. heh. i really dun feel like updatin. jus feel like evrythins walkin awae. jus gone. n i dun even noe what. i wish i knew. hah. wishes. where do dey all go to if they dont come true? i wonder. o nvm.

Mornin people. N slamat harie rayer to all tha muslims out there. specially to tha peeps i noe. Sorry fer all tha sarcasm n bad stuffs i did fer tha past months. i noe ive been bad. =X hope its all gonna b forgiven. =)

So. tdae is tha mornin of hari raya. umm. i was so sleepin ever so soundly wen tha phone woke mie up wit smses frem frens. yawns. sleepy. yest slept at 4. like, again. before tht headed to geylang. followed ma parents. as usual. tht place was jammed packed. n i saw him! haha. was kinda in a state of thinkin, 'tht face looks familiar. if ur here...' thn was lookin ard. saw him. lolx. i was dumbstruck. haha. so i saw him, him n ya. wen m i gonna bump into tht neighbour of mine? gosh. its been long. jus wanna make tha bumpins n meetins of tha ppl i have or had a heart for to be complete. lolx. is tht too much to ask? o fate. pls make mie bump into tht neighbour. lolx.

so i was kinda contented n felt happy tht i tagged along yest. ferst cus i saw him. haha. yep. n i was thinkin, ' dont u folks have a home?! its like 2 in tha morn n u guys aint shoppin. u guys are havin a "picnic" like 2 am, at geylang, with ur family?! ' n to imagine thts tha reason y we get all those mats n minahs. sorry bebs. mayb its cause frm their own blood, meanin their parents. like duh~ bad influance. o nvm. y must i bother. lucky fer mie i got a got home, n a good pham. jus kinda feelin grateful this mornin. no idea why.

guess thts it. nuthin much to update. jus feel like updatin. o wow. im feelin soo decent. n good. haha. o im crappin again. well. tatas peeps. hope u guys have a good hol. n have a good festive season! miss you guys much much!

aloha people!! lolx. moro rayer!!! haha. yipee. finally i might sae tht i feel tha rayer feelins. i think. haha. so tdae wenta jb. like again. n tdae my bro had a shoppin spree fer his sort of year end party. so not fair. he got himself sum nike dunk high cut shoes. n quiksilver pants! so not fair. haha. but i got maself anuther pair of DC too. lolc. pinkies one. haha. thn walk2 thn buke there. im so full tht on wae home feel like pukin. hehe. tha ppl in tha shop was kinda cute. lolc. specialy one of this guy. haha. cute-ness! n yea. yesterdae saw tha guy frm KL. gawd cute man. i mean hes a singaporean. bumped into him at KL a couple of tymes. lolx. so guess thts it la. nuthin much to updatey. tatas! CAMAT RAYER PEOPLE!! MAAF ZAHIR & BATEN!!

so its past midnight. n i jus got home frm ma grannies at geylang! finally went there. whippeee. n as usual tha place is daym packed wit ppl. like duh~ haha. so waited till ma folks finished their prayers. thn went down n strt tha journey of walkin. lolx. nuthin much there exactly. lolx. fer tht i gained anuther 10 more bucks. haha. n hey! taufiqs in! muahaha. n daphnes out! n slys in bottom two! yes ah! haha. ok ok i'll stop tha nonsense. nuthin much to update though. its still tha same old stuffys all ard. n yea. had a really nyce talk with him. dint noe i created an impact. diint noe i did on any of ma guys. heh. i thought i was tha normal gal who meant nuthin to em. mayb some of thm dint. but hey. gues its diff fer him. sobs. memoirs. sweet memories. like tha sayin. 'its hard to sae goodbye to yesterdae' yep. hard. fate played its cards. bleahs. hate it. i dun think abione readin this wud understnd. haha. nvm. its btw mie n the otha old 'mine'. lolx. o gues thts it. tatas. nytes peeps. n i miss ya!

