If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl.
Forever, perfectly together
And tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

- The Sweet Escape, Gwen Stefani

okay, 2 more papers and i'm freee! :)

shall&will hit the books now!

bye!

The OC has ended. The finale was a very sweet one, at certain times sad. Sigh, no more Seth, no more Summer, Ryan, Taylor, Sandy, Kirsten . . . . . i want it on DVDs please. so i can watch the re-runs and cheer myself up.

hrrrgh.

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

- Brighter Than Sunshine , Aqualung

It's amazing how we fear the weary
It'f from ourselves we so often run
Abandon fear and consequence of heartbreak
Expose the truth and give yourself to love
We've all been set up to be disappointed
We have to crawl before we learn to fly
It's a blur that moves right into focus
Removes the doubt aligns your heart with mine.

- Build My World, JC Chasez.

i think the cc makes me daydream more then when im at home. and by the time the clock strikes 8, i couldnt study any longer.

and the most random thing i could want to do is take a long route home and have a walk in the park. hah.

okay, somehow, im fucking excited for the things im gonna do during the holidays. :) with catching up wih the girls, going out with the girlfriend, days with the boyfriend, chalet, cruise, shopping, latenights, evern later mornings. oh, you get the drift. :)

i want my exams to be over in a jiffy. lalala.

okay, byee! :)

i was about to leave my house to study when batman came on, on kidscentral.

& now i cant leave till it finishes. hurrrrrr.

oh, i found PB 217! yeayeayeay! im only left with OC 414&415. :) yeay.

maybe i should stop trying for awhile,

just awhile, to see.

im still here,

but it hasnt been easy,

im sure that you had your reasons,

& im scared for this emotion.

&i wish i knew everything about you,

i wish you shared, not everything but atleast, something.

you make me laugh till i want to roll around crying till i die.

&i was being sarcastic.

i have lost, maybe misplaced, my favourite, & i think lucky too, pencil.

such timing!

i need my tobleronees! (:

i cant wait till 1st march is over. hah. i'll be a happy bunny then.

1529374023740 lovely days under the sun. oh, the love. (:

Well, lets step outside

Lets go for a ride

Just for awhile.

No we wont get caught,

well, thats what i thought until we cried.

As of tmr, im gonna make love with the CC furnitures more thn anyone. studystudystudy.

oh, im unhappy. and i want to go shopping.

i think i have found the cutest little cat ever.
im waiting waiting, for a reply from CWS.

wait, i havent even asked for approval from the parents. -__-

haha. :)

NOW, it is time for my shower! hahaha.

bye lovelies!

and i missssss the girls of '06. :)

lets laze around till dawn breaks ;

okay, i need a shower.

and im meeting my boyfriend at 4, its already 3:15, and im not even dressed yet!

lets go out nekkkiid!

you make sense of madness,
i lose my way, but you still understand.

always, now&forever.

loves.

i need to get back to sims-ing.

im bored, but i feel free.

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But the worst thing about living now lies not in sensing, but in finding that my senses are still just as alive, still flared to the tiniest details of life, the whoosh of water washing away grime and vomit, the sibiliant noise of brooms slapping on cement, the hope and faith of birds who were once the bearers of our flame, but not being able anymore to be surprised by joy.

James Morrison - Wonderful World

I've been down so low
People look at me and they know
They can tell something is wrong
Like I don't belong

Staring through a window
Standing outside, they're just too happy to care tonight
I want to be like them
But I'll mess it up again

I tripped on my way in
And got kicked outside, everybody saw...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

Sometimes I feel so full of love
It just comes spilling out
It's uncomfortable to see
I give it away so easily
But if I had someone I would do anything
I'd never, never, ever let you feel alone
I won't I won't leave you, on your own

But who am I to dream?
Dreams are for fools, they let you down...

And I wish that I could make it better
I'd give anything for you to call me, or maybe just a little letter
Oh, we could start again

i want to know what it means.

its bugging me its bugging me its bugging me,

and you know it.

not the answers i was expecting to get but i guess, it gave me many more reasons to convince myself.

things have changed, i think i have changed.

good or bad, who knows.

// blogging in school is wierd, awkward. and im hungry.

i want a new baby.

more of, like a neeed.

the one i wanted was adopted already. i am so tempted to just adopt one even if its a local cat. hrrrrggghhh.

and i feel like spending valentines with all the people. somehow, this time, it feels right to spend that day with everyone. but on the other hand, i want to spend it with my boyfriend for the super-early-non-existant-29 causeitisfebruary. hmmmmmmmm. :)

okay, im in the spirit of loving&giving. too much to even care. so take advantage ya'll.

&& im in love with Andy Warhol.

i know you're my destiny,

but i don't know if you're my only destiny.

the jimmycooper before sandycohen.

strike my name off the list of people you miss&really want to meet ;

Joseph Conrad once wrote,

"Who knows what true happiness is? Not the conventional word but the naked terror. To the lonely themselves, it wears a mask. The most miserable outcast hugs some memory or some illusion."

&

Stephen King once wrote,

"Time takes it all whether you want it to or not, time takes it all. Time bares it away, and in the end there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometimes we lose them there again.

its not just another quote; its how i feel now.

i keep telling myself that if anything happens, ill just turn & walk away.

& i think i'll be just fine if i keep telling myself that.

just so i'll not make a big fuss over a small thing.

it was nice to see old faces after quite some time.

i know i miss them more thn i say i do.

i should have absent-ed myself from comprog today.

i could have had a nice longer sleeeeeep.

=/