taufiqs song berlainan jiwa was like soo touchin?! o m g! hes like so cutteeee!! wait2.. i betta not sae moro if hes soon-to-be fiancee (Nadia J) scold mie. shhh~ lolx. ahh! tha song really can make u tear up. imagine if ur other half sings it. serenade you. o m g! u can like tear up mann. its so touchin.. ahh~~ i wonder ho will sing it fer mie. *drools* haha. so mayb. i'll keep on dreamin till tha guy comes n serenade mie.. ahhh!! n took pix wif leandra.. haha. she cute mann. lol. but taufiq cuter. k i better shuttup. haha. i wonder whull be voted out moro. hmm. nah not gonna mention any names. lol. jus hope its not tau. keke. hey. im not crazy bout him ah. im just. jus. atrracted to tha waes. his waes. haha. though moro not many ppl goin cus its only tha half our showe. but hey. its a ticket out tha house. waddya expect. shud i get ma bro along? ummm. i kinda pity him sittin at homie doin nuthin.. n mie outs havin fun.. nvm. he'll get ta enjoy wen tha tyme comes. so gues thats it fer tdae. i dunnoe wat to update ah! haha. c u guys ard. n happy deepavali!

This is good stuff fer th ladies.. so read.. even if its long - winded.. but it made mie realise stuffs which i nvr did before.. so to tha ladies.. this is fer u guys!

Why do beginning's have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end? These are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled. In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It's as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you'll be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not, they who go feel not the pain of parting; it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of love that was meant to be a love that was. At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone. Unfair as it may seem, but that's the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. After all nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us even knowing why...and we must forget not because we want to but because we have to. In letting go, sorrows come not as single spy but in battalion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always remind you of him. It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing. Just imagine there are four billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other. I don't know if it's worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heals wounds but it takes push on our part. Acceptance plays a part. Not all wishes come true. Not all love stories end with "happily ever after". We hate to suffer if it would mean happiness to others. We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pain. Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we have to live up with. It's over. He's gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn't always mean forever. There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled. Somewhere, somehow, someday.
[[abstracted fromhttp://joannekelly.myknet.org/]] writings part..

whheee! im so lovin this song! tha lyrics are fantastic. specially tha chorus. u gotta listn to tha whole song mann! n i edited this template. weee. nowe its so pinkish. i mean. not that pinkish. but colorful i might sae. n to think im suppose to do up his bloggy. lolx. guess. mines a priority. isit nyce? or plain? or can b seen its too hand-made? lolx. watever la. i like it. so thts it. n if u dont. thts not ma probby. ahaha. so tdae woke up at noon. yeay! n i dun think im havin insomnic nytes this past nyts. lolx. nowadays i haf nyce sweet peaceful sleep wit sweet dweams. *smiles* thn i watched 'saved'. its kinda tha 'jesusie' 'christianity' kinda showe. thn hooked on com since ard 4? till nowe? lol. so nuthin muchie happened though. umm. kinda borin. but hey! i do noe howe ta keep maself occupied. i think. tatas peeps. till nxt tyme.

umm. im hungry n not to mention sleepy. zZzZz. yawns. yest slept at 3 in tha morn. like Again. but it wasnt really like a waste of tyme cus was chttin on tha phone n helpin out on sum stuffs. Sweet! lolx. so tdae my folks woke me up early like ard 10. urgh. i was so enjoyin ma sleep. so headed ta johor. went ta giant. got tha groceries n got sum cds. not much though. afta that wenta angsana. whee~ tha shoes! Dc shoes! ahhh~ *dreamy eyes* its sooo cheap n god daym nice!! urghhh!! i want em!! i want em!!! anyone go wif mie puhleeaasseee! i so wanna get em. tha DC is sooo Nyce man. n its 80 currency der! o mi gosh! o mi gosh! I cant get enuff of em! k fines ill stop. haha. so thn headed fer home. theres kinda traffic hold up evrywhere. even in tamp. yea. daym shittish. so thts it la. nuthin muchie though.

umm. one qs. What makes us miss the other so much? Is it cus of their not-there presence or sumthin else? or tha impact tht theyve made once in your life but nowe is gone? does anione noes the ans. cus i really need ta noe. =) thnx. tatas peeps. nytes.

im feelin extremely tired. n sleepy. n lost. n down. n no idea wat else la. howe u find tha ryte blogskins fer guys? i dunnoe mann. umm. steal from otha guys bloggys? mayb. heh. reason i asked. i need ta do up his bloggy back againy. blahs. im free aniwae. but moro im headin outs ta jb. wit folks. i tink gettin festive stuffs or sumthin. not sure. but i jus go there to get cds. im needin new cds, movies. my taggy dun seem to b werkin. craps. so jus nowe wenta town in cass n zu. walked ard fer a while thn had misuderstandins btw zu n her folks n odz. dunnoe la. dun wanna get involved. im so in no mood la. urgh. so guess thts it la. nuthin muchie to update though. nytes.

to ame :: howe cum i dint c ya onliney yet u replied ma taggy so fast. cool. n ur headin ta thailand? thts so kewl. all tha cheap goods! lolx. aniwae. that sea spots thingy. wat ya wanna take ah? i myself dunno. lolx. any ideas? *scratch head*

phowee. yawns. im sleepy. yest slept at 3 man. dang! urgh. thn woke up ard 10. cus had cramps n atmospher kinda stuffy n noisy. urgh. n woke up wit flu! bad terrible flu! *sniffs* terrible2. m i gettin chubbier? thts wat ma aunty told mie. yikes. =)

so tdae may buke-in outs or sumthin. last minute thingy. whu cares. im not fastin aniwae. jus go wit it though im pretty darn lazy to get ma arse movin. but hey! i need tha 'excercise'. yeah ryte! aniwae. i updated ma frenster profile. was in those moods to update.

ive decided what i wanna do in bali.

1. para-sailin
2. wake-boardin
3. water raftin? mayb. if there is. =)
4. braid ma hair. again. whee~
5. shoppin
6. shopp
7. n moree shooppiinn till i drop! surfs up dude! here i come!

haha. so thts it. till later at nytes. tatas~

Im lookin at her n shes so daym hot n free. n mie? gosh. m i suppose to compete wit that? that face. that eyes. those clothes. tha freedom. seriously. given a guy to choose between. shes gonna win hands down. no doubt bout it. specially hes tht sorta person. wow. i mean im tha typical gurl-next-door. shes tha hot babe whos gonna b walkin down tha runwae. Aaa~ i have got nuthin more to sae mann. o craps.

So tdae had ma test which i barely studied. wenta class wit a 'confident' face. haha. n writin one sentence answers fer a ten mark essay fer 4 qs. i think i did pretty well. haha. dream on nisa! yea. dream on! Afta that headed to grannys house. tha one at mp. so long i dint visit ma granny at geylang. mish her mann. hehe. its not that full la like it used to b. ma uncle was there. so was his soon-to-be wifey. kinda kewl. he showed mie n a younger cousin of mine hes report book. all As. cool huh? wat more can i sae he's from RI n RJC. lolx. n so succesful. hes tha manager of tha Singapores Rugby thingy. Cool huh. n he showed us all tha mags he was in n also other achievemnts. daym cool. he was a model fer adidas? n also was featured as an eligible bachelor on her world mag. n also otha mags. I was thinkin to myself. such great history ma uncles n auntys have. ma anuther uncle used to be tha captain fer Singapores football club? hes alwaes was ard those fandi ahmads batch kinda ppl. Fantastic man. Such history! n ma mum told mie more. Both good n bad bout in-laws n all while in tha car waitin fer ma dad n bro. kinda wierd but true. lolx. wish i cud b like him. all As. except fer malay tht is. haha. n ma older cussy is talkin 0s. wahahaha. all tha bes dude! make our pham proud! lolx. n i was like a ragdoll. really hate those small cussys. i mean not hate but irritated? irri-ness mann. urgh.

so yea. mayb thats it fer tdae. nuthin much to update. but its tha thing up der is seriously takin its toll n buggin mie. urgh. o where o where is my my life leadin to. o wher o wher will it be. *singsadly* sobs. nah. not that emo. lolx. so moro mayb buke-in outs. gotta ask ma dad ferst. but hey im not fastin. so cant sae im 'buke-in' cant i? lolx. till nyx tyme. nytes!

there it was again! werds! tha rush of feelins! emotions! lolx. im so gonna sleep happily tonite! haha. i am so missing you ryte nowe! nytes peeps! haha. wheeeee~~~

i love tha dictionary! i love doin blog templates! hahahaha. its fun! n its 12 n im not in bed yet! im not seven yet sleepy! gawd! i need sumthin to do! muahahaha!

yeay taufiqs safe! whipee. n wat shit mann. olinda n leandra bottom 2. suppose to be sly leandra n daphne mann. dey sound so shittish? no offence to their supporters though. lets jus face it. singapore is totaly racist, face-concerned, age-concerned society. wat more can i sae mann. imagine one of em who won will represent singapore in world idol. eeesshhh! its a horrid thought man. so urgh. so memalukan. so ewww. no standards no nuthin man dude! haha. its totally crap! yea yea. i shud stop. haha. im bored. o shit! i havnt study! haha. i havnt man. moros tha paper! *screams!* shud i strt nowe? umm. lazy larh. haha. nvm. i'll jus use ma instincts fer moros paper! hah! yea ryte nisa. instincts. haha. craps mann. im like totally talkin to maself. hah! n u noe wat? sumthin really bugs mie. its like 10 mins to buke-in puase i found out tht i cant fast! urgghh! nowe i gotta pae like a whole dae jus bcus of a few minutes! crap! ahahaha. i tink i'll not be fastin anymore ah. until hari raye. haha. lazy larh. im so gonna stuff maself. wit tha cookies. chocolates. food. drinks. yumms. haha. craps craps. o craps. lolx. bah~ hey! so long nvr use that! bah bah black sheep have you any wool?! *sings* im so happy. i dunnoe y. heh. im suppose to be in ma p-m-s-y kinda moods u noe. well most gerls do. ok ok. i'll chnge ma mood. hhaha. you c. i cant! haha. n tdae ma bro wenta trawih. ferst tyme dudes! haha. so. so. so. unbelievable. haha. i noe. its so evil of mie to think so low of ma bro. haha. but its fun u noe. once in a while. haha. n tdae made choco cookies. n im suppose to measure tha weight of tha stuffs needed. so i did. thn comes tha choco chips. ahhh~ haha. im such a choco freak that i put loads loads loads more. haha. suppose to be like 250 g. i went n add double of it. n mayb a lil bit more. muahahaha. fun man. bake here bake there. haha. im watchi these style doctors show. thers this make up guy. he pronounced sea shell as she shells! ahaha. so ahbengy mann. haha. so this sums up most of tha stuffs. tatas people! muahahaha!

gosh. im bored. n i really need to study. not fer nxt year. but tmr! ahhh! ummm. but im lazy. hehe. yawns.=)

im secretin so much sweat. i mean oil from my forehead. ish! sticky icky! i hate em. n my hair is gettin curlier each sec! i hate it! urghh. i dunt wanna go fer straightenin. its so *eewwww* mayb perm? haha.. no wae la. i'll jus doll it up my wae. lolx. im so like wastin electricity mann. tha tvs on. 'what a girl wants' tha movie. jus switch it on fer fun. so that ma surroundings wont b dead. urgh. dead. haha. i dunnoe what else to updatey. jus updated this fer fun. adios peepza! tatas. =)

i smell of cookies. evn afta a shower. so, is tht good or bad? *sniff sniff* ummm. hehe. helped my bibik make sum festive cookies n tarts. yumms. but m fastin! bleahs! cant taste em! hehe. temptations~ finally todae i woke up at noon. woweee! finally! kinda need tha sleep. but it did burned off yest. n i found out tht she bought a whole huge packet of m&ms n dint tell mie. god damn it! haha. im so gonna eat thm all. tonite! muahahaha! im goin crazy. actually im havin a headache! n tha rains gone! wheee~ so what else shud i ryte about. umm. nuthin much actualy! im dead bored! nuthin to do! urgh! i want fun! where tha heck is tha Fun family?! hello? im sufferin here..! haha. k guess i shud stop ryte nowe. before these gibberish nonsense starts all over again. tata peeps! rollie - pollie - ollie! (its a kiddy showe) lolx! n it sure does smell nyce n yummy from my room. ahh~

he saes he misses mie. n has got no idea why. *awwwww* howe sweet. was i on his mind? kinda unexpected though. especially from him. to u guys readin this. im not referrin to my guy. yeah. its definately suddenly. kinda missed tha 'attention' & 'showerin of love' from the other half. im bearin wit it. as alwaes. not gonna fuss bout it. it alwaes will turn out tha same. so i cant sae nythin. lolx. let fate take all tha glory destiny do all tha calculations n then do mie all tha pain. so thts it. nytes peeps. n yep. i m missin ya. loads. [nowe its fer my 'HIM'] =)

yea. so i watched garfield tha movie. on dvd. was dead bored. but am too lazy to get my butt of tha couch. i need to liven up. im gonna b dead if this continues mann. i need movies. movies n more movies. i need chocos. i need. i need. somthin to do. i need somthin to wash awae all this headache tht is crampin up in ma head. urgh. i need sleep. ahh yes. sleep. i cant sleep in tha noon. no i cant. or i'll have sleepless nytes at nites. like yesterdae. slept in tha noon n cant sleep at night. craps. i still got pile ups of homework to get done. what more my mad test this sat. o craps. i havnt study. mayb i will. not nowe. but soon. at the eleventh hour i guess. nothin much to study aniwae. all bout marriage n divorce n stuffs. daym hardcore deadly lame. urgh. so gues i'll be back to ma tv marathon nowe. tata peeps. hope u guys are havin sucha 'fun' holiday. i feel like takin 0s nowe. ummm. . . . can i?

"Promise"

Breakdown

I can't take this

I need somewhere to go

I need you

I'm so restless

I don't know what to do

'Cause we've had our rough times

Been fighting all night

And now we're just slipping away

So you'll give me this chance

To make the wrongs right, to say:

Don't, don't, don't walk away

I promise

I won't let you down (you down)

If you take my hand tonight I promise

We'll be just fine

This time

If you take my hand tonight

If you take my hand tonight

Without you

I go through the motions

Without you

It's just not quite the same

Without you

I don't wanna go out

I just wanted to say

That I'm sick of these fights

I'll let you be right

If it stops you from running away

So just give me this chance

To make the wrongs right

To say

Don't, don't, don't walk away

I promise

I won't let you down (you down)

If you take my hand tonight

I promise We'll be just fine

This time

If you take my hand tonight

Take my hand Take my hand (I promise)

Take my hand (I promise) Take my hand

I promise

I won't let you down (you down)

If you take my hand tonight

I promise We'll be just fine

This time

If you take my hand tonight

If you take my hand tonight

I won't let you down

So take my hand tonight

it has been a borin. nothin-to-do. dead. kinda dae. it alwaes have been. n will alwaes b. blahs. all i did tha whole dae was hogg on this com. n yeah. im turnin into an insomniac kid. dunnoe wats gonna happen next. u think? cant seem to sleep. sleep too will not be in peace. so next entries fer tha nyx few daes or weeks gonna b short n dead. i so wanna get tha simpleplan cd! anyone can get mie one? pls? wen is this boredom gonna die out. depend on my frens to head out. haf fun. not evryone can go out. howe pathetic can my life be. i really wanna fly of to somewhere. bah~ i noewhy i like that werd. fer those ppl who caught 'tha grudge' its sumwhat tha sound of that kid makes. =) impx hates it. so thts it fer tdae. nuthin muchie though. toodles~

insomniac

im turnin into an insomniac kid. urgh. i wanna sleep!

B o r i n g

whee~ NOT so many stuffs have been happenin ard. Bah~ haha. jus like tht werd. Bah~ haha. so. yeah. i rang him up on saturdae. lolx. happy. talked till one plus in morn. haha. funn. its been long since we had a decent conversation on tha phone. whipee~ thn on sundae. woke up ard 11. lolx. was in no mood to talk. was jus doin ma stuff. imagine. at home. on a sundae. doin nuthin. at all. daym pathetic. haha. so at nughtey headed to tm. got ma tee. n spent ard 20 bucks in like an hourr. goshie. haha. thn todae. headed outs wit impx n zu. ferst wenta skewl. impx wanna get her report slip n zu wanted to get her lecture pad. n we saw all tha peeps whu were takin 0s. bah~ nyx year its our turn. on wae there saw ivor n kl. guess tdae. mr lucky is not on ma syde. dint bump into him. sob. haha. n wen i was about to walk home frm simei. it gawd daym well rained. heavily. sigh. haha. n yest adil called mie alot alot of tymes. haha. n he was kinda dumbstrucked wen i told him hu tht person is. haha. n talked talked. funny. tdae 0 level bukannyer nk blaja. call2 org lagik ader. haha. maut. so jus nowe walked ard tm. saw tha 'yan'. *no comments*. seriously no comments. like whatever! irri. ive been thinkin. i want sometin real. somthin long term. somthin serious? no more hanky pankys wit short terms. blahs. so thts it fer tdae. its gonna be a b-o-r-i-n holidae. howe ta haf fun? lolx. see [[ya]] guys around. tatas